You choose your friends
Those people who torture you
Those who have destroyed you
The same people who have given you such strife
Over me
Time and time again.
I find myself wondering,
Do those who ruin you, still mean more to you?
You make your answers very clear.
I am unable to accept, but they are obvious.
The answer is yes.
You search for their approval,
With no regard for the people who truly care for you
You abandon us who love you.
For those who hurt you.
My heart cannot handle this.
What do I do with this information?
SD 3/19/18

If one day,
you change your mind
and return to my side.
Remember this.
Remember all of the times you broke me.
The times you shattered me,
and left me on the floor.
When you realize what you’ve lost,
know what I have gained.
I have gained perspective.
I have gained independence.
But, remember what you took.
You took my optimism.
You took my faith in humanity.
You took a piece of my soul.
Do not return it to me.
If you leave me,
don’t return.
SD 3/9/18

Call her needy, clingy, and pathetic.
Laugh at her for needing reassurance,

But know this:

You are laughing at the little girl
whose mother never picked her up from school.

The girl who waited by the phone
for a Christmas call that never came.

Laughing at the numerous
unanswered letters and cards.

The girl who taught herself
about her body and boys.

Laughing at a tearstained face
when she got the voicemail again.

Laughing at the woman who got herself ready
on her wedding day because her mom didnt come.

The woman that waited at the hospital
but gave birth alone.

So call her what you want,

But know this:

You are laughing at the issues
following the abandonment
of a girl who just needed her mom.