you don't visit me in my dreams anymore, and i miss you now
more than i ever have before.

i know you may feel a little blue sometimes,
but just remember that the sun will rise and so will you.

I don't know how to love
without wanting more.

I don't know how to swim
when there is no shore.

I don't know if there's an after
when the present is sculpted from before.

I won't know love
if love is nothing but lore.

waves of terror splashing in my face
as i saw you leave
my heart's screaming
'she's leaving!'
'do something!'
'try anything!'
'make her stay!'

but my body just froze
and i felt
the door to my heart closed
and not long after that
it too, froze.

I am dawn itself
so dark and so hopeful, I'm
only beginning

Years, I think it was,
that you told me you
wanted me.
I just wasn't ready
for that kind of love.
Still you stayed in my life.
The day I knew was like
the sun being pulled out from
months of overcast skies.
Loving you was the
easiest thing I've ever done.
Some days I think
leaving me
was the easiest thing
you've ever done.
I should have known
when you started comparing
your paper cuts to
bullet holes,
convinced I was holding
the gun.
Desperate
for what you didn't have
and nothing changed
when you got it.
You were nothing
but sunshine
that couldn't handle
the rain.

perhaps he tasted like heaven,
but i was going to be hell
to his skin nonetheless.