This bed of ashes
Confined innocence
Cry all night
And I'll taste your current
Permeated
Transformed
Thrown across
You'll miss
This bullseye
Of our love

Paralyzed
To break the sound of your arrival
The stars mock him
Leaving him
Defeated
Ashamed
Never knowing
Where she might be
Oh, he could say
She's on the porch
Whilst staring through cloudy lenses
On the roof
Leaning against the tiles
For the embrace
Never felt by any lover
Or on the road
Making sure
The reason she's leaving
Are different
Than the ones
Used to say she will stay
That perpetuated imbalance
Could surely be her demise
Deep black
Brilliant
She awakens
To shower
To start the day

No I never said her name aloud, or around you
Fainted collections by the bedside
Never known from the emotions felt
Prayers
Things families kept
My west side bedroom
And you didn't understand
Just how much it hurt you
The night time shell
You remained
Faded in my image
Turned away
Burnt out in shadows
Clothes in the closet
I wept the whole way home
Designed by the day
By the pain we realized
Prior to twisted agony
Never feeling how the road sways
I'll still be losing blood
Deep ocean drowning
Kick
Losing breaths
Looking from the lights of the aftermath

I still would not believe you
A smell of damage
Laughing as your nightmare flickers
Vague proclamation to destroy
Asleep on a girl's hips
Our insanity has fallen by the river
Why must it be like this

Images emerge
This scarred
Twisted
Fallen vision
Remove
Send out the signal
A rebirth
Day to day
Our life and death
Fissioned from the lonely soil
Of a few weeks ago
We just got by
Favored towards forgiveness
Caged love by night

This midnight witness now crumbles
Fear
A stare that destroys
My scars will remain beautiful through winter
Trespass me
Replace bones with those in the forest
We speak of time
You listen to an images portrayal
This too will haunt you
The chest of this earth is searching for finality
What am I becoming?

We won't forget you

Here above man

Below our lords

You rest

With grace

Our love held

Eternally

In your honor

We pray daily

And I search

This undying reprimand
And ceaseless mourning
Forgetting to continue in measure
To keep these things at bay
With grace
To say more than enough
Handing floating remorse
Give sway
This night
Born from a lonely day
Pray
Like before
Stomaching passion
To never be whole again
Departing visions
Grasping your innocent defeat
Drowning such sweet melodies

And we will search for a memory torn

Warmth

Two dances

A window kiss and lies are now past wounds

Your form is breathing and fruitful

We hope this void is worth the pain

Please
Please let me get what I want
Be present
Shining down
Your eyes
Crouched
By the window frame
With mortal flesh
Beam light
Through the doorway
As you collapse
On my couch

She blinks at you from across the room
Unsure, you move to a corner table
You ask about film
The most predictable subject of all
It's good
With a quiet rasp settled in the back of her throat
Darting eyes
Slivered retractions of fingertips
Hold
It's a command, almost
Bringing a stack of books, they're left in front of you
You're grateful and surprised
A turn of the shoulder and she's gone
Night falls and you're reminded you need rest
You're approached by her on the way to your car
Drunk, but concerned, you listen for now
Shuffled into a long drive is all you can remember
When your eyes glaze back to the scenery
You're in a gray slate parking garage
A table laid before you
It won't hurt that much she says
You see a syringe, a box, shreds of paper
An idle black electronic device sitting in front
You barely stand
Static from a TV is noticed
But across the street through smudged windows
There's nothing in it she says
A belt is tied around your right bicep
Your arm becomes a veined map
A piece of paper appears
You grasp and write 7-0-0-1 and 2-9-6-4
Smoke settles within your midst
Hums and tragedy fill your thoughts
You don't know if this is you

Branches of regret
Pillars of imagined perfection
Restored features
Optional decaying cells
Moments trickling into chaos
Waking from a black frame
Your melted singing voice

It's again open season
Yet there remains no vacancy
No rooms for rest
Salmon kite
Days of nostalgia
Free float
Pure trist
Illis quotes Amber
The fungus grows larger
A beast and a rifle to burden this momentum
Falling through a mother's pine
One thousand banes in the form of love
A mother's work is never done
Ninth dynamic
Four hours and this is forged again
Silver screams heard through golden temples
Dust settles, the bricks fall
A mile of bone penetrates the pyramid
Bringing new forms of energy
Satan's toothpick
And sharp fur for another
Ghost conductor entering messages
Down there, he eats in a fit of slothful rage
In fits of overdosed shrubbery
***** clocks
Each hollows and fades you
Advanced romance as strands won't return
Dirt searches for your face in the midnight hours
Artificial chains
Lead by burns
Idolatry commencement

My care for you will never go away
It is engrained
Carved into my skin
Intricate
Invisible
Confident
Excruciating
Pumped through body and mind
You were always safe
You were always loved

Fourth time writing you
Getting darker now
Living on roads
Existing at home
My second happy ending
Stimulate
Grey pain
Tear
Dreams of pure love
Awaiting your arrival
Writing on receipt paper
Friday's spent walking  
Much closer now
It seems
Fear became our constant
Breathe for me once more

It's all over now
Lovely but forgotten
Showing less each time
Bathing unspoken insecurities
Envisioning whispered structures
Not bereft of your distant existence
Birthed features fading again
Useless rhythm keeping time
Trapped completely
Stripped of a promised exit
The start of your electric identity
Savage instruments underneath
I collapsed with convicted acceptance
An evening with dissolved delicacy
Dozing on your eternal shoulders

Infinite years past
To dig with impatience
Seems like forever to you now
There's nothing here
But betrayal
Twisted words
Depths unknown even to you
Pleading
Again
To go home
Forbearing a tainted helix
Your fingerprints
Not much to see
But stained with rage
We beg for love
But are given faith
However durable
Unquenched
In the simplest of ways

Maybe it is my fault

So this spells tragedy
Dually noted
Something off my chest
And into your heart
Now a digital voice murmuring
A synthesized plea
Love that spans highways
But only 79 miles an hour
The tattoo on the crease of your elbow
And are you okay?
I'm still wondering
As you let the smoke pour through the skylight
Nothing else mattered to me

Your window rolled down
The smoke
Pouring out of my mouth
Like your chimney in winter
And yet
The whole time
I perceive things moving slow
My grinning face
Your laugh
All the lights from driving down the highway
That every few seconds
Light up our faces horizontally
And flash in terrific blinding orange stripes
But still
Moving slowly
Softly
Like the gentle waves of foam at night
The car slows
The engine dies
I climb out dizzily
I realize we've arrived at the ocean
Just in time for a midnight swim, you say

These secrets bled long ago
A four-hundred year candle blown out
Now separated
Your bedroom window
A hidden floor
Static sheets
Finding me flushed and infectious
Raw
And with power unreal

You swooped down
Hula hooped
And dropped for the kiss
Lit cigarette in hand
Laying down in the backseat
Feeling the cold air once more
Planes in the distance
We leave Tuesday
We could be there for each other
I would still sell my shoes

The most unholy of nights
A hibernation from servitude
Ghostly
Grey
Illuminated
You send him to decrease the pain within

Y el dolor sigue ahí
Ahora ido
Tuya eternos

Window storm
Refraction of opal hair
Gatherings of a salvaged flock
Incomprehensible
A series of melted bruises
Final lap of my somnolence
Short of my hands around your throat
You may promise nothing
Stop us

Purity stripped

This pain left days ago

Without dreams inside

Parched

There may be something more

Swallow

A tree of smoke

A night will come where the stars shine for you

To an end you will know

Promising nothing in return

Her glowing neck

Eyes that calm tempestuous seas

You allow this power to find peace

The width and depth of the ocean
Winds my spine upward
Sending distress signals
Of the souls
Lost for eternity
In lust
Speaking of the wisdom
Once held in fortresses
Beneath the waves
Haunting dreams
I have yet to fathom
And the thoughts
That escaped my head
During the lonely nights
I think of you my dear,
In the gasp of breath
Reaching out
Lingering on
Without remorse
Please help this drowning disaster

All this time with sails crumbled
Scared
Matriculated
Longing for the shores once more
A rustic room
Or a promise
Four times removed
And replaced
With infectious imagery
No
It cannot be
Between the silence
There lies a message
Please
Don't let go
These cotton sheets
They tell of a true legacy
To memorize a taste of strength
I've searched too far
Lunar sighs
Or a deliberated throb
Purity in nature
Strings attached with missing pieces
Is all I ask

I'm not saying everything is perfect
I'm not saying things are amazing
I'm not saying life is perfect
I'm not saying people are amazing

I just want to stay in bed
(warm and safe for now)

Puerto Rican ***
A long car drive
Neighborhood kids
Fireworks
Laughs given
And tears taken
Unfiltered cigarettes
And cardboard boxes
Your father was still a sociopath back then
And our apartment smelled like the ocean
My energy was only matched
By your good grace
Mostly I remember
When you told me I would be okay

Pity
Isn't it too?
That as I neared a reproaching breath
That I should be pulled under
And with no one to hold me
Funny
Isn't it too?
I saw you running alone the shore
Once more
And kept running
As I swam away
You opened the cellar door

We can't remember our broken landscapes
A failure for another day
The portrait of how easy it is to sever chains
Now a picture lost
Handling these fortunes with damage
This is your disaster
A mansion's space filled with no stirs and burning timbers
Tonight thinking of torn moments
A weight with beautiful form
To focus on what is taken and what remains
To taint, that is our goal
Pink ***** running red
A green or blue fortune and its rust filled transfiguration
Cursed legacies
Not shameful but young
Slipping past collapse
For seasons of drownings
Hopeful and bare
Drown in the semi circles of her asymmetrical chest
Rest in a navel full of seed
Spilled in the vain context of a quickening fleeting love
Humanized anger lay naked
Core liquid
Lonely ground
Ecstasy burst
Infinite devour
Mother's sores heal
My own weep and lactate
A siren welcome
Sung and swayed
Reflections at a dark dawn

This agony is true

Let's hope it's really up to you

When it's very late at night

And you're laying down to sleep

I pray I'm not remembered as a ****

Or someone you can hate

I'm made of deep sweat and cigarettes

There is an ending here that I don't regret

Will he ever love?
Tragic now,
As I see the footprints
Trudged through the snow
These ashes fall as snowflakes
And an endless winter
Has now been brought forth
You're alone now
There's nothing wrong
Must be too strong for you
Build your temples, child
Stay by the withering flames
Now once removed
Twice caught
Three times fallen
In it's most eloquent stage

I realize now
I should have gotten out

This late night testament
Of our forlorn grace
Starlit proof
Suffering of cast down treasure
Whilst driving through highways
Steady tempo
And keep your beat
To a certain future
Witness the sunk in smile
Never opposing
Always
Ever watchful
With blotted intentions

It's past midnight now
So I know you should have gone home
But you wait
To reside by the beach
In my thoughts
You've crossed over yellow-lit streets
I've only just slipped past the gate
My phone held tightly in my grasp
You never call
My aunt and uncle
Leave the front door unlocked
I walk towards the guest bedroom
Past the great hall
The dimly lit artifacts
To stand there
Perceiving this bedroom
Seemingly in all white
Awaiting your call
Waiting for you
Staying awake that much longer
Feeling drowsy to your image
Please
Say you've found your peace in this day

The waiting
And the darkness therein
Bending of lights
As I stood in awe
Of the architecture of flames burnt
So lovely
The ghosts within those walls
Whole again with dream-like motion
At once
Sitting on a boat outside the city
Seemingly limitless
Staring into that great abyss
Always searching
Always waiting
For you to find me
Shaking in the misty morning sunrise
To return from the sun being dipped
Gone
And if I find you
Take my hand
Stroll the dimly lit corners of this city
Please know that fear cannot touch us
And walk into tomorrow
As the same day

It won't be the same

Childhood flowering to blue

One last night to die, longingly

Indecisive

Open

Flesh dawn

Her eyes string silver corners

And throb to an ancient pulse

Sunlight pain

Calm end to a pure sound

Do these these things make time sleep for you?

My memory
Used to be after eleven o'clock
No longer a loner
But with late night pool dives
And smoke and drinks
Shower conversations
Lingering emotions
Lost love
Fading voices
Be still
Complete

I still fathom your demise

The roads are begging of return

You leave your house because of the weather

We speak of promises

I won't be much longer

Georgia and its quietness

Defining ruin the best way possible

Here lies the only answer you expect

Of silence

The pain and I

Bring your own home

How can a person live
With the mundane?
With the trivial?
It knocks into your precious thoughts
And breaks the fine china of your sanity
The glass pouring in light
Becomes muggy
Nod into the direction of freedom
Run away
Take whatever is in store for you