Do you feed your mind
everything you believe?
Or do you believe everything
you feed your mind?

Dull meaningless verbal abuse tries to strike me down, to put me in a box where the the other lifeless followers go blind

Stronger than waves crashing
Stronger than stone
Stronger than the stars that light
up the sky
Cataclysmic volcanic energy
is your might
Your strength to lead us
just as strong
As was your strength to decide
to willingly give
up your human existence
Providing us
Hope for everlasting life

You say you know me
oh so well
you say you know
what I want, how I think?
You say you know
about my dreams?
About my hopes my fears
about my fantasies?
Says you you say says you
Walk in my footsteps
then tell me true
It's not what says you

Lift up the earth's crust
Open up the sea
It's easy to overlook the obvious
happening to you and me
Honestly could you say it will never end?
Honestly stop and think
There's too many wrongs to make this right
We're tipping on the brink
You may say it's always the way it's been
Curious as that may seem
I know it's just a matter of when
In all honesty

.....and done
with the never-ending game of
who's the better one
through with never knowing
through with endless doubt
we've been beyond over
I want out

Silence
.      my best friend
                   never speaks to me at all

When you cannot understand
              When nothing makes sense
.            .             Everything's upside down
        Feels like you're stuck on the fence
.                      Just remember
.               .                      one thing is true
.            It most likely has nothing
.                 .                     to do with you

And I suppose you are all mine.......

I mean...... since you seem to always be there for me......

I imagine you have no time to play..........

I mean...... to play the field, or find another
smile, another love, another flower to pick

To give......

I mean....... for anyone who looks your way,
who loves your charm, your kiss, your touch
.                                         .........only me.......

It's amazing to me
how one small expression  
changes my whole world
Instantly walls fall down
I am back in a place of yesterday
When life was predictable
You were mine and I was
fearless........ of anything
Your important expressions
make my tears flow
effortlessly

Remember when good prevailed
The hero always won & there were
Happy endings?
Well I guess that wasn't real enough
not alot has changed since gladiator days
The innocent are still sacrificed
Fed to the lions so to speak
Or since ***** and Gomorrah
Only difference is now it's televised
As though this entertainment is okay
To desensitize is the goal
And the result?
Children killing parents
Parents killing children
People without love

I tapped my toe
while the little man sang
Frank Sinatra's words,
they go something this way
"For it's hard you will find
to be narrow of mind
if you're young at heart"
As I pondered those words
I felt a little absurd
many must feel
I have an elderly heart
With the heart being center
of any decision
I feel that creates
way too much derision
Often we regret that part
Nobody wants to admit it
Yet we finally get it  
stumble and tumble
when life falls apart
All because
we followed the advice
When you are among
the very young at heart
So never forget
to take your brain with you
not just words in songs
Keep your head on straight
consequences continue
things sometimes go wrong
Remember your virtues
I know all you really wanted
was to follow your heart

It's too bad you treat me so poorly
I might have even taken you back
Now that you've shown your true colors
I couldn't imagine that downfall

Trying desperately to be something I'm not
All for what?
For your disdain
Perhaps your dismissal
Somehow I don't
feel so sorry for her

Gently placing thoughts in my head
ever so carefully
They claim I will pick up the pieces
I smile a sigh  
I want for all of their fantasies of me
I glance at the floor
My pieces are everywhere and so many
I think impossible
And then I hear his voice and see him
In my dreams
As I fall back on the floor again & again
I smile a sigh
Shake my head and close my eyes
They gently place
These thoughts of fantasy and bliss
All I see is him

Opening my eyes to
I'm not the one for you
I remember your words
all too well
I tried to forget the day you threw me
Or broke everything
We weren't what I dreamed
She was your tower
I could never measure up
A thousand times I'd been the brunt
before you walked in
You didn't seem to mind
so we saved the worst for last
Loosing all respect for each other
we stopped remembering we were only imperfect
or that we needed this thing they call love
I finally accepted knowing with time gone by
if we couldn't forgive and forget
since we are only human
life would never be kind....&
together we'd never survive.

The bigger they are the harder they fall
That's what they say
and who could get bigger
than movie pictures
It all could be so nice
The influence could've been grand
Instead glorification of lust
Disgusting portrayal of what is
Real life stories told as it really happened
This is glorified
Hoarding, glorified
Prostitution, glorified
Drugs, glorified
Mob gangsters, glorified
Violence and gore, family favorites
Give and give to those who don't care
Clean up their mess
So they can do it again and again
Crying in self pity
Golden globes & Oscars go to the most degrading
Most disturbing images there are

Crawl
That's what you wanted
When you decided from the start
Torture
was the method
When you sabotaged my heart

I want to love you
I wish we were free
But I get this funny feeling
it's much too temporary

Of sadness and confusion
of dreams and hope
Of illusion
I read writings of pure honesty
in those stories
I see the ruins of you and me

Scribbling in a hurry about
some freak inspiration
on a whim of excitement!
Let me get my pen
On a napkin
On an envelope in the car
I write of love and loss and anger
Emotional storms
Of you and me and God
Of what might have been and what could be
but mostly I write to heal me

Right when my senses tell me to try
Just when I'm feeling forgiving
I'm having those good dreams
And fantasies
Just when I'm thinking it's time
Right when I want to tell him......
There he goes again
square one and worlds apart

If I were
a perfect hourglass
your prized and polished trophy
then would you hold me
high up for all to see?
Probably you would
I would be shiny and beautiful
sitting alone on your shelf
collecting dust
until it was time
to show me off again

At twilight
At dusk
At sunset
That very moment in time was set
Twas Nissan 14
when his glory was seen
and will remain
til time indefinite

Head above water
                     just enough
.                            to keep from drowning completely

Hate filled words crash  
into innocent ears
bruising the core of a once strong soul
Unruly hypocrisy
breaking the young mind
Confusion resides in every corner
Hands of fury
abusing headship
abusing privilege

Like breath will leave my lungs
As if life support would fail me but
This one rooted truth is all that remains
desolate beside the scatter of debris
After the wake of a wicked storm

Stay straight while you keep your head up
This too shall pass
Stumbling blocks on the road try to trip you up
Just try to remember where your at
What's important? Where are you going?
In this life nothing lasts
So stay straight while you keep your head up
This too shall pass

Everybody's saying
"The world's about to change
but don't worry about a thang"
Stop and think about that.
Change is rapid
It's already happened
ever since world war one
It's been a downhill run
Its a good time to know
which side you're on
Don't get stuck in a trench
You'll never get out
Don't be wishy-washy
You'll end up in doubt
It has to come to an end
Somehow someway
Makes you think about
how you're living
Your life today

Since money is all you want
Money is all you'll see
If money is all you love
then money is what you'll be
Money money money money
Money does not love you honey
Cause love cannot be bought
What happens when the money is gone
You'll be all alone and lost
Just remember you chose money
So money is what you got

It's overwhelming
in an instant I get weak
when he kisses me
I get lost in forever
he is where I want to be

I see the aurora borealis
I feel alive I feel intense
this what I go through
when I feel his kiss

I cannot think
I cannot speak
I am putty in his hands
I couldn't fight this
if I wanted
I never stood a chance

People will talk
let them say what they'll say
I've decided to be what you wanted
I may never be the same
Everything has changed
I will always be wanted

So here we are in this moment
make me what you may
with this kiss here's my wish
That you will always stay

I am not impressed darling
I am not impressed at all
with your high horse decisions
or the way you're keeping score
with your love of divisions
you set yourself up on the throne
to judge with imperfection
what you believe to be your own