I shouldn't even care anymore
If gravity triumphs
I shouldn't even care
that my legs turn to forests
or colors no longer grace my face
I no longer eat bits & pieces
& I shouldn't even care

Unreasonably rebellious
Sarcasms at its worst
Selfish inhibition
an angry look with angry words
stuck in a fantasy
Of infatuation uncontrolled
lock your mind away
from this meaningless world
this little sanctuary
where you'll always be loved
turn your back on everything
for what you believe is love

Undeniable
It's undeniable the intricate design
The beauty of
The complexity
Take for instance the honey bee
Seemingly irrelevant yet
Invaluable to humankind
or have you noticed the water cycle?
Could you duplicate the impossible?
The perfection of creation
It's undeniable

The waters are calm and icy, moonlight glimmers across the vast blue sea but the fog is thick up ahead
This world cold like an icy sea in darkness they stay seemingly calm as they stray into dense fog so that they cannot clearly see their way.
"Speed it up we want to make it a day early!" the bribed captain tells the crew. With a smile and a laugh they gladly obey.
Faster now and a little too late, the unsinkable cannot turn sharp enough to slide by unscathed.
Just like the titanic the world is anxious to speed things up, to get ahead, to progress in anyway possible in order to make more money or fame. Very little is done to make good choices, until all of a sudden it's too late.
Unafraid they proudly announced she would not sink. With so much pride the rich remain in denial.Time seemed to drag on as they got the rich to safety. Enough lifeboats to save 1500, yet in their disbelief and unwillingness to unite only 700 made it out alive.*
The world still believes only the wealthy should remain. There is no unity in humanity, hence,... this system is a lot like the Titanic.*

2 Peter 3:3&4
"First of all know this, that in the last days ridiculers will come with their ridicule, proceeding according to their own desires and saying: ' Where is this promised presence of his? Why, from the day our forefathers fell asleep in death, all things are continuing exactly as they were from creations beginning'"
Matthew 24:37-39:
"For just as the days of Noah were, so the presence of the Son of man will be. For as they were in those days before the flood eating and drinking, men marrying and women being given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered into the ark, and they took no note until the flood came and swept them all away, so the presence of the Son of man will be."
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20071129121817AARZMIJ

Is it really possible
to follow the wind?
Capture it in a jar, in a box,
In a picture
Does it still whip around
Inside captivity?
It is frozen
coming to a halt
Inside walls
Left alone
Winds are ever changing
Whipping this way and that
finding no safety in the storm
limbs break and some entirely crash down
leaving leaves to scatter the ground
Aimlessly tossed
landing then flying again
some torn to shreds in the brutality*
Vanity is striving after wind

"It is unthinkable for the true God to act wickedly, for the Almighty to do wrong!" Job. 34:10
"When under trial, let no one say: 'I am being tried by God.' For with evil things God cannot be tried, nor does he himself try anyone." James 1:13
"Throw all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
"Jehovah is not slow concerning his promise, as some people consider slowness, but he is patient with you because he does not desire anyone to be destroyed but desires all to attain to repentence." 2 Peter 3:9

Every law mankind has made today is based on these 10 commandments (besides of course the commandments about gods. As church and state are trying to be separate):
1.Thou shall have no other gods before me
There are far more gods today, mythical, animal, musical, paper,etc. Than ever before
(http://wiki.answers.com/Q/Howmanygodsandgoddessesarethere)
2.Thou shall not make a carved image or a form like the heavens above or on earth or in the waters. You must not bow down to them nor be enticed to serve them.
Mother Mary, Buddha, Hindu, The Cross....and many more images are carved and worshipped.
3.Thou must not take up the name of Jehovah in a worthless way.
This would be futile
4.Keep the Sabbath day sacred
How many work on Sunday now?
5.Honor thy father and thy mother
Tragedies of children and violence are in abundance more than ever before, children are having children and children are committing suicide at alarming rates.
6.Thou shall not ****
War is rampant and soldiers are deceived and lives are ruined while priests bless weapons and send who should be brothers off to **** each other
7.Thou must not commit adultery
Well we know most disregard this as insignificant and some view it as entertainment
8.Thou must not steal
This goes without saying
9.Thou must not commit purgery in court
I rest my case
10.Thou shall not covet another man's wife, house, or things
*Homes are broken into now by bling rings, thieves who covet lifestyles and things and then are made famous over their Actions.

I could stretch out my fingers
I could reach so far as to grasp
the hand that's reaching back
I'd hold on just tight enough
To give the support needed
to help you stand up straight
and keep going
the rest is in your hands.
To say a prayer
to answer the door
to ask a question,
to make up your mind
To take a stand.

"Well that's yer opinion" she shrugged and turned on er heels, she was downright determined to be right. That's all she really cared 'bout, was her. I don't recollect  a moment she wavered any other way. I suppose that's the country girl in er, never back down, never let em' see you cry. Er daddy taught er that and ta get back up on that pony even if you done skinned yer knees. So she stood tall all er life, she showed er smilin' side, she's a proud one that girl,  through and through. Weren't no tears in er less she was breathin' in poison or cuttin up an onion or sonethin' like that, well y'all know what I mean. Mad as a wild dog inside but you'd never know it. She'd carry the weight of ten men. I just wanted to see a bit of er bein', what's the word,  uh vul-ner-ble or sonethin like that. So I tried, I tried to be a consoler. I tried ta listen when she wouldn't talk. I could tell there was alot ta hear. **** it she just wouldn't see me. She just say "that's yer opinion". She was stuck. Stuck bein' strong, but what more could she be? It's all she knew.

Supposing it is my way, although that is never the intended effect. Shaking the irrational awake is difficult as insensitive as words may seem, instead of causing adverse reaction the hope is to open eyes and ears alike, kindling a desire for change in thought and action. A new system of thinking. A new order of hope found in something real unlike the mythology of today. The idea of ignorance is faulty and study is imperative in order to dig for treasures stored in heaven. Love is real and attainable although blind love will lead to an unstable view of lose ideas of kisses and backing that doesn't exist. A realistic view is sometimes blunt and hard to even take a peek into with squinty eyes. I apologize.

I can still write words
Words unseen, unappreciated
Unheard
I can still pen my emotions
In black & blue
twisting syllables and sentences
So you won't understand
How it feels to be lonely
Abandoned & rejected
I can write words
You'll have to find
Through dictionary pages
And perhaps you might not
Have the time
So instead you'll sigh unimpressed
And close the book

With trembling fingers she decides to leave. It's been fun and all but this I don't need. judging eyes, shaking heads, stating with confidence *she's better off dead, the past doesn't count, we don't care what she's been through, you don't deserve a chance, there's no room for you.

Rolling eyes
Rolling by
Looking down
Looking to the side
Over pain and over me
It's not okay for honesty
Keep it light
Tread carefully
Easy come easy go
Is all they be

Parting, bittersweet memories of lonesome days; different paths going opposite ways, we drop interlaced fingers to our sides, looking over our shoulders, you let go with time. I hope she makes your world beautiful as you've desired & submits to your every whim as she loves your fire. My wish: she is your comfort, your hope and your world, as she fills the empty void left by this girl.

Bending forward trying to read the tiny print on the screen; I'll work it out. This shouldn't be so hard, as far as I can see it's a simple twist of the fingers here, a steady hand there; I can do this. Confidence will lift, pamper, use the razors edge & streak it's way to independence and stability.

Pride is a hardened killer

As I drift I find myself looking down at a beautiful copper fox coyly staring upward. Head cocked to one side, he is unafraid of my presence. I crunch through the snow to the chain link fence beside where he stands and he does not run. Through the diamond shapes I can see my belongings....a set of car keys, some credentials and my leather covered Bible. I cannot reach them. I look up slightly to see a police woman ranting on about how she found my camp nearby and confiscated my things. I realize I must get to them but how? I am cold. I begin to run and my path turns to a reddish brown. I no longer see the fox or the snow, I am aware that I am completely alone. I feel a panic and begin to imagine a wolf and what I might do in the instance he appears because I am unarmed! So I imagine I would roar like a lion and of course he would run scared. Ahead and to my right there is a tall rock. It is completely grey in color with possibly some greenery. A beautiful grey puma sits atop the rock. Is it possible for a puma to be grey? I do not know but somehow I know this large grey cat is a puma. I am nervous. I begin to jog. My path is soft, I am worried I may fall....the cat jumps from it's perch. I am running now, my heart is beating fast and the cat is gaining speed. He is right behind me now! I can visualize his body much faster, more agile than mine. I turn for just a brief moment and to my fright the cat places his paw to the back of my shoe and gently pulls my shoe down off my heel. He is toying, playfully. Time seems to slow down and I see the picture in slow motion. As he licks my heel I am lost in confusion and fear; my mind tells me he is in for a treat which is me, but somehow his actions seem harmless. I am terrified. Suddenly my heart speeds up as my eyes open! For a moment I am stunned then I breathe out, a sigh of relief.

Insomnia is a terrible thing causing one to become sequestered from reality.

Violently swinging his hammer he laughs
He's thrilled with the power in his hands
He could build something strong if he so chose
Or he could rip it to shreds

I tried, I attempted
Does that count?
I tried to open your mouth
I only longed for emotion
Hopeful of an honest response
You dropped my feelings
Into silence
And left my hand alone
Your eyes are empty
Lost in some memory
Or  perhaps you've forgotten
Until there is nothing
Only you
I attempted
But you let me go