my mom told me to explain
so i did, i explained every pain.
everything, but she didnt believe me again.
she said she knows im lying, im insane.

im telling you i was telling the truth.
but no one believed me.

she gave me a second chance
she said explain everything and tell me the truth
i just sat there
not even looking at her
she shouted im only gonna say that once
so i gave her a glance
i didnt bother to speak
for what?
even tho
i'll explain everything, the truth
she still wont believe me.

im over it, cause i said my sorrys
she said her sorrys too.
but still, i felt miserable.
cause *the one who i thought would always believe me
just told me that no one will believe me.

there was once this girl
she loves ice cream twirls
and she loves it when her hair is curled

she loves the color black and red
one day, blood stains shed.
her mom found out
all she could do was pout

her parents told her to explain
explain all the pain.
she explained everything, but again.
no one believed her, no one understand her.

they didnt believe her, no one does.
she cried, and she tried to be strong thus
her parents are mad.
while there she is sad.

she didnt really did it in purpose
she surely said the truth
but still, no one believed her.

and what hurt the most is when her parents told her that
"say anything you want, no one will believe you."

i feel so happy right now
do you wanna know
the reason?
well, its not about the season.

its about for those person
who send me tons
of messages.

showing care.
your messages make me think that i live in fairytales

because in reality
my life is such a fail.

nobody cares about me
well, no one shows me that they love me.
they make me feel so useless.
thats why im hopeless.

thats why, thankyou for the messages!
i am so grateful!

I love you wonderful.

She is pretty, but no one will dare look at her.
well some will, but with disgust and later on aghast.
They look at her but they don’t appreciate the beauty she holds.

She is kind, clever, loving gentle, and humble
she’s a girl you always see doing her homework’s
the girl you find sitting in the corner listening to music
the girl who’s always reading this science, and literature books.

She’s the girl you always see smiling, but when you’re away
that smile fades, dissolves… gone.
because behind that smile, is a girl who’s hurting.

and its funny how her smile can hide a million tears.

you can be sweet
then later make a mess

you treat me like ****
but i keep on coming back

i hate that i love you
but one thing is true
no matter how mean you are
i'll always love you

maybe i'll be smarter someday
and just walk away

until that day come
i'll continue to say

i hate the way i love you

i used to tell him at 11:11 to make a wish
he used to wake me up by phone calls
and i used to write him a poetry

but now at 11:11
he's never around
and by the time i woke up
he's already gone
and now my poetry that i used to make
is not about happiness anymore

now 11:11
i always forget to wish
i wake up missing him
i hope he writes poetry about me too.

dreaming of the day
when i could be me
and you could be you
i'd love myself and be happy too.

my wrist would be clearer
and so is my mind
i would start eating
i wish i could rewind

and maybe my under eyes wouldn't be so blue
it maybe i will have a clue,
but until that day comes

when we're hand in hand
i'll be dreaming of a place
called

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