closed door waiting for the cold
pending pending frosts pending
huge waiting behind and ahead waiting
waiting for cold and light of light
from somewhere from earth from
somewhere from the sky and lightning
to be around and heavy rain
so that the sun finally disappeared from
the shoulders and disappeared

every day behind a closed window behind closed doors
knocking knocking me a frosty frosty man
man he tells me about frost and snow everywhere
he already has everything and only we have it all and no
here we sit in the hot hot sun which is not no temperature
absolute nothing too much sun and it's autumn

I know there are ships somewhere and there are islands lost
and I know there is ice there they swim all swim but let's
where are you all from where are the penguins from
where is ice cream where does all this
all this all this bright circle
you walk on the asphalt feet offended you look at the sky
and all already flowing I broke up we are cold we are cold people
we have cold but not often in the eyes but love kills

05.10.18

in the street there is a cast on
I walk on the street I walk on the street
fire water cast this
I am I was or when

or when i walked or when i lived
or when i died or when i was or
when lanterns rang or when birds sang
or when it was spring outside

on the street there is a ghost and roses again
switched to another glass what do i do
with him so what should i be with him i be like
me to be with myself this hour in this star

04.10.18

come together all the paths come together
all roads and all roads now i'm
very lonely now i'm forever lonely
and now once there is it now means
it was always before my birth
and after him and after my death

lamps flash around and swirl
flowers and birds fly in the sky in the dark
the fog used to wander around like me
when was not yet so inspired sick
when still not crazy with strange sounds
daily when the joy covered all the tears

I remember a wonderful moment when it was may and
even when it was winter when we were all together
stood at the piano and began to listen to lovely music
when was grandmother and when was brother when all
there were but alas someone took the wind to a faraway country
and someone took a bright bright light more precisely death

03.10.18

running notes fast fast
on fingers ran quickly
quickly walked along quickly
and be so quietly and quietly
quietly melody on the nose
slipped and sank into sleep

and there were white papers and will
black paper and torch burn and
notes will run again and all also
it is not known where and when to burn and
quickly run fast then
when I was five years old when I was

when i was six years old
I was seven years old and when I was
exactly eternity eternity one infinite
and when I was not a man but a piano
when I was just the keys and only
white and black black and white and all

02.10.18

forget with you
about this world
we will go together with you
into the abyss

forget with you
about this light
we will go together with you
in the shade

o let's meet together
new testament
o let's walk together
and scream

01.10.18

time time time how much
the same time you pushed me and killed me
how many times did you destroy me
how many times how many times
how many times now about I think
that we all live in the memory of that
we do not live that all the sleep now I do not
I can understand where we are and live
whether we are either asleep or asleep or dreaming

time time time how many times how many
once you made me do water with fire
how many times did I feel my childhood
once I felt old I was born and therefore
I'm dead so perhaps will be forever about time being
time I sleep whether I'm sleeping now because everything is not
sleep alone in a dream because all the reality of what is
it's reality where we are and how we do what we do
did I ever have a childhood

30.09.18

again rush is coming
where it is sent again and
where do I all run and where am I going to hurry
where am I going again
where all this strange
a strange incomprehensible terrible gloomy run
where did my lips go so far

I'm the ghost I was born and so I'm dead
it has always been and always will be
eternity it is we are eternity all eternity
and there are no sections there are no roses
no sunflowers or daisies or flowers
nothing and never in the world is only one
one hurry is one of my strange non sparkling
horrifying and gloomy and blue as a scent

29.09.18