Excuse-me,
Was that offensive to you?
I was just pointing out
Something obvious.

Oh dear,
If it were clear
I am sorry to disappoint
It was so smart I missed your point.

Scarlet, the colour of the dress she wore.
Black, the colour he smothered with in love.
White, the colour the child wore,
Little did they know she hid behind a mask.
Mother and Father, I apologize, I have sinned tonight,
I met him and he loved me more than he should of.
The pushing of pain, it hurt and made me weep.
The feelings of tension, I fell way too deep.
Mother and Father, I apologize, I have sinned tonight,
you said I should love him and I said I did,
but now I’m in love with him, another male,
another mask, he’s dancing in on his own.
Solo he is, solo he wishes to stay,
Duets is what I hope for.

I can’t bare this, it’s pathetic.
I know I shouldn’t say what comes to my head.
I hate it. I have to. Yet, look at me in this moment.
My lips are chapped and my eyes can’t take this,
my lips are drier than they have been before.
I feel sick again and probably karma,
coming back to bite me on the neck.
I feel the clock ticking away,
the time is going quick and it makes me sick.
I feel like crying for the time I’m wasting, please forgive me.
Please don’t forget me. I don’t want to be isolated in this world anymore.
spend too much time regretting decisions instead of making more.
My eyes are my weakness, they scream all the words I don’t want to say.
My lips are liars and my words are too. Don’t forgive them.
You suffered so much, it made me bleed too.
I wanted you to be happy, so please do.
If it means suffering, then I will disappear.
I can’t bare to see you happier without me, how selfish of me.

May the fourth I was born, I didn't open my eyes,
the doctors and my mother worried out of their minds.
I promised her in my heart even though,
I couldn't hear her, that I would open my eyes and heart for her.
They opened but then, my skin it turned to shreds.
I open my heart for you, please don’t leave me.
I love you my mummy so, so please don’t leave me.

I began to grow believing there was a man,
who would guide me through life until I die and welcome me home.
Then I saw that it wasn't truth, it was only belief,
a belief I was told to know.
I open my heart for you, please don’t leave me.
I swear I prayed to you, but you didn't listen.

I ran through the trees, the winds blew against my skin,
I swear to life and all the scientific feelings, that I was free.
I open my heart for you, please set me free,
let the world of curiosity and wonderful stars seep,
seep my life into purpose which I will see,
you may not believe, but I always will.
Believe.

Mum has 15 drags on her cigarette.
The first drag, trying out for the first time,
the second drag, presenting friends into your relaxation.
The third drag, everything is calm,
the fourth drag, you realize it has to stop.
The fifth drag, small remarks become big irritations,
the sixth drag, you are disgusted because the remarks are true.
The seventh drag, just another one wouldn’t hurt,
the eighth drag, what’s the point of quitting now?
The ninth drag, your breath doesn’t smell quite the same,
the tenth drag, you hide underneath your coat.
The eleventh drag, you feel slowed down without,
the twelfth drag, yet your doctors say it’s better off without.
The thirteenth drag, you begin to wheeze,
the fourteenth drag, you collapse to the floor.
The fifteenth drag isn't really the final drag at all,
you’ll smoke a million cigarettes, more and more,
but it only seems to you as 15 more?
The fifteenth drag is finally taken,
Mum has lung disease, I am a failure.

Lipstick splattered on her face,
mascara lines are ruining her lids of desperation.
I see women of beauty, but replacing secrets,
these girls don't feel well.
Their bodies scream beautiful yet their eyes scream despair,
it's like isolation in their heads.
Why do I envy you, when you feel the same way I do?
We are idols, we are scenes, we are plays,
we are actors in disguise, nobody will know our kind.
We try to fit in with the rest, we try to remember why we started this.

I saw you once, when I was only young, never did I know,
that man could be manipulated so well indeed.
To the point they love uncontrollably, yet I can see why your eyes are blurred.
Why do I envy you, when you feel the same way I do?
We are idols, we are scenes to the plays nobody wants to see,
we are actors in disguise, nobody will know our kind.
We try to fit in with the best, the best of the world,
the ones they look to for every word,
Yet I see isolation is never replaced.

Why do I envy you, when you feel the same way I do?
I don't understand, you mustn't really, love the feeling?
How do I become the way, so I feel like freedom wings,
flying in the air, yet I don't feel right, I don't feel safe,
wishing my body away.