Codenames make you anonymous.
I gave you one.
Now, looking back at it,
I wish I didn't.

I gave you that name
So I could tell you I loved you
Without you knowing
And without you leaving.

I gave you that name
To say I would do anything
To get your heart
So we could die together.

I gave you that name
So we could both live in a world
Where only we existed,
Where we could be anything.

I gave you that name
To make you anonymous
And now that you know your name
You're truly anonymous to me.

All I want this year is
Just a little bottle
Or a little jar
With a little something
To make me a lot forgetful
About you
Because I'm tired
Of memories
About you
Christmas or otherwise

I feel like such an idiot because,
My thoughts are masochistic.
I don't know if I should feel-
Embarrassed or desolate.

Maybe scummy is a better word.

I've been alone for so long I'm forgetting how to cope with the inevitable sense of dread I swallow when I finally lay in bed.

Midnight and it's a pitch black
ceiling
I'm staring at
feeling alone
and hating myself
for every little thing
all the muscles
tightening
with stress and regret
How unlovable and pathetic
is wretched me

We seem normal
But check our vital signs
Honey, I think the kids are not doing well

I'm only as mad as you led me to be!
Your teasing that exasperates my insecurities  
When will this stop?
When will you realise your jokes have zero humour within them?
How many times can I say this before I decided to lash out again?
You tread a thin rope which you cannot even see and that's why this will always be!