Seven billion people,
and not one voice.

Why does love always hurt
When I confess my pain?

Held your neck
I felt the shivers up mine
Lock in an embrace
I resurrect my fire
Look up at the stars
I stare down at it all.

In the sounds between
Life and death
Lies a gentle creature
Named possibility

These thoughts
Fill my mind
Like the words
To my favorite book
They slide across
My line of vision
Then bounce to life
And consume me

Never knew
what I said
meant
The world
to you
Even when I'm breathless,
You breathe me back to life.

In the strangest lands
I will grasp my chance
Sing the unsung words
I have searched to spell

I never understood your pain
You'd lift me into your deep sea
Emotions in a dark blue tomb
I couldn't find the light.

I may be your captive
But I'm not a toy
I'm not a rubber ball
That will bounce back
To your love
When you need it

i am bold and italicized only when you're around
i pretend i'm a confident selfless being

in truth
i feel lost, experiencing free-fall in my stomach
i touch my nails to see if any are left

where is life going?

I have yet
to truly find
a happy poet.

It keeps me up at night
While I count my blessings
I told her self-deprecation is wrong
Only I would know it best

All of this time
And I never forgot
About you
You ******* *******

As if I could ever understand pain
I carry symptoms truncated at the head
Their blue feverish reminders never dead

Emotions of your bright autumn nights
Replay in my head like no other
I lost you, my best friend, my lover

Truth blossoms like a ****** rose
My stomach curdles when I find
A love that was not dead but blind

Bludgeon me across the face
So that I may awaken in delight
Finding you in the twilight

If I can't face the mirror anymore
And my gold paper skin turns fair
I will know that our love was rare

I need some time
To write a rhyme
Of someone in pain

They wrote a long
Steady old song
With their lonely heart

Their life was grand
Like ocean sand
But they could never see

Who needs a friend
When you can't mend
Cause they'll never understand

Who will be there in your darkest days
And the voyage feels so far away

If I wake up to the sun
I'm next to my lover
If I wake up forgetful and cold
A man I've never met has his arm
Wrapped around me, slow dancing in a bed
Of mistakes and unhappy schemes
Once upon a time I could wake up
And know that he was the first thing
I'd think of in my feeble mind

But like most I'm left running
From the mistakes you left
Discarded the mess of me
Left the mess of you
Once you found another
How quick that heart was on sale
Ready to be used and confused again
Could have sworn it expired

But my armor shines bright
All my friends are irresolute
Get lonely, fall in love, hate life
Sometimes you forget that
And as much as I want to call you
A malevolent heartbreaker
I know your heart means well

Share it, share it all again
The times we had were worth it
I'd be lying if I said
I didn't enjoy having someone
To share it all with too
But I'll never be like you
And you'll never be like me
That's why we broke up
In the first place

I wake up
To a new day
Without him
Every day
But a new day
Nonetheless

Just as soon as the emotion comes in
The emotion has vanished from my ten fingers
Those god awful tweakers have failed me again
Like a mouse on speed, I’m running into the streets

As I revel across the kitchen floor
Socks drenched in dirt and adolescence
I find that the only true time I’m happy
Is staring at the screen in my mind
Watching life whisper in my ears

Veins pop out like a loud mouth
I dream of two dozen men
Walking a tightrope toward me
And I only find that none of them
Have made it, they only fell
Down to another who loves them so
And just like that, I’m walking it too

You were in my dreams
Felt your tongue slide in my mouth
Wrapped me in your nest of comfort
For some reason, when I awoke
Nothing made sense
Where did you come from?
I haven't seen you in 7 years
So why do I want you so bad?
Maybe I remember the little things
Going to your house back in the day
And you were a strong, comforting boy
I'd sit in your room with you
Wishing to have you ravage me
I would come running, for you
Maybe it is no coincidence
You made up my dreams

Sometimes it’s like
I’m floating:
Not standing on Earth,
But in my own world.

I want to yell sometimes,
Do whatever I want,
No rules at all...
Just me, myself, and I.

Tell me what you want;
I don’t need to listen,
For I make my own choices
And you just watch.

I want a world
With no problems,
Where everything’s peaceful
And I can live without fear.

This is what I want
But I honestly think
And never believe
That it’s going to happen.

Undoubtedly
I survived a forest fire
Up from the ashes
Riding the decision
To live a life of freedom

Some days
Have me feeling as though
My words are vapid
And only matter
Through the voice of someone
You look up to

Every time I look for the truth
I sieve the dirt to find
The possibility of uncertainty
Playing by the rules
Doesn't feel so glee anymore

As I live in a society
Concerned with plagiarizing
The lives of those living like fire
I shift through the streets
Feeling so different from the rest

The dirt on my shoes
Will never truly go away
And neither will my place
So I just stop my crying
And place my best foot forward

I've grown to find
Life is too hard to be kind
I'd breathe for the wrong ones
Please, oh, please plenish me
As I wake up in the morning
I hope you notice the warning

I was walking a steady rhythm yesterday
And my blood swayed like a boat in the ocean
I can't make things the way I want them to be
Can't I just stop all of this loud commotion?

I'm at the bottom of the well today
And my skin trembles like a leaf
I wish that the future has high hopes
And I can go a day without grief.

I let you get a little too close to my feelings
And now you march to the beat of your own fears
You're the reason I sleep all alone at night
Now I drown in a cold pool of my own tears.

I see your hands shaking under your dark sweater
And all I want to do is share a warm embrace
With you

I feel like I'm waiting for a snow storm to pass
Just so I can crawl through to find someone
Like you

I walk on eggshells to keep you close to my heart
But I only see from the shadows of despair
For you

In this floating box of nothing
Sits a speck of shavings
From an overused eraser
That grows older than death

The cousin with all the power
Sitting across like a stranger
Is known as the pencil
Who never amounted to anything

As hard as they try
As long as they wait
As patient as they are
Their job always fails

But they aren't cautious
They are always aware
That the true failure
Is their subconscious master

Sirens call from below the threshold
The children scatter wherever it is safe
I lay in bed, hating the issues
I fail to accept

Sweet November was always my favorite
It enveloped me
In a tower of safety
I'd been fighting a war
Couldn't live up to my dreams

Some days I find
That I'm too scared
To talk about what plagues my fears
What will happen when I open it up
And find a wound I didn't make?

never want what you can't obtain
live life like an unfortunate soul
keep your body open for anyone
take advantage any pair of legs
let it consume you, feed you, fill you
nourish your undeserving desires
levitate toward satisfaction
push through the need to leave
sell your soul for a reason to be happy
love what you do and make it count
you can't feel like a fool your whole life
leaving your lover won't make things better
if you refuse to find a way to
find what it is that makes you
so lovely from all the rest
don't lock up the things
that make you
you

It's been two years
I still make that attempt
Where I look at them
In a convincing and promiscuous way
Eager heart with not much to show
My body screams "too hard to handle"
I do not know why
All the lovebirds get to sing their song
And I, in a truly saddening fate
Am stuck lying to myself

Tomorrow I'll be wishing for your love
Today I'll be sitting at your doorstep
It's only 12 at night
My day starts with you
I'm in deep agony
Without a word or two.

You're my deranged criminal
And I'm the innocent captive
You steal the hearts of most
But mine just bleeds in your hands
Everytime you take a glimpse of me.

It's a fiery furnace filled with passion and love;
It burns bright and the fire hurts worst than death,
But no one can feel it accept the two of us.
Maybe that's how
this relationship was
meant to work.

It's only fate that brought us together
No amount of pain, suffering, or struggle
Could keep me away from your heart.
So babe,
Can you let me inside?