The feeling of your body heat is so soothing oh how you feel so warm
Each day I can feel you expanding for every piece of me to transform
Love dancing in your womb hearing the echo of my voice singing a new song
Your calmness the peace oh how wonderfully its is inside your womb what can go wrong.

A strange feeling started happening I can feel your distress things are becoming fragile and starting to feel like the winter
The water around me is so cold and it’s making me go blind
My body aching and hurting so much as I’m starting to get blisters
As the excruciating pain starts to crawl over all over my spine.

Mommy hold onto to me make it go back to the feeling of autumn
I feel all alone and I’m starting to sink to the bottom
Everything is so dark and time is going on and on feels like forever
I once had a dream that I replayed over and over again of you holding and kissing me that I’m by your side and all the possibilities we can do together.

Everything seems so bitter the atmosphere of your sorrow I can tasted in your tears
My whole body feels boated and weary all around is this fear
I can the darkness creeping up getting closer mommy please keep me away from any harm
Mommy can’t’ you hear my screams? Can you feel them ripping my arm?



Calling your name feeling so hopeless please don’t let me die here,
Feeling so lost I can see though you hiding your betrayal,
Limb after limbs drowning in my blood, I can hear my own scream echoing back into my ears and everything still so unclear,
Then started to have a vison of a man, of a messiah that was slash thirty-three stripes and hung driven by nails.

Hear him calling saying my child your suffering will no longer be anymore,
There was a warm sensation of seeing heaven opening their doors,
He carries healing in his hands his voice makes me see again saying child no longer will you be alone,
For you will be right next to me in heaven throne.
Mommy it hurt more to know it was you that you I’ve been betrayed,
But all I wanted to say is that I forgive you and that I love you and I’m no longer afraid,
I did my best to hold on to fight to my death,
I no longer can stay this is my end this is my final breath.


P.S Mother I probably will never know your reasons; or your overthinking doubts,
But just wanted to let you know that I feel more alive than ever before everything seems so clear and true, I’m at paradise above all the clouds,
Hope some day we’ll meet again, probably be all grown up by then but all of my thought will be of you and will send pictures of me in your dreams with my arms wide open holding each other,
Will always love you forever wish it would have been the other way around be by each other side holding me when I cry being the best person you can be I know deep in my heart you’ve of been a great mother.
by Jacob Cuadro

Oh, how I remember the day that you were born,
To find out the condition you were going to be in I felt completely torn,
But the most precious and beautiful moment I held you in my arms,
I will be every step of the way to love you to guide you and keep you away from any harm.

Year after year I have been blessed to see you grow,
From a little girl to the woman, you grew up to be,
As your grandfather if I have not told you there is no regrets in raising you day by day there was nothing that brought me more joy than to see you glow,
You may have a lot of differences than others but does not change how precious and strong you are no matter how hard it seems.

Within my heart are happy memories,
Of a perfect love that you gave to me,
Through our life we have seen our share of ups and downs,
Death is part of life, but it isn’t fair sorry you had to witness my final moments in an instant how quickly life can turn around.

But it my time to reach through heavens gates and fly,
To finally be with my lovely wife,
It feels so good to reunite,
And see how bright you really shine,
Feels like forever hello my love we meet again,
It has been a while where should we begin?

We been together five long years with a beautiful, gorgeous daughter,
She brings the child in both of us she our little joker,
There are never any regrets in the choices I made to be with you through all the arguments through all the obstacles and struggles from good time to bad,
To every emotion from joy and happiness even from anger and sad.

This is the hardest decision in my life that I ever had to make,
Splitting up isn’t going to be easy for the both of us to leave you and our daughter when the time come to be set apart,
I know the pain it going to cause me the hurt in my chest even though there going to be times my heart going to break,
But I just want to let you know that no matter what happens that I will always have a deep place of you in my heart.

You are so strong your capable of so many things you’ve broke obstacles and never realizes you have won them you have a big mind and so may dreams,
Through the mountain you must climb don’t give up no matter how hard it might seem,
You can do all things just keep your mind focus keep pushing through and the most important is that you got to believe,
I don’t want this to be the end of us even though we may be apart I still want to see your goal and see you live your dreams I still want to be there to see you achieve.

Just wanted to let you know for me leaving has to do with spiritual reasons you did nothing wrong and have no fault in this,
When this time comes for me being away, I have faith that our relationship can get stronger but if we don’t ever get back together, I understand and I hope that we can grow another relationship and become best friends and I hope when you are ready that you find love again and find the one,
You and especially our daughter has been the best thing that has ever happen to me you girls help me grow so much the man and father I’ve try to be everyday there no words that can describe how much you girls change my life you are beyond my bliss,
There something I do want to say that important and I’m going to real with you through the past five years I’ve been with you I have dealt with being accuse and blame of thing I had no fault in. The feeling of shame of treating you unfairly or encouragement I’ve try to give you but somehow you take it as a negative point of view, or the exhausting overwhelming feeling of your anxiety, fear, low self -esteem, depression and so on the things you fight within. I’m no angle myself but all the things you have put me through have taught me this is to be patient and that love is a choice, all these years that I’ve stayed is because I love you that much. Let’s pat ourselves on the back that it’s been five long great years with a twist that with all the struggles we overcame a lot together I feel like we’ve won.

P.S God love you unconditionally meaning when no one cares or when no one there when there no support or in life when you believe you don’t have a purpose or just don’t have a clue, ‘’God said before I formed you in your mother womb, I knew you.’’ (Jerimiah 1:5)
When you feel like there’s weight on your shoulder and life is hitting you hard and everything seems to be crashing down, with your head spinning round and round and feeling broken,
God holding your hand and he right there beside you if you give him a chance Jesus is the living water that can flow within you like the waves of a crystal blue ocean,
I will admit that you and I have both experience suffering and that we both have felt like we’ve been in a tunnel in complete dark,
But God is the light at the end of the tunnel and to see it and reach for it you simply must open your heart.

No matter what your decision you make in your life I’m truly happy for you of the things you’ve overcame and the person and mother you’ve become and much more I am, and God is proud,
So, a toast to the long journey we had together and possibly much more in the future to come but until then goodbye for now.

By: Jacob Cuadro

Dear little one,
The day I saw you born you pour out a light brighter than the sun.
A feeling that burst of happiness I never felt before,
How this can be; something so small and pure was going to be something I would never thought I would truly adore.

For one so small you seem so strong,
And I’ll protect you even in the middle of a storm,
I will sing over you a new song,
And do my best to keep you safe and warm.

You have so many years ahead of you and I don’t know what your future holds,
But one thing I do know is that you’re going to have a heart of gold,
Child of mine there so much you need to learn,
Life can be simple like if you play with fire you’ll get burn.

The key is to be patient to be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger, (James 1:19)
I will teach you everything I know because it a gift to have knowledge and wisdom,
I want to see you grow and teach you how to be humble for beauty is on the inside and you can change the world with all your mind of splendor,
Spreading the world with kindness and love with all the colors of autumn.

The day you get older you’re going to have these emotion of mix feelings,
Days of happiness days of heart breaks it won’t be easy pain can get stronger while wombs slowly be healing,
But you won’t go through this alone I will be there to comfort you through all these emotion you never knew you had that these are natural and I’ll be the one to tell you that everything would be alright,
Always here with open arms whether you run to me with joy or need to cry on my shoulder I’ll be there to hold you tight.

So, I tell you this no matter what you go through enjoy every day and never give up never quit because if you want something in life hard work is what count not by a wish,
Bonding with you and living every moment to moment like reading you stories or tucking you in to bed or simply making you laugh are moment I cherish.
Above all this love is important because love is patient, love is kind… it always protect, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres love never fails (Corinthians 13:4-8) it’s pure and true,
My dear little one I may not be around through your whole journey for death is part of life but I tell you this and let this sink in please that you love one another, as I have loved you. (John 15:12)
Jacob Cuadro

I’m not the man who I use to be,
Because I gave up on myself and this world so I called on your name,
With your holy word you have set me free,
My old self is in the past and my past is forever gone as my guilt fades and no longer feel the shame.

I realize that I was covered in this filthy stain,
Bounded by these heavy chains,
Breaking it off lifting my hands to you feeling your amazing grace pour like rain,
From every fingertip washing away my pain.

I’ve been selfish and committed great sins but you’ve showed me nothing but love,
You’ve been faithful all of my days you are the lamb,
My god the maker of heaven above,
You are the great I Am.

Bow down in your presence I give you my heart lift my voice and give you glory,
Because you are worthy, you are mighty and you are holy,
You rewrote my story becoming a brand new man and setting me free,
For that now I’ve been redeemed.

Jacob Cuadro

Miss home to a warm beach walking on the soft sand,
Where a place family and friends gathering enjoy the day holding each other by the hand.
Feel the rush of the ocean,
Swimming and feeling the dolphins the whales the fishes and every sea creatures emotions.

Love sitting and reading next to a palm tree,
Feeling the warm breeze.
There nothing like spending your day going out for fresh air while the random shower of rain starts to begin,
As you look up while the cool rain washes you away as the sun dries everything and the humidity atmosphere moisturize my skin.
AS you breathe and smell the sweet air,
With all the trees around you pouring there oxygen everywhere.

Looking up seeing the beautiful colors forming a rainbow,
Standing in awe as the colors brighten your eyes aglow.
As I dream for this every day for this beauty to make me rise,
Welcome to Florida paradise.
Jacob Cuadro

Dear young poet you had discover that you have an amazing gift, a gift of words,
As your mind will start to think freely and spreading like beautiful wings of a bird.
But you have a long way to go for you are still learning,
To explore the gift of poetry as your hands to paint your art of words the mind of your creativity piece by piece of your journey.

But having a gift can also be a cures,
You can open the deepest darkest and happiest part of your mind,
It can be better or can be for the worst.
Your emotions makes who you are let your imagination create something perfectly with your words. With your words, maybe your mind and your hands can probably stop time.

**JacobCuadro

You are an amazing woman and a great mother. You shine brighter than any light that exists. Even though you are facing one of the most difficult times in your life; cancer has nothing on your strong spirit. It will never fade, for you are strong and brave. You’re not battling this on your own because you have many loved ones. The greatest and most wonderful family are by your side. We are with you to encourage you with all the love and strength we have to help you heal. Once again, you will shine more than all the stars in the galaxy in the night sky. I admire you for letting nothing stop you from being happy in your life. The passion and love you have for others along with your strength will overcome all your obstacles. Look on the bright side… at least you don’t need shampoo! HAHAHA. Anyways, even though I’m not there, I can still see the sparkles of your sunbeams and your warm, beautiful grace in my dreams. Whenever you have a bad day or feel weak, you can borrow my strength. If you ever feel like hope is gone, you can borrow mine when you can’t go on. My love is here for you through these words to offer you protection from all things. I love you so much, keep fighting, stay strong, you are not alone. You have your family with unlimited hugs, kisses and all the love you need to hold you right where you belong.
**Jacob Cuadro

Change, change is coming too soon;
Oh how all my years I never thought or see this coming
But my mind seems to be open and everything is starting to bloom
That I feel something deep down inside of a new man I’m becoming.

Being with a woman that created something so beautiful she cured my darkness into light
Her love surprises me every day and never fails
When my eyes lay on her it’s always a wonderful sight
That this seems to be unreal feels like it just a fairy tail.

Our love became so strong, so pure and passionate that we created a new being that soon to be born;
My life is changing every month seeing that baby girl grow
Oh! How I can’t wait to hold her and make her feel so warm
To teach her the knowledge of everything I know.

I’ll be in a new place my new ways with my darling my queen and raising our princess and take this journey across a thousand miles;
Never in my wildest dreams that I’ll be having a family of my own
Just the thought of it gives me the biggest smile
And now I can finally say that I’m here in my new home.

*Jacob Cuadro

I have a gift of words, but a gift can also be a curse. - **Jacob Cuadro

The worst thing that anybody can have especially a poet are empty words. - **Jacob Cuadro

Death is not an ending
It’s a new beginning. - *Jacob Cuadro

No one knows who you are better than your dreams,
If they want they can even make you scream.

They know your every fear,
They can make a river of your every tears.

They can remind you and bring back your past,
To bring you down and make you feel that you can never last.

Dreams know the truth deep inside,
And they won’t let you live with a life full of lies.

When you lay to sleep and you take your last blink,
They can create your imagination and know every movement in what you think.

But you don’t realize that your dreams are you,
There just right behind you following everything you do.

The beauty about dreams is that they can be change and that change is entirely up to you,
Don’t let dreams follow you turn around and chase them and make your dreams come true.

Only you can have this desire,
To be unstoppable and build your own fire.

Dreams are just a creation that forms in your head,
And it all start the moment you close your eyes laying in your bed.

**Jacob Cuadro

Life is an unexpected thing if you’re not prepared for anything that’s get in your way you’re not ready for life itself. - **Jacob Cuadro

Inside my chest there's something you can't take apart,
In the front side is the most warming heart.

But it's not the same in the back,
So cold and dark nothing but pitch black.

I dare you to test my patience and limits,
Because you never want to know what's behind it and you would never last a minute.

**Jacob Cuadro

My love where did you come from? You literally came out of nowhere did you drop from the sky, never seen something shine so bright that your gleam just reflects in my eyes. Your comfort keeps me so calm, and I always feel safe when I'm wrapped inside your arms. Being around you keeps my heart so warm, without you I was so lost in my head with so many thoughts but you found me and washed away my storm. So grateful that you came into my life there is no doubt that I will always be with you till the very end LOVE you baby.

**Jacob Cuadro

Peace or dark words that pollute the air,

Observe the Knowledge of creativity and the imaginations for the world to share.

Evolve with the meditation of words to strengthen your mind,

Tome a secret place where you can hide and have your adventure of words to build that you can’t find.

Rejuvenate the art that you create in your mind to paint the world of new life and energy that you bring,

Yoke words that brings people in this world together to reunite peace and love because poetry is everything.

By Jacob Cuadro

People are like books you can’t judge them by their covers,
Everyone has their own unique beauty than others.

You don’t know their story till you open the first page and start reading what it’s about,
As their words fill your eyes like 3D popping out.

So before you start judging open their books first,
Getting to know someone can always be pleasant or it can be for the worst.

**By Jacob Cuadro

There’s a saying that words can hurt, which If you let it cover all over you with worm crawling disgusting dirt. Than yea you can say that but I find this false info, it’s  hard to see through something when you have a ***** window. Same thing with words they can always be turned around people may hit you with the fact that you may think it’s true saying that your ugly, weak, poor, alone, sick, coward, dumb, depress, turn these words inside out and what do get ?

Ugly = Beautiful
Weak = strength
Poor = Rich
Alone = Love
Sick = Heal
Coward = Brave
Dumb = Smart
Depressed = Happy

It’s a choice to have words cover you up but another to find and pull them inside out you are your own mind don’t let others control it.

**By Jacob Cuadro

I give it all to find you
Where it’s the land or the sea
For all the things that you do
No matter how far you are that where I’ll be.

Was I moving too fast ?
Here I stand
Please try to leave it all in the past
Now as I am a broken man.

Walk this street alone
How did we go wrong
Without you I can’t make it on my own
All the time we spend is now all gone.

Remembering the day you set me free
I am always one step behind from falling down
Now I’m on my knees
Through all these crashing sounds.

Starting to blur and fade
Feeling the movement of the floating sea
And hurting inside with my long lasting regrets stabbed by a blade
As I look at the sky reaching my hand out to you begging you to rescue me.

**By Jacob Cuadro

I once lived in a world with amazing fresh air,

To look at what’s going on and to know I can’t help them seem to be not fair.

We once had long green trees,

But they chop down the oxygen that we breathe.

Starting to shrink as I look up and feel so small.

As the cities expanding and building growing tall.

Mother nature cries seeing her children’s taken away and disappear,

Rain pours from the sky by her sadly tears.

Some companies, industry, corporations, resorts lie say they are green,

But always battling by intervene.

But what they all have in common is they like the taste of honey,

Greedy nothing in the mind but the money.

Trees saved provide food, energy, water, teach us the seasons and actually are made from green papers that most people adore,

A plant that the most unique symbol of life in a beautiful world that human mistakenly ignores.

Before you destroy something listen and hear them speak,

Feel the air as their leaves floating around you with brushing kissing on your cheeks.

Is it really worth killing for an extra space for the earth to carry more weight,

Why suffocate the dust the pollution mankind created never realizing that there making a big mistake.

If it was me I rather live in a forest and lay on the soft dirt where nature collect soil and feel the seeds grow,

And watch the leaves at night shine as they glow.

To sleep on top of the branch as the leaves sing me a song,

As all birds, animals, insect, every creature gathering to share the world by the trees stems holding us together being a friend to welcome me home is place where I belong.

**By Jacob Cuadro

I think making money to live to regardless how much money you have, or how big your roof is over head, or getting your bachelor or masters whatever ******* you call it just to get a better jobs these day is not life. Doing something you love something your passionate for something to hold on to, is worth the struggle to achieve the dreams that you dream the thing that you were born to do is to create your own world. And decide this is what I really want to truly be proud and say I’m living life.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Four years have passed and I can say it went by pretty fast.

A final day to look back and know how far you’ve come, maybe just a peek of your success in what you have done.

Now it’s time for your graduation waiting desperately patiently walking down the aisle for your diploma, a symbol of everyday formula.

You already learned the golden rule, ready to use knowledge as your tool.

Now you can be free to set the stage, like a life book for every page.

I can really say I am a proud brother in what you’ve achieved, that you came this far all these years.

There so many careers out there for you to choose, whatever you choose I will be on that path to support you to make your dreams come true.

You completed the beginning of life; you have the intelligence, the will and the power, everything combined and more.

I love you sis in my eyes and heart you’ll always shine!

**By Jacob Cuadro

Have you ever wonder what happen while you’re a sleep? Pitch black and nothing to see monsters gathering together standing patiently next to your bed. To share a special kid for a meal to eat, the tooth fairy is waiting to collect all your teeth and the boogie man still live under bed haunting your dreams. Make sure you close your closet door because you never know what will come after for your soul, a funny feeling that you’re not becoming whole. And the moment waking up in the middle of the night opening the door hearing little footsteps echoing though wall, a shadow creature creeping down the hall. Keeping you up late at night eyes popping out of your socket, pupil stretching your eyelids begging for this nightmare to stop of these horror monsters surrounding my mind. Suddenly I froze when I hear the scariest voice I ever heard whispering my name, saying you are mine to claim. Don’t cry now it all be over soon no light will ever save your life just one more prey dies today on these sheet of flesh and doom for my last collection of my masterpieces and that my child is definitely you.

**By Jacob Cuadro

Walking in the woods alone in the dark, the only sound I hear are wolves howling for my heart. No around besides spirits running through the night no is watching except owls above my head there no light in my eyes, only the stars across the shadow skies. It’s cold and windy leaves are trembling brown and helpless no oxygen in the air can’t hardly breathe ran into a black wall, waking up a creature that ten feet tall. Eyes and teeth start to appear saliva dripping down its mouth waiting to eat my soul tears comes down my body start to shake, when the creature roars making an earthquake. This monster eating my guts carving my skull with its blades of claws screaming in agony pain squishing my organs like a wine press, asking myself how I got into this mess. Left for dead as I drown, with my yoke of blood all over Satan ground. Got caught, by his fire hands then woke up with this nightmare of thoughts.

**By Jacob Cuadro

See the colors of the rainbow in the sky beautiful like your bright hazel eyes as it start to fade when your personality drop down. Don’t get your hope to high when people compliment your body or looks the colors of your DNA will slowly disappear making your vision unclear by your selfishness, money, and fame is the only possession desperation to be someone. Conceited mind is something not to smile about the poor are richer and the ugly are prettier their heart are more beautiful than you’re ever become. What happen when your colors goes black? It’s rots,  get old, alone, cold from head to toes, helpless, meaningless death is waiting to hear your heart beat sink with his arms wide open to hold you wrapping like a shroud around your pretty dead flesh it’s too bad your beauty was too much for your own good. Hope you like the decoration of your funeral, its sure look perfect to me was your obsession worth kissing the feet by the devil ?

**By Jacob Cuadro

I can smell the air crystal clear, with my lungs full of your strawberry peaches flavor perfume surrounding the atmosphere. Love your minty breath breathing around my neck, putting my hand on your hips getting near your ear whispering thing you want to hear. As I look into your spot light eyes that shine and reflect though mine I can have this moment every night. When my lips connect with yours the love making we have feels like unknown forming galaxies just for you and me. No one around no distraction just the lust of us and your moaning voice echoing though my soul as we become whole. Your affection is so strong is like a cupid shooting an arrow though my heart a wonderland of you loved that never ends.

**By Jacob Cuadro