What

Do

You

Do

When

You're

Terrified

Of

Everything?

Moonlight,
Set me free
I beg of you,
Hear my plea
Take this darkness
Away from me
Give me a brand new
Epiphany

Sometimes
I hear a gravestone calling my name
Joyous is the day when I answer

"AMON, or AAMON, is a great and mighty marques, and commeth abroad in the likeness of a wolf, having a serpents tail, vomiting flames of fire; when he putteth on the shape of a man, he sheweth out dogs teeth, and a great head like a mighty night hawk; he is the strongest prince of all other, and understandeth of all things past and to come, he procureth favor, and reconcile both friend and foe, and rule forthy legions of devils"

Am I

Your moon in the sky

Or just another star

Passing your eye?

I almost forgot what good days were,
That it didn't have to be extra to be extra special.

But today we are lazy,
And we are at home,
And we haven't done anything at all.

You're making food,
I am watching a movie,
And today has been a good day.

Calculators,
Instigators,
Take the easy way out-inators.

Protractors,
Bad actors,
Won't help me find the right factors.

Scratch paper,
Senseless caper,
I want to jump off a skyscraper.

I will admit,
I am an addict.
I am a liar.
I am broken, I am bruised, I am beaten.
I am needy.
I am dumb.
I am hurting, I am haunted, I am hopeless.

But you ask me to be everything for you, and so I am.
I must be comfort.
I must be understanding.
I must be stable, I must be stone, I must be strong.
I must not get mad.
I must be patient.
I must be love, I must be kind, I must be unperturbed.

And all I ask of you
Is that you are there.

In less than a month,
I will be 17.
You said you were sorry because you didn't remember
what day exactly my birthday was,
But come on,
I forgot my own birthday once.

I'm not sure how we ended up this far
From what we wanted to be
We used to aim for the stars
It's so crazy
To let the one you hold dear
Tell you the biggest lies
Become your biggest fear
We used to dream of a life
Where we would be alright
But that's all gone now
You had your head in the clouds
Now you got both feet on the ground
And I'm scared that your mind is working against you
I can't keep hold of you
You're gone, you're lost, there's no trust
In what we once had
Was it only lust?
I feel you slipping away
Day after day
You say that you'll never leave, that you'll always stay
You'll always be there until the very end
But those are only words
You break when you bend
You're so easy to manipulate
With the drugs and the girls
I thought it was our fate,
To go against the world
To prove them wrong
To put up a fight
But you're stuck now
Locked up another night
Another scream coming from my closed mouth
You call me when you're in, but never when you're out
You say that we can be friends
But it hurts too much
Is this really the end?
I need to feel your touch
But I can't
I'm in a trance
I need to run away
As far, as fast, as I can get in a day
Or two
However long it takes
To be free from you
And all of the lies,
All of the mistakes
That I made
When I gave up and gave in
To every excuse that you made up
I wanna be rid of you now
I'll say it loud
That I'm so glad, after all this time
Of me and you and you and me
I can finally see
Where I ****** up
You're no good for me
I took so long
But now I'm moving on
I don't need the lies,
The ties
To you
That kept me up all night
Just crying
In the dark
I wanted to save any spark
We had,
You mad?
You were always making me sad
You know
That we can add
All the times you did something bad
But I stuck around thinkin we'd make it through,
Looking back now
If I only knew
That it was never us,
It was only you
It was you who went to jail
It was you who needed bail
It was you who told tall tales
We always knew this love would fail
It would fall into a hole
This was the coffin's final nail
We never had a solid goal
Because your plans are always changing,
They're ranging
From like to love to lust
You're always breaking my trust
But I think that it's high time
I got the ***** to say goodbye
We'll never be "us" again
Since you wanna be "just friends"

Annoying girls in my class,
You cause me a festering hatred of all that my generation is.
I am pained by the lack of apparent brain in your heads,
You mindless drones,
You brainless robots,
You plastic dolls,
You "do-what-you're-told" barbies.
I think one day you shall find
That drones can be defective,
Robots can malfunction,
Plastic dolls can burn,
And barbies get abandoned.

You drive me wild
with your nicotine kisses.
You keep me calm
with your pipe-dream wishes.
you have me feeling some sort of way,
You have me waking up another day
To see the sun, to smile, to say
That I Love You
How dumb would it be to say that
You're my sun and I am your moon?
When they're always chasing each other but rarely meet.
It's more like you and I are Yin and Yang
to each other, the reverse
Yang and Yin,
Longing forever,
Eternally cursed

I'm so sorry

I wish I was as in love with living
As I am in love with you

But I promise, I will stay
Just a little while longer

Because that is all you ask of me

Hello
Hey
What's up
I miss you
I love you
I love you so much
I love you
I miss you
What's up
Hey
Hello
...Goodbye

I bet if you could have any wish, you'd wish for a sky full of...
Cars.

All of the fastest ones,
All of the coolest ones,
All of the most souped up ones.

But I bet,
That even if you got your wish,

No matter how remodeled the car is,
No matter how cool the car is,
No matter how fast the car is,

You still can't seem to find a way to be here when I need you.

I wonder,

When my wellspring of tears
Flows freely on your shores

Would you dip your toes in the icy water,


Or only bask in the warm sand?

perhaps i should just give

and then continue to give

and then give until i am no more.

for i am Second,
and you are First,
since the beginning,
and until whenever.

She is a deep ocean blue in a world of desert beige,
For the water always makes the sand look better.
She is a wonderful black cat, purring her way across the room,
Her pads touching the floor with every delicate step.
Her claws are sharp,
But only if she shows them to you.
And her magick is strong,
Because she believes.
She will lead you through the thicket,
Slinking long through the bushes,
And showing you to a wonderful clearing,
Alight with creatures and enchantment alike.
Her aura swirls about her, golden and bright,
But she is humble, she is kind, she is wise.
She is strong, but she will yield,

And as Lao Tzu has said,

"He does not show off, therefore he shines.
He does not justify himself, therefore he is revered.
He does not boast, therefore he is honored.
He does not praise himself, therefore he remains.
Because he opposes no one,
No one in the world can oppose him,"

There she is,
The strongest of any,
She who knows how to yield and overcome.

Kerosene,
Carry on,
Gasoline,
Move along,
Light a match
Watch it burn
Warmth so good,
Hurts so wrong.

I wanted to write a poem
But I became so exasperated at the fact that
I could not find the words.
I became frustrated and deleted every word I wrote,  
Only to find myself here,
Writing what you are reading now.

A million and one,
A million and two,
There's a million of me
But only one of you.

A million and three,
A million and four,
There's a million times
I'll say "I love you more."

A million and five,
A million and six,
There's a million things
We don't need to fix.

A million and seven,
A million and eight,
There's a million more nights
That we could stay up late.

A million and nine,
A million and ten,
There's a million ways
For this poem to end.