Heartbreak - Hello Poetry

Mar 2018

pearl

i swear to god when you pulled me out of that car
you had to have known what we are
at first i remember hiding you from my dad
and i remember the first time i made you sad
now you make me wish i was dead
i'm alone and i'm stuck in my head
nobody looks like or talks like or thinks like you
and i've been dreaming about you wanting me too
ive been picturing your laugh inside my mind
and without you in my vision i might as well go blind
you're all i ever talk about when i'm drunk with my friends
and they try to tell me that you and i is now "the end"
i never listen i just fantasize
when will i quit telling myself lies
i remember all good times and it makes me cry
the bad times are there but i don't care and i don't know why
i miss being in the same room as you just sitting
now i'm alone every night and it makes me feel like quitting
i wasn't even alive until i met you
so how the **** do i live without you
nobody can love you like i do

Mar 2018

pearl

Untitled

i watched you sob over your father
you saw me at my most horrific
why can't i seem to find another
when we weren't even that terrific

i don't know what butterflies are
until i see your ******* face
you left me with more than a scar
more pain than you can trace

and when i think of you
which now isn't getting to be often
i feel like i'm lying to
myself until i'm in a coffin

why can't i just get over it
it's been almost a year
our love was torn and hit
and for me? you'll never be there

i want to stop torturing my brain
i want to stop feeling sad
i want to stop craving rain
and i want this oh so bad

Mar 2018

pearl

November 29th, 2016

I bet she’s a natural blonde
And isnt up to her elbows in bleach
I bet she ends up taking you places
Maybe France maybe the beach

I bet she makes you laugh
When all I seem to do is wrong
I bet her eyes become your favorite
And you forget about me after long

I bet she doesn’t whine
When you ask her to do anything
I bet she plays instruments
And like an angel she can sing

I bet she introduces you
To new exotic things
i bet she doesn’t ask for anything
No diamonds or shiny rings

I bet you’re happier with her
I wish I could prevent
I bet you’re holding hands with her
youre fully and finally content

I bet I’m lying in my bed
Wishing you were mine to hold
But I’ve ****** up too many times
And you decided it finally got old

I bet I think about her
Every single day
And how she ended up with my lover
And how I ruined things in every way

I bet you’re really happy
And thats actually really good
I know I can’t have you
But I wish I had understood

I bet I still love you
In fact I’m sure I do
I just can’t imagine how I did it
I can’t bare losing you

Mar 2018

Britney Garcia

Craving Flight

For you
I’d just as soon sabotage this nest
Not really for you
You
    You
        You
Could never catch the strings falling now
That we’ve woven with every aching question left unanswered
The strings that have for so long entangled my heart and soul
[Trapping them]
My caged conscious craving flight
Like you and I
In
   this
      loss
          of
             gravity
I’m not sure what to do with all of this room now
Or with the taste your name leaves on my lips
Or how your smell is imbedded in the walls
You, you you
Simply I will utter
I am not for
YOU

#breakup #loss #change #trapped #broken

Mar 2018

Britney Garcia

Commercial Love

Her love
You know the sort
That makes you lay your head against the hardwood floor
Questioning yourself
Or no one in particular
Where did she come from?
Do you remember eagerly awaiting an answer
From beneath the crevices pushing against your jaw line
As the silence gnawed on your bones
Because I bet when she touched her fingertips to yours
Both of your souls response insinuated a path of many colors
Did her laughter warm your frost bitten lungs?
While her stare burnt bright behind your irises?
She probably tenderly confided in you a thousand silent words
Day after day
Until the depths of her beauty lit that fire inside
Igniting it with a smile that threw your heart into the wind
Every time
She was that commercial love , Right?
Misty meadows and crashing waves with summer salt
She was that drown in her kiss and leave you gasping for air, love
That lay your head on the hardwood and wonder where it all went love
Am I right?

#love #pain #heartache #yearning #questioning #uncertainty

Mar 2018

Eleanor Sinclair

To Love

To the love I once knew-

I am the one you love briefly
Like the fall breeze passing by
Tell me what it was like when we first met
Did your pulse quicken like mine?
Did your stomach sicken like mine?
Did I help your spirits grow?
Or was I the placeholder till the falling of the winter snow?
Did you look into my broken soul and see my undying love for you?
Did the prospect of that terrify you?
Did I make your mind feel good?
Did I do enough for you when I could?
Was I what you wanted me to be?
When you think of your future is it me that you see?
Did you use my body for your pleasure?
Was I a way for your self worth to be measured?
Did you even love me at all?
Were you afraid if you left that I'd fall?
Fall from what?
From grace, from sanity, from logic?
The warfare, my love, is simply psychologic
I'm nothing but caring and like cancer our love grew
Manifesting into something beyond our control
I took the blame for your lies and adapted to the role
You continue to smile and laugh all cheeky
You tiptoe around and act all sneaky
Decide for yourself what you want to do
Just know that the moment you get on that plane
When you come home, we’ll likely be through
No matter your choice we won't be the same
Because, see, you chose her despite my insecurity
And with a feeble rhetoric professed your maturity
But I know this won't bode well
For me it’s like trudging through hell
Because I've never been enough to keep anyone around
I'm always the dirt between your nails or beneath your feet like the ground
You can do what you want and my presence will be amorphous
I'll adapt around you and still you'll ignore this
I'm the sun on your face and the air you breathe deeply
I'm the girl of your dreams and the one you love briefly

#to #love #hurt #sad #lost

Mar 2018

reilly

some people are so desperate to show you the galaxies within them, they rip themselves apart to show you their stars

I’ve been seeping constellations for you-
For you to see the colors within me
But i can see the milky way on my bathroom sink
And I’m bleeding all over the broken bottles you left last saturday
And on the empty pill bottles I was prescribed to forget you

When you kissed me last you told me I tasted like a stranger
Even though I’ve showed you every galaxy I hide inside me
All my stars and the spaces in between them
You used to tell me you could see the sky in my eyes
But last time I heard you haven’t checked the weather in months

The stars are sleeping in my veins now,
I started saving them from my bedroom floor
But i can still feel you on my fingertips
I still think of you every time I look at the sky

I’ve been kissing strangers to forget the taste of your lips
But i feel you in the back of my throat every time I smile
I feel you in my voice when someone asks me about my plans for the future
Because my entire life I was told one day I will find my better half
And you always told me you were mine
But who are you to tell me I need someone else to feel whole?

#stars #love #broken #galaxies #self #harm #whole #uplifting

Mar 2018

wordvango

Rain

This rain
Seems like
A million
Heartbreaks
Crashing
Down

Mar 2018

Elizabeth

let me go one day

Let me go one day
without looking at you, please.
Let me sleep one night
without the memories.
Let me stray from the dreams
that fail to make me happy.
And let me continue this alone.
Let me drown myself
in these tears you caused.
Let me stab my own self in the back
with these broken shards from my heart.
Let me shock myself
with all of the energy, I wasted.
Let me lose myself
in the darkness of my mind.
Let me melt
from the heat of my anger.
Let me freeze
from the coldness of your heart.
Then let me rip your heart to pieces
and destroy who I thought you were.
Then let me ask if we can still be friends.

Mar 2018

Mystery Girl

Relive

Every time I see your words
The ones that I know were meant for me
I remember the way it felt to read them
For the first time
I remember how much you meant them
And how much I meant my responses
Back when there was us
No label necessary
Just us
And I remember all of the things I've ever felt
All the love that poured out of me
The sadness and anger
The longing for you
And I relive the time
That I never want to forget

Mar 2018

Styles

Heart

The more my heart beats
the more my heart breaks
the more our world shatters
the more my earthquakes

#love #passion #hurt #*** #poem #poet #poetry

Mar 2018

Dess Ander

New Love

Don't worry about breaking my heart. Someone else has already done that.

#poem #heart #heartbreak #love #break #hate #sad #hurt #depressed #lonely

Mar 2018

Pagan Paul

Tender Torment

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I capture an image
as you flitter
through my dreams,
never resting to say hello,
never staying long enough
for me to enjoy
or appreciate your visits,
your mist like touch
as St Vitus Dance drives
you fidgeting
amongst my inner thoughts,
no care for the damage caused
nor the trails
of scented confusion,
yet wraith-like or feral ghost
your imprint leaves
traces of perfumed attention
in a tortured mind,
that linger with a hope
of a fleeting glance,
replaced with a second look,
and the tender torment
persists in the clinging grip
of pictures
sequenced to evade notice.

© Pagan Paul (05/03/18)

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#poetry #torment #wishfulthinking #visit #outofreach #love #romance