i watched you sob over your father
you saw me at my most horrific
why can't i seem to find another
when we weren't even that terrific

i don't know what butterflies are
until i see your ******* face
you left me with more than a scar
more pain than you can trace

and when i think of you
which now isn't getting to be often
i feel like i'm lying to
myself until i'm in a coffin

why can't i just get over it
it's been almost a year
our love was torn and hit
and for me? you'll never be there

i want to stop torturing my brain
i want to stop feeling sad
i want to stop craving rain
and i want this oh so bad