I know you believe I have no right
To tell you that I still love you.
However, even if I kept it to myself,
I would still feel it, so what good would that do?
I feel like you are always changing
And, I know I don’t feel the same
When all is said and done
Love is such a trying game
There has never been one like it
Designed so no one will win
There has never been an end
So how do we know where to begin?
We fumble and we fall
We fail to seek our eternity
However, it has a place and time
Like some lecherous fraternity

'Love you to the moon and back'
A diamond shining in the sky
This is merely a fantasy
A small-perpetuated lie
Where we find love
It should be simple, true, and kind
Is this where that phrase comes from
When they say that ‘love is blind?’
We give too much of ourselves to people
When all we seek is deep inside
We need to look for love within us first
The only place it can never hide
We face our trials and growth is not easy
Through the pain of where we need to go
Because if we don’t love ourselves
Then looking for love is just a show

As I let, you linger in my mind
You, the one in love, I lost
I am counting all my misery
Instead of the truth of what it cost
I lost myself to the one thing
I fought so hard to seek
Instead of making me strong
All it did was make me weak
I forgot the golden rule of thumb
We don’t find love, we attract
They say you draw love to you
Some believe this is a fact
But when I leave this mortal coil
And I journey to wherever we go next
I will have a few questions ~ not least of all
Can you put love into some small context?

You may not see
The person you once knew
But rest assured
I still remember you
I might somehow seem forgetful
How that makes you feel is regretful
Locked inside are the reflections
That are in temporal displacement
Though I still remember you
In my own absent little ways
No matter what the effects of age
Objectionably says
I had a life
A career, a family
I created your memories in my wake
All I need are helpful reminders
For all sanity sake
Don't give up
Don't put the blame on yourself
Or on me; for the cards I have been dealt
I'm scared - I'm alone - in the fear I've felt
Remember, I can never be gone
If in your hearts - I live on
The disease is in control now, you see
Behind those dementia eyes
Where my remembrances hide
I am still me

The love of a woman
Is paramount to life, as he breathes it
One must die to oneself
Before rapture takes over in copious amounts
Inside an embittered heart
Where a mind of morbid thoughts rely on
The earth revolving around its axle
As the soul seeps heaven lost to a physical realm
Forgotten are the languid moments
Of perfection not found in this land
Those only held in humankind
The act of freewill
Kills completion of mind, body and soul
Doomed to failure in a world controlled by greed
Supported by power hungry demons
Sent to diminish the goodness
We only find in our visions of Nirvana
We can only dream of such fulfillment
Until we cross over beyond a material world
Where eternal rest seems so inviting
Peace will bring equilibrium
Love will be of a higher quality
...
O sweetest death...
How I long for you

Lowly, ornery moments, viciously crusade
Whispering damnable, through tempestuous winds
Seeking the core being of auspicious people
To wreck the wholesomeness they hold
Without merit; without claim; only with lurid enmity

These satirical shadows lurking
Crave our every fallen promise
Of living a full life of exemplary character
So they can manipulate susceptible thoughts
For their own ghoulish behaviourism

The tacky underhand played by cruel intentions
Mystifies the drunken stupor of our senses
Who strive to live abjectly without fear
In the torrid aftermath of our foolishness
Are left the maudlin remnants of our self-esteem

When harmony within us is weak
Tomorrow is left to renew
The rambunctious craze of melancholia
Hiding behind contemptuous eyes of disturbia
Propensely echoing through our minds

The time is now
The happenstance is palpable
The feeling inescapable
Of this fake row
Coincidence and irony
Will belittle such harmony
So take a bow

The outcome staged
Life is a ball of confusion
Charm the key to the illusion
Emotions raged
Like pangs of flawless buggery
Fading in the skulduggery
Empathy caged

A manic mind
In truth, it feels rather subtle
A melancholy rebuttal
To your vain kind
I shall fall and rise once again
I will be victorious then
The heart is blind

The end of time
Frees the burning desire inside
Sleeping dogs lie holding their pride
The clock will chime
Your life seems lost in the sorrow
There’s not always a tomorrow
So pay your dime

Far beyond the Universe lies
A vision of love, sweet disguise
Within the limits of this world
The truth my amour you unfurled
Didn't know a thing about it
Belief in it, I would doubt it
Till time stood still

I was living, but not alive
Landed, but never did arrive
Alone amongst seven billion
Just a faceless civilian
Felt like I just had to shout it
No love existed; so flout it
As time stood still

And there among heavenly stars
Somewhere between Venus and Mars
Such wonders the Universe done
Here I found my beautiful one
How can my heart be without it
Love I feel your heart will scout it
When time stood still
My world you fill
When time stood still
My soul you thrill
*~ When time stood still ~

O sweet melancholia
                                                  ¬                   Why do you taunt me so?
                                                Why do you look for me in still waters?            
When I am willing to be happier than ever
The escapism from your clutches
Never seems to materialize
The ache that dwells within a sombre mind
A pure heart
S
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                         L
                               L
Dwells there
You cannot haunt the fearless for long
As quietly
And predominately
I will turn my back on you
One day, you shall atone for your haunting moods
And on that day...
..... I shall be vindicated ~
I am going to be free
Forevermore

All your friends are demons, I think I know
The past won’t let you settle as you grow
You don’t feel you can make life-changing moves
Half your life to fighting terrors you lose
There’s little you can do to take control
Put your smile hidden in a pigeonhole
Your emotions decline into freefall
Let’s give your heart and soul an overhaul
I can give you all the tools you will need
The hunger that dwells inside I will feed

I can give you love and trust hereafter
I can turn the pain and tears to laughter
I’ll help reach in to find the real you
Harmonizing with congenial you
We will fight, we’ll curse, we’ll scream, we will cry
In this war it’s only the past will die
Now and then, when they rear their ugly head
I’ll be there to put those demons to bed
When you say maybe I don’t understand
I will simply be there to hold your hand

Fend off our victimisation
Our celestial visualisation
Help to keep the harmful at bay
Tell us how love will find a way
In times of ruinous meandering
When our cognitive strengths are weak
As baneful people take to slandering
I will be there just seek
I'm where you alone will find me
When my troubled times will grind me
I will seek my comfort in you
There is nothing we cannot do
The jealous, vicious, ugly hate
That others land at our door
The pain in their lives must be great
To think they can destroy our core
Life takes over it beats you down
But your accomplishments renown
The person you are in my eyes
As through the ashes you will rise
We stand, as always, together
As one potent heart forever

I conclude that I hate the world today
Everything people are and what they say
They speak no kind words by gesture or sound
There is no common decency around
People are not nice like they were before
I hate that there's no respect anymore
We are seriously lacking dignity
To a human race no affinity
We're all offended or aggravated
Whilst we act so cold and calculated
There's very few out there who won't pretend
Everyone's an enemy to a friend
We are ultimately in regression
Forcing ourselves into an oppression
Like we've gone back to the days of the cave
Not so the Stone Age ways should we enslave
Is it all about tearing someone apart?
Does anyone have love left in their heart?
Don't mean to be unkind
But if you wouldn't mind
I'd like to step off the planet now please
We are giving such little guarantees
I will take you with me
If you would like to see
An end to this ****** scrutinising show
Time to leave ~ to somewhere *only we know