Lowlife - Hello Poetry

Sep 2017

Muyi

The cold and dismal darkness of the night is comforting to one such as i

The silence gives clarity to my otherwise blistering hot spirit

The elevation adds a sense of perspective to my thinking

The glistening and every shining light of the moon brings focus to my turbulent and dark soul

The absence of people feels pleasant despite the sensation of loneliness and alienation

I come to the catharsis and or epiphany that I am going to be alone forever and no matter how much I wish to live...I am already long dead

Is there anyone out there to share this abyss of a heart with?

Is this black and eternal flame only meant to serve as a joke or punishment for evil deeds unknown?

Or is it simply a reminder of the life and peace I once knew?

I have not the answers and soon, and as surly as the day shall return, I will lose interest in knowing...

I embrace death not only as a friend but as a piece of myself, for death is neutral, indifferent, and true, and though it may be cold and unemotional it is mine

I wish you as well as so many others before and after you were mine, but as a sly fox escaping a hunter's trap or a silent and deadly spider that disappears before anyone can swat it, my just dues eludes me

Can you feel my sorrow?

Can you ******* pain?

Have you gazed drunkenly into the darkness looking for a sign of deliverance or damnation?

Will you be the one to save me?

No you cannot...but the gesture would be most appreciated...

My spirit is broken, my mind is twisted, my soul is dead, and my body is soon to follow

All I have is this black fire, but nothing last forever...

I am in great pain, please help me...or not...at the moment I don't not care

Death is forever

#life #death #pain #loss #depression #obsession #failure #lost #confusion #love

Jul 2017

Muyi

Good Wolf, Bad Wolf: who do you feed?

Sometimes I'm happy
Sometimes I'm sad
Sometimes I'm angry
Sometimes I'm glad
At times I'm up
At times I'm down
Sometimes I smile
But mostly...I frown

Wubbalubbadubdub
Help me I am in great pain

#pain #happiness #fate #hell #purgatory #insanity #love #hate

Jun 2017

Muyi

Train of thought pt .2

I love ****** girls wit no rubber n robbing ******
These ******* aint on nothing
Can't rock wit the flagging ******
Im riding inna steamer
Im focused
Im watching ******
Them bullets hit yo femur
Them shells a be dropping ******

I hop out
Stand over buddy and letem have
U stupid ****
Swear I done told u about the static
His soul rise
Frozen n still as his cold eyes
His bros cry
Begging n pleading like don't die

Its funny 2 me
****** is sweeter than honey 2 me
My homie quarterbacking
Im thirsty
So run it 2 me
U ******* tryna stick me
Im witty
U dummy 2 me
U selling ***** d but Im pottie
U bummy 2 me

The beef I tried 2 squash it

But shorty said **** me

U blood related 2 me count yo blessings
Boy u lucky

Tryna war wit me

It could get ugly

****** in the field coming at u like its rugby

Deuce deuce make the biggest killer turn *****

School a hard knocks
Man u ****** playing hooky

How u tryna flex like u talking 2 a rookie

Stove on my waist
Chip a ***** like sum cookies

Caught a ***** slipping but my lawyer knock the case off
Nana clip
Raaat!
Peel his mufuckin face off
Snub nose
Pap
Take a mufucka face off
****** in the field
They just tryna get the base off--

I never really gave a ****
What's the point?
Lifes a gamble
Never crapping
Rolling 6
That's a point
Bro can serve u
What u need?
Gram a piff
That's a point
I aint joking leave u smoking off the rip like a joint
Awh man--

Tell me getem
N I gotem

****** missionary
N I think I hit the bottom

Bugging *** ***** on my **** so I swatem

Travel round the globe
No flex but I trottem

Double teaming hoes
We the tag team champions

Lucki Eck$ playing in the back Cuz its ambient

Going in her front
Fam coming thru the back

Fiend 4 the D
Yeah she craving 4 the sack

**** laced wit coke

Molly n a acid tab

Homie u is trash
We should throw u inna plastic bag
Homie u is *** n ***** so u gotta rash
Blowing money fast
Take a stash then I do the dash--

Poison in my veins
Baby I am so insane

Better watch the fangs
Shorty this is not a game

Devil on my shoulder
Angel scared 2 show his face
I would let u in my head but u can't relate

When Im high I think weird

#life #streets #crime #*** #death #gangs #drugs #****** #addict #fun

Jun 2017

Muyi

You don't know what you mean to me

Ask yoself what you mean 2 me
Im dying 2 know
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I gotta secret 2 tell u n im dying 2 show
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Ladies first
Spill yo heart yo spirit n pain
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Tell me first
Im not tryna be lonely in shame
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U say the life means nothing when its absent of me
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U say the night seems longer n the mornings are brief
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U say that cutting yo body helps 2 lessen the pain
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U say that moments without me are like sleeping in rain
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U think of me as a blessing
U can't breathe when I leave
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U wanna know that you're needed
U want people 2 grieve
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U wanna know that im dedicated
U want the proof
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U wanna know that im genuine
U craving the truth
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The only fear u have is living n dying alone
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Scrambling 2 rectify yo sins
U be tryna atone
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U not affected by the thought of u Goin 2 hell
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As long as Mr. Right is witchu n sharing the cell
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Try but u fail
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Nothing 2 tell
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U shopping 4 better options but there's nothing 2 sale
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Follow the trails
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Follow yo heart
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If u don't feel it n the end then u dead from the start
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Love is a arc
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Life is the flood
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Pain is a lesson
N 2 u I am more of a drug
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Feeling the buzz
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Imma fool 4 yah love
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Don't even need 2 penetrate cuz im cool wit a hug
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And after hearing all of that I only have 2 say
(1,2)
You don't know what u mean 2 me...

Love is crazy

#love #insanity #crazy #pain #trust #girls #boys #gender #self #harm

May 2017

Muyi

Girls Turn Boys Into Monsters

The girl say she love me
I go silent then reply
I say cool
She say what?
Loves refreshing but Im dry
U can't blame me 4 my lack feelings
Rarely was I loved
Imma addict in recovery n love is like a drug
****
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I wanna feel the type a love that's on my television
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But its a battle staying happy not a exhibition
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As a youngin I remember having premonitions
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Imma pass away alone n Im not superstitious
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If u love me cut yo palm n let me taste the fluids
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People say that they in love but its so diluted
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And if loves a battlefield well then Im undisputed
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Loves a game amongst the worthy but u not included
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Im the type 2 lead u on n promise u the world
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I make love 2 u n tell you u the only girl
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I'll abandon u n act as if it never happened
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Leave u crying in yo pillow n hysteric laughing

Girls r just as ****** up as boys
All in all people have issues
Love hate. Girls boys

Apr 2017

Muyi

I hurt u because I love u

I just wanna be loved
I just wanna feel needed
I just wanna be close 2 u
All my life was mistreated
×4

U gave me hell when I was broke
Its only fair 2 give it back
U give me love because im rich
U gave me love
I didn't ask
×4
I was nice in the beginning
U was rotten from the start
I just wanna break yo spirit
I don't wanna hold yo heart

And If suffering is beautiful then pain is like a art
I wanna hear you cry n scream like a blade is in yo heart
{(Ugh+)*2nd repeat only }
×2
love you
I hurt you
I use you
I lose you
I leave you
Deceive u
U die
I mourn
{Repeat until it fades out}

I don't want u 2 die I just want u 2 suffer...then I wanna love u 4ever

#love #pain #sadistic #crazy #immaturity #hate #loss #selfishness #******* #anger #true #madness #sadness #truth #deceit

Apr 2017

Muyi

I might love her, but then again...

Latia come with me--
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I'll set you free--
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I wanna feel your flames--
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All over me--
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I might love her--
1+2+3

The sun is gone--
1+2
Your fast asleep--
1+2
I only want-- to hold you near me--
1+2+3+4

As long as you- are mine--
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My life is- fine--
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In love there- is no time--
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Fear is a crime--
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Do I love her?--
1+2+3

Now all I feel is pain--
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Cold in the rain--
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She says I've gone insane--
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I can't complain--
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I might love her--
1+2+3

Across a endless sea--
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My mind runs free--
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My heart is stuck in flames--
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So hard to breathe--
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I can't love her--
1+2+3

The moon is red--
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Blood on my sheets--
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Before you die-- I hold you dearly--
1+2+3

The room is void of light--
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The rope is tight--
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No trace of fear in sight--
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Tears in my eyes--
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And i loved her--
1+2+3

I don't know what's real...

#love #truth #pain #insanity #confusion

Mar 2017

Muyi

Im from the northside of hell

For give me mothers if I take another son away
The ***** shouldn't a tested if my ****** wouldn't spray the K
2 the face
2 the point
Hollows in yo temple *****
Leave 2 dents in yo face like some dimples *****
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Ugh
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The devil told me that I'm coldblooded
Semi stoic look on my face n these hoes love it
Ain't got it on me when they shoot imma road run it
Never put trust n no ***** cuz these hoes covet
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Ugh
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Im like the black mclovin
Wit a wrap sheet 4 days
Tell yo mans cuz he shovin
N if low keep pushing imma have 2 start bussin
'Nother dumb ***** dead in the streets over nothing
Agh
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My mama say that idk about the struggle but she don't know half if the **** a ***** toggle wit
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She only know about a 5th of the **** I did
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N if she knew me she would call me the apocalypse
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Cuz I done did mo dirt then a Lil bit
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N if this rapping don't crack imma cop a brick
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These ****** say they were its at but the fulla ****
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Cuz we the only mfs really taking risk
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When I was 17 I ****** a ***** n she was 30
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They call it statutory **** but I was hella flirty
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I know some ****** out south that'll do u *****
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Razor blade 2 yo face like that ***** birdie
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Ugh
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I gotcho sis on my lap
N yo fix in a sack
Text books on my back
Imma lowlife pirate I ain't even gotta act
N my ****** on attack
Lowlife just relax
Ugh
1+2

N I mean that ****
I was blind 2 it all now I c that ****
Imma show u mufuckaz that u can get rich
If yo friends turn 2 opps n yo main chick flip
Ugh
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I think Im in love wit this girl I just met really outta nowhere but Im crazy so idk. I want her so ****** bad but I gotta wait. .....

#life #hate #pain #future #death #past #present #chicago #misery #crime

Mar 2017

Muyi

Dont u know u got me...

I wonder if she feel the fire when she close 2 me
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I try 2 keep 2 the shadows so they don't notice me
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We always texting n chatting but she don't go wit Me
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She still in love wit that *****, so she don't notice me
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Like baby who do u hit up whenever yo rage is pent up
I say n u should get rid of the old, forget that *** *****
But he yo 1st so I get it, he own yo soul so I face it
I gotta buy u from buddy or let my burner cremate'em

I hope in time u will c
How much n love we can b
Maybe if I get mo famous
Maybe if I got mo cheese
Maybe if I got u jewelry my love a enter yo soul
Baby wit u Imma sona, without im 'deslant n cold

I think I'll never ever make this right
Cuz cupid gave me bad advice
He told me she will love u back but all she do is fake n fight
He told me id c heaven's gates n all I saw was vacant eyes
Would hurt her if it helped me cope but that means nothing in my life
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(I ran outta **** 2 say, but I love u girl. Stop ****** around n let me have u.....heh heh.......)

My love is an inextinguishable black fire...

#love #dark #girls #obliviousness

Mar 2017

Muyi

Tragedy on Bourbon street

Its the tragedy on bourbon street
God watch over Angelique
Now miss Laveaus gone crazy
Cuz animals took her baby
Now I didn't use 2 pray but on this day im on my knees 2 say
Can u pass 4th forgiveness
Cuz I need some penance

She died because she loved me.
I killed a angel
I killed the only thing I loved
The only thing that loves me
I should've died
The bullet was mine
Im so sorry
I wanna die n b wit u but u believe in hell so I guess I do 2
I love u baby
Save me a spot in the sky

#pain #sorrow #misery

Mar 2017

Muyi

Recollection of a monster

Burn yo castle 2 the ground
When u hear my ****** coming don't u make a sound
Snitches get stitches but these suckers get fouled
Ah wow
Get down
If u don't
Lay down
Plenty cake

If u try 2 go 2 war then we don't conversate

****** been ****** ******* while y'all *******

Break a swisher
Make her lick it
Blow it in yo face

Smoking haters out the box

Summertime come around
****** acting wild

Cpd hit the block
Sneakers shake the ground

Winter time
Icy roads painted wit the blood

****** wit my Lil ******
Meet up wit my snub

Meet up wit my snub
Naw meet up wit yo maker

Jesus
Allah
Buddha Satan
Hera hermes shiva me?
*******
Getting
On they
Knees
1+2
But they ain't praying tho

U ain't even gotta mic so what u speaking 4

U ain't even gotta high so what u fiendin 4

U ain't even gotta lie
Who u sleeping on?

If he ain't getting money don't speak 4 me

If he getting out his body he can't blow 4 free

If a ***** get loud makeem rest in peace

Deuce deuce at yo chest like double Ds

I squeeze them thangs 2 make them squirt
If a ***** acting childish get his just desserts
No Häagen-Dazs *****
We don't **** wit lames
Pockets got diabetes cuz we stuffing cake

N that's on me
Remember when the boys n blue tried 2 cuff a g
Remember times got hard
We was hungry
N now the fam eating good no gluttony
So go 2 sleep

Lil ***** go 2 sleep

That's what my cousin use 2 always tell me
Cuz when id wake dollar bills is what id c

On me now we living outta dream

Yea now we living outta dream

Yea now we living outta dream n errthing ain't always what it seem
So don't sleep mf don't sleep

1st time I saw crack was at 7 in my mama kitchen......family business

#love #life #drugs #blood #memoria

Mar 2017

Muyi

Despiration

It was a cold day running from the cops in the rain.
Gotta get my hands ***** if I wanna buy a chain
If I do make it out imma prolly go insane
If I do get rich then its prolly off a stain

Hands all ****** as im hopping on the bus
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Air so cold that my blood turned to slush
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Growing 2 fast like **** what's the rush
Get rich or die trying
There is nothing 2 discuss

Rip Tony

#life

Mar 2017

Muyi

Devil in my blood

I swear I thought I saw the devil in my father's eyes
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N if the devil is my father
Well than who am I
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I have 2 keep a sad face when im in the streets
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My life's a sullen sunken song that is on repeat
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My ***** mani died n vain cuz I never changed
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I gotta pocket fulla change
I became deranged
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I seen a lot of people die n get forgotten
Race card, who remember picking cotton
1+
2+

Rip acacia

#evil