I needed to feel something real.
I had to confirm my existence.
So I walked barefoot in the cold.
This pain, never felt so good.

- Depersonalization

It's not my first time
I've been here before
I've questioned the idea of it
I've doubted its possibility
But somehow
You've kept me believing
Prayers do come true

Have I gone mad
(I'll ask myself)

It can't be normal to think this much
(I'll tell myself)

If only I wasn't so vulnerable
(I'll blame myself)

STOP IT
(I'll scold myself)

I'm worth the time
(I'll encourage myself)

I'm valuable
(I'll remind myself)

Think positively & Trust in God
(I'll challenge myself)

I'll be okay
(I assure myself)

REPEAT

Don't believe the world
Life is not what it seems

They laugh they dance they celebrate
To remind you of how boring your life is

But they are lost in their own misery  

Don't believe the world
All is not as it seems

They fashion themselves in expensive silks and fine linens
To show off their wealth to the poor

But they are naked and can not clothe their guilty conscious

Don't believe the world
What you see is far from the truth

They lay their heads on pillows to sleep
But find no peace and rest

Don't believe the world
True happiness
Is selflessness

And true peace
Comes from God

Where is the moon
To give its light

Where are the stars
To compliment its beauty

The night is young
But this time its different
The night is a young and reckless beast

Like a lion
Waiting patiently
For whom it might devour

Yes
Like a devil
In disguise

So don't let its beauty fool you
Or its music allure you

But rest till morning
And walk in the light of God

Call me old fashioned
But I still believe in Love

I'm hearing voices
I'm loosing my mind
And just like a mad man
I've got no place to hide

You crave those moments that take your breath away

I crave those moments that let me breath

You fear the imaginable dreadful end
I fear the true and spectacular now

Pulse accelerating  
Eye's dilating

I dance to the rhythm of my hearts tambourine

It beats often
I move often
I fall often
I rise often