i was a spark.
you turned me into fire
but since you left me
i am ash.

the world is our enmityville
don't bother trying to catch that bus,
the driver won't stop for you.

hissing telephone wires
noisy tea kettles
the lonely ******
you hear through your wall.

people bringing you down
people getting the best of you
funny how saints are born
once they've run out of sins.

this is enmityville
where neither life nor death
seems appealing.

eror404: happiness not found

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you set your eyes on her
and now you're lost

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you talk to her
and drown in the pools
of molten gold
that are her eyes

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you talk to her
until the sun is up
and her phone battery's flat

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you hold her hand
and know you've got her

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you hug her tight
and know she's lost

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you kiss her with
your deceitful lips

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she's all yours and
you possess her

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you make her happy
and maybe for a while
you even care

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she's truly lost,
she loves you

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but you grew bored
and faked it

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you left her
and you broke her

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goes the clock*
and now even
nursery rhymes
are about you
you *******

i can't keep desiring to want to be yours.
looking back at all those moments when i needed you,
i didn't need anyone else. only you.

and now you're happy, and i'm confused.
you told me that it was going to be alright in the end,
yet i'm still ****** up and it's the end of us.

you liar.
how dare you keep the truth away from me?
*******. **** your happiness. **** your new victim.


do you know that i can't do this without you?
you're the reason why i continue to breathe in and out,
i don't know what i'm doing, i don't know what to do.

but i like seeing you enjoying life,
i'm sure it's as beautiful as you.
but until i can see your amount of endless beauty compared to life,
i'll just remind myself that you're my infinity.

i want to scream
"come back to me"
until i have no lungs
to breathe

For you I was a chapter
A part of your life so brief,
You had no idea you stole
My heart so quickly like a thief

For me you were the book
I kept turning page by page
Never even imagining
By the end you’d disengage

Each sentence I read was delicate
Like a sweet melody of words
You and I were free to fly
As free as two blue birds

I thought the book would
Never end, and go on forever
But you shut the book tightly
And now my heart is severed.

You left me all alone
With just the pages to mend
Together my broken heart
Why oh why did it have to end?

i.
you love ghost
like a train you just missed.

with a heart full of regret
and a small bit of hope.

as if you were to change one small thing,
they might return.

ii.
you have been gone for 6 years now,

and i am no longer sure
if you are everywhere,

or if i look for you in everything.