I've been blaming myself for too long
for all the things I've done wrong.*
-

That could be us but
you're already gone: now I
stalk cause we don't talk.

Heart that is surrounded with thistles,
pinching in every inches...

Things weren’t easy for us
Hoping that it will come to pass
But it didn’t happen according to plan
Since you were disapproved by my clan.

Knowing that hurt you so much
As if your face was punched
I wasn’t able to really fight for you
But I hope you know that I tried it too.

It hurts me too
To see you in blue
Knowing that I can’t do anything
Makes me feel like I’m nothing.

Thinking about it over and over again makes me want to let go of you
‘Cause maybe when I’m gone, it will finally take away your blue.

Oh, I dreamt of you
It's good but it hurts me too
Awake. Gone. Oh blue.

I wonder, I ponder, both

Made me want to turn the hands of time
Is it just me feeling
Sorry for everything, hoping for me to
See things again

Before I walk forward, little by little, longing for an
Ending, a new chapter, a new beginning.
It will never be easy
Not that I am lone for thou art
Gone like the leaves in Autumn. Can't do anything but

Hide in the midst of Winter, while waiting for
Another chance to fly in Summer leaving the
Pain behind, but for now, I will just
Pen everything though in dire need
Yet coping, enduring, longing, hoping for Spring to come and fill my heart.

Needles in my heart,
alone in the dark, silent,
the distance I need
to endure, worst like before,
screaming and crying inside.

With you I feel home
Now you're gone I am homeless
When will I be home?

I can smell you now
want to be with you. You're so
intoxicating.

I know you are having a hard time
And for me it is not fine
Hope I can make things right
But it is really a tough fight.

I really wanted to hold on
But it seems you need to go on
On your shoulders, there’s a heavy burden
And I don’t want you to feel that you’re in my den.

I want you to have the best
And it’s not me ‘cause I feel like I’m a pest
Even though you said I’m worth it
I’m afraid that I will make you off beat.

I think you’ll be better without me
Maybe that’s what it has to be.

...Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So Just come back I'll make it
Better than it ever was....

Your hugs and kisses,
and everything about you
oh I truly miss.

I never thought I would feel this,
when I am with you I feel peace.
Without you beside me gives me sting,
I may be confused at times but I know this isn't just a fling.

You make me so happy,
like a honey bee in glee.
I don't know why nor how,
but you never failed to make me feel wow.

Right now, I am missing you so much,
I don't know how long could I take it like deep pain from a punch.
I really want to hear you,
because I indeed worry about you.

I am hoping we are fine,
just as like thriving like a vine.
I don't want to lose you,
because I am sure that will make me blue.

When I'm with you, it feels like I'm in a whole new world,
without you everything seems blurred.
Having you near me drives me to a new inspiration,
as you encourage me to a new and joyful direction.

All I want now is for us to be better,
as I give you a cuddle.
It may be wrong to them but it doesn't matter,
because what's important is you make me feel dazzled for you are my candle.

As I stare on it
Oh that photo of us two
and your photo too
Can it be for real again
Like what we're on those photos.

Reminded of you
Honestly it made me blue
Cause I still I do.

I couldn't escape
I can smell your good scent, though
You're not here with me.

What a sweet nightmare,
I hope it to become real
Too painful, it won't.

...that you want
to be real, won't happen cause
you're already gone.

That song you wrote
is still on replay mode
It used to make me special
to leave, you did cause you said shall.

I wish you didn't have to
though you said it is for me too
I never want you to leave
because to you I want to live.

The lines of that song,
oh what happened wrong
can't we just relive the lines
and grow together like vines.

I want to hear you sing that song you composed
as long as I live but why does everyone oppose?

I know I did too many things
And it’s really hard to untangle the string
I don’t know how to make up to you
To at least take away your blue.

What did I do?
I don’t know what to do.
Hope things will get better
As if it was cleansed with pure water.

I was nobody
But you made me feel like somebody
Yet I’m really sorry for everything
Since I wasn’t able to give you anything.

Will let you go and hope for the best
‘Cause I know you need a rest.

I love you but you made me blue
Still do even though I have a clue
After all you still give me hue
Because all I want is you
This is for you, I just wish you knew.

I made a lot of excuses.
I couldn't think any less.
I'm east and you are west.
I can't though I want to rest.

I just want to be with you.
I don't know what to do.
I feel so hopeless without hue.
I'm still longing to be part of you.

You on the other hand,
You're gone like a magician with a wand.
You went to a different land.
You are now part of a band.

You are really far from me like oceans apart,
I am still here though you broke my heart.