stretch wide my mind fled away, drowned in ecstasy, drugged, numb, and not okay! slumped with daze, ripped away in pits i forget your name.

foul without scent, i rip memories to shred. chest pressed in, i **** him, he, I created who carried you to bed in arms who bled for hours to no end. wrapped "together" in the ** for that's was how that night went

Longest of lovers and timeless friends, reincarnated people brought together again. in trial you plead, worried and afraid and within my arms you stayed safe. countless hours to interview and thousand more to hear about how they went..

Jealous of others your envious green showed through indifference & shame on your face. pressured by age you escaped the glue which held you and revealed the true face. tossed aside embarrassed to say, get away from family parties and friends.

Wanted by others you accept the advances you wanted their attention that'll help you escape this "cage". forgetful of commitments you dance your illusions in the arms of a stranger who's face blurred mine away.

you pressed your lips without time within the car, forced on me to fade the haze. a blanket of comfort the cold of may, my heart grew darker december's rain. the ****** agenda i did play, forcing the intimacy to burn it away. leaving your mind afraid.

but i do so hate, my heart that says. sorry for not holding you longer. the world ain't great, your grandfather was very special no one can replace. I wanted to hug your mother she doesn't deserve the pain and i hope i have you to hold if mine went too away.

our love for each other has become ugly..

minimal effort as I watch you leave, my arms cold from the selfish diseases, wrapped tight in comfort you had me under your sleeved, tucked in shadows no one will see..

pressed in books I couldn't be let breath as I crawled from anguish to a sunlight dream, basked in smiles from friends who wanted the best for me which motivated me to scream. old letters to ****** i drew that admire your form burn in fire to release my suffocating love.

yet I broke at every moments end, a image who was sparking as the sun stroked her face so genitally in pictures i adored, deleted forever they kept me in my wishful dream.

I loved for thousands suns, for the winter springs and august screams til the endless nights which kept me up as our bodies held together in naked sheets which you used to drain seed, with curling of feet within moaning kisses in between ******* energies we beat for our souls danced and heart beats in sync as i release..

you were the one, the pressing mornings and numbing nights. the lift of love, and lacking dream.

while the dread of peace kept you starved with wasted days.
my years with you were infinite fluttering dreams..

with withering tears passing dry cold on dark years nights old
my mind remains on the you who once was for love finds ways.
with blade I pull back the blade to expose vein, red dopamine rivers flow from my sleeve to numb my soul as i answer calls that drain away air to breath to hear your voice i wish for answers but am left not okay

with thin brushes i paint my anguish on canvas riddled with dangers of homicide, unable to die for the burden i leave will ****, morning horror dew..

a youthful mind trapping you in the delusion of time just hold on to me for who i might be scares me, love this true will leave me hollow and disconnected love was really never for me...

[Rain]
that falls motionless in waking dawn.
muffles the sadness within our souls.
mutes the voices within our heads.
holds us close when we're all alone.
that saves my drowning soul.
will help me grow...

Passionate lover, fluid strokes.
Deep inside, ****** moans.
***** thoughts, innocent tone.
Rough motion, head explodes.
Wet finish, all over her throat.
Beautiful kisses, on her toes.
Lustful whisper, do so float.
Heartful words, I do so devote~

.

**** the nine through five, which steals our time.
**** the system which decided if our dreams live or die.
**** the powers which puts money before love.
**** the luck, where ever it does so hide.
**** the I, who puts up with lies.
**** how i feel sometimes when you aren't by my side...

The breaking warmth over the morning glow.
The caramel macchiato which remind me of her love.
Her stress filled tears, do so bring me fury.
Her radiate smile, endless dreams.
Her heart, wishful happiness.