Falling                                        
for                  
you
is like being with

a cancer patient.

It's so simple really.
It all starts the night before.
Endless crying for no particular reason.
Followed by terrible thoughts that won't recede.
Finally I close my eyes and sleep.

I wake up and lay staring at the wall.
I tell myself to get up its a brand new day.
I cry some more.
I don't want to go through another **** day.

I get out of bed and look in the mirror.
I hate everything I see.
I get in the shower to try and wash everything away.
I get out of the shower and try the mirror again.
I still hate everything I see.

I throw on my clothes.
It doesn't matter I look bad in everything.
I look in the mirror again.
I just start crying.

I go to leave the house.
"I'm forgetting something" I say.
Oh yeah, I put on my smile.

*I'm ready

Just another
car ride
thats full
of tears
and regret

Don't forget to be happy while you're down there being miserable about something that doesn't even have any shred of significance in your life.

Oh**
I love the feeling of metal pressing into my skin.
You think its an awful thing, but all I see is a beautiful *sin.

If I was dying
I would have no one
to call and whisper
my last words to.

How lonely.

M
Y
S
E
L
F
.

So infectious you really are
not
what I need tonight.

Just another ****** poem about how you make me
use so many useless words to explain
All my feelings about you.