That love was
A broken symphony
A cracked melody
One with which
Not even we
Could compete

It truly amazes me
That after so much

All the words you said
All the things you did
All the feelings you caused

That you can just stop
And you can just leave
And, to you,
I never meant a thing

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It truly amazes me

Today it felt good

The love is back

No more anger and confusion

No more affection we lack

Being close again

Showing off again

Baby, I love you

And I'm glad that I have you

i don't really care anymore
about anything
the anger has eroded my motivation
and life has taken a back seat
to my rest and recovery
because i'm still very broken
so at this point
my care and all my concern
has vanished, never to return

It's danger
So tempting

A stranger
Still willing

So open
Enclosing

So weak
Imposing

Just words
Life altering

Only letters
Heart-changing

Though scripted
Flow free

Never ending
Finally

I like being way up here
Where your words,
I can't hear.
Where your touch,
I can't fear.


I like being way up here
Where your love,
I don't miss, dear.
Where your arms,
I don't want here.

I love being way up high
So high I have to look down
To see the sky

I love being way up high
So high I can't even
Begin to cry

I love being way up high

I want to love you
I want to love you right now
I want to love you forever

Nothing can change that
Nothing can change the feeling
Nothing can tear us apart

So love me back
So love me too
So love me because I love you

“The good die young. They be the first ones to leave.”
And they don’t come back, no matter how much we plead
No matter all the days we spend begging on our knees
No matter all the nights we stay up sacrificing sleep
No matter all the pain we feel, regardless of how deep

You could give up everything and you still won’t see them breathe
You could even sell your soul but their tongue will never speak
You could pray for peace but It’s rest you’ll never receive

No matter what we do, it’s a change we’ll never see

Thoughts and prayers are nice but it’s hopeless and it’s bleak

I'm not in love with you.
I never was.

I was in love with the ghost
Of who you were in the beginning

I was in love with the idea
Of what we could have had

I was in love with the thought
Of who I wanted you to become

But now
I'm not

I'm in love with the fact that
I'll never be in love with you

What am I but a servant?
What am I but a wayward son?

What am I but a sinner?
A lost soul scorched by the sun?

Dying by the hands of anger
Denying all the damage that I’ve done

Alone and broken, feeling strangled
And undeserving of the man I love..

What am I but an outcast?
Selfishly dreaming for a loaded gun?

Can't we just be us for a second?
And stop the conformity
End the uniformity
And become people

Can't we just be us for a moment?
And stop the yes ma'am
End the yes sir
And become equal

Can't we just be us for a while?
And stop the judgement
End the competition
And become simple

Can't we just be us for a day?
And stop the cushioning
End the lying
And become real

Can't we just be us for some time?
And stop the worrying
End the fearing
And become gleeful

Can't we just be us for today?
And stop the striving
End the climbing
And let ourselves free fall

Can't we just be us?
And stop the normal
And show we're
Exceptional

I could love you and hold you close
Make magic out of these memories
You wouldn't deny my offered dose
Or make a mess of my mental faculties

Dismay in the fact that you don't exist
Perhaps we haven't met yet
All these unfelt feelings that I've expressed
Perhaps we haven't met yet

I should put more merit behind youth
More merit behind these anomalies
To others in this world, we'd remain aloof
And to the stress that accompanies

It's out there; I know you exist
We probably haven't met yet
All the unfelt feelings that I've expressed
We probably haven't met yet

Past flames on which I've burnt myself
We're not fireproof or flame retardant
Flings condensed to pages idling on my shelves
Feelings like prisons from which we're pardoned

Wondering aimless; we both exist
We just haven't met yet
Unfelt feelings that'll be expressed
We just haven't met yet

Feeling less lonely when feeling together
Being held close and not by empty arms
Text me; call me doll whenever
I'll protect you from any harm

I think I'll love you; I know you exist
*We just haven't met yet

But what about me?

Through all the painful pleading
Now I can finally breathe

It's like a flood of relief
Sadly, I'm drowning

A pro at surviving
I've forgotten what being alive means

It's the death after the sting
Yet I've never been a living being

Now after everything
When all is said and done

When it's all finally peeked
And the ****** is the suppressed past

What about me?

What would I do
Without your eyes
Looking into mine?

What would I do
Without your words
Complimenting mine?

What would I do
Without your smile
Causing mine?

What would I do
Without your voice
Responding to mine?

What would I do
Without your mind
Encouraging mine?

What would I do
Without your arms
Entwined with mine?

What would I do
Without your world
Colliding with mine?

What would I do
Without you?

Simplicity.
That's all I want.

I shocked them all when I spoke up
I was always the silent kid
The one who went along with whatever you wanted

But I opened my mouth and shut theirs
All these years I suffered the abuse and let them use me
Well, here I am, and I'm at the top now

My mind is loud but my voice is greater
They all stopped and stared when I said no
When I decided to take control

They stumbled and then they fought
But they lost and it cost their dignity
Their pride, I took it and put away the cowards

How unexpected it was when I shattered their perfection
When I brought about the end of their reign
When I woke up and spoke up

All I've ever wanted was to be "one of the cool kids"
Be accepted.
And now that I am
I miss how fun life was
When nobody knew me
And how unique my thoughts were
Now that I'm "popular"
Everything feels less special
And more drained, lifeless
I miss the days when nobody knew my name

I wanna take you all in
But where do I begin?

Star-lit kisses, every tattoo to trace
Just to put a smile on your face
In hopes that it always stays

I wanna take you all in
I'll start by tasting your skin

Pray for you and hold you close
Watch you grin and crinkle your nose
Telling inside secrets that no one knows

I wanna take you all in
Something so good it must be sin

I'll love you now, I'll love you later
Renewing pieces to fill my chest's crater
All along, you've clearly been this girl's savior

I wanna take you all in
Feel your warmth on me again

Remember me. I'll go nowhere
When I'm with you, the world ain't unfair
So please dont leave; I'd follow you anywhere

I wanna take you all in..
Oh where do I begin?

Why is it that I feel whole when he's around
and so so empty when I'm alone?

Why is it that words always echo through my mind
but never seem to form when I need to speak?

Why is it that I can help heal everyone else
while I can't even admit my own problems?

Why is it that I get all strung out on happiness when he speaks
but fall into a deep, torturous depression when he leaves?

What's the point
Of all of this?
In the end
Will it even matter?
I doubt it..

Have you tasted the salt in the air?
Blown with wind,
Love, this tension hasn't given in.

Can you feel the sharpness in the air?
The desperate stinging wind,
Like knives, it cuts, it wounds the skin.

Did you hear my name in the air?
Fate whispered in your ear,
Sadly, you fled, riddled with fear.

Do you smell the musk in the air?
"A cavity in my chest"
I see you know that phrase best.

Could you feel the loss in the air?
As you looked in my eyes,
And let my reality be based in lies.

...
And will you miss me, dear,
Once you notice I'm no longer here?

I can't think
I can't breathe
It's all so hard

I can only sleep
I can only scream
Everything else hurts

My brain hurts
My flesh stings
Body in a mutiny

Maybe this is detox
Maybe the caffeine is gone
I believe this is withdrawals

I sit in this torture
I’ll probably feel this pain for life

Days are a struggle
And it’s a fight through my nights

It’s hard to have no one
And feel like you’ll be alright

Words bend and break
They flex and relax
They wound and heal
They expose what's real
Though they often conceal

Words are weapons
To challenge a wordsmith
Is to commit suicide
Words are not fragile
They can withstand anything

Words are bulletproof
They'll live long after you
They're almost immortal
Though many are forgotten
In languages lost to the world

Words are emotions
They embody everything you are
And everything you've ever been
They represent the future
Whether it be good or sad

Words close doors
And open windows
Words allow an escape
Or can ruin everything
Causing hopes to fade

Words are a lifeline
Your very soul, they define
They burn bridges
And move mountains
Words are the basis of everything