Makenzie Marie

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

I say stop
but of course you go.
I tell you what I don't want
but I know it's what you do.
I can't help myself
it's you.
But I'm trying to say,
I can't want you,
I don't want to.
Because I no longer trust
that I can trust my heart with you.
I can't trust you with my heart.
At least,
that's the only thing you've showed me is true.
If anything
you've taught me
to do everything in my power
not to love you.
But still
somehow
I do.

But oh my gosh
I don't want to.

If it's you reading this you probably know that it's about you, so there's not much else I can or need to say I don't know.

#love #heartbreak #fear #scared #please #stop #you #upset #lessons #frustrated

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

So. Yeah.

Truth is
I never really
stopped falling
Or fell up
Or anything.
I just accepted the situation,
I just tried to move on.
But yeah.
I meant it when I said I love you.
Maybe I mean it differently
when the words escape my lips
now.
But that real meaning is
Still. There.
But I'm working on that.
So please
stop making it harder.
Or somehow
Just make all of this easier
I don't know.

#love #lies #broken #hopeful #what #even #idk #idek #act #react

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

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I wait
Every endless day
for the time to come
In which I can take
A lovely handful
To take the pain away
To a dull nagging
Instead of
That searing scream
I know so well.

#pain #happy #numb #awake #comfortable #chronic #painless #painkillers #less-pain

Nov 2014

Adam Johnson

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The pain is worse than ever and I'm starting to doubt that trying is even worth it anymore. So long ago it was all joy but the joy faded to where it is now.

Yet you still bring me happiness.. How..
Loving you is the only escape I have ever had and though it hurts I relish the chance to feel.
Will I be okay..
Will it all be worth it some day..

#how

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

I'm too scared and too untrusting to jump.

I will not jump
Straight off a cliff
Where I've already broken myself to bits.

#love #broken #fear #heart #afraid #why #to #ugh #jump

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

I miss the Summer Heat.

I crave your touch
your eyes
your lips
everything about you
I miss
You've got me hypnotized.
I long for you
for my hands in your hair
our fingers intertwined..
I wish I were there
or you were here,
or we were anywhere,
together.
you and I.
I miss you.
I feel the fire of you
everywhere
from my lips
to my fingertips
you will not leave me
the summer heat
you kissed me with
has seared my memory

#love #terrible #awful #happiness #beautiful #summer #you #missing #heat #heartbreaking

Makenzie Marie Nov 2014

I think of you

The thought of you.
it kills me.
it always has.
I wonder if it always will

The thought of you
used to make me soar
with butterflies, I’d take off
And In my heart I’d be with you.

The thought of you would **** me
And I wish I could fold a map
and be closer to you.
if only.

The thought of you kills me.
you didn’t leave.
you didn’t stay.
we’re inbetween.

and I don't know
I'm just alone.
I think.