I haven't had the courage yet
to look you in the eye
not quite sure why

I guess Im afraid
of uncovering myself
of letting my guard down
while I catch my breath

afraid that I get too lost

it just takes a moment
and you can see
that I would
head over heels
dive in your eyes

Im afraid you
look away
close your eyes to me

so I rather
wont look
so you never know
and neither will I

How sad must our shadows feel
to be always following us
never free
without a will of its own

but what if a shadow too
has a soul
What if it needs care
just like we do

so love your
shadow
never reject
thus it will always be there for you
never abandoning
and the only one
you will can never leave

i looked at the moon
in front of me
growing

and felt so
relieved
that im so small
and she is so big

so the moon
carries my worries
and
i
glow

i put my sunglasses on
cuz i dont want people  to know
where im looking

i push my shoulders back
so noone suspects the
anxiety trembeling
behind my eyes

so they cant see me
because i dont let them
and they dont care

really

but nevertheless

it hurts so much
to be alone like that
not even having myself

having lost myself
somewhere with the
peace i once felt

i hope im happy

I can feel insanity stroking my head \ And holding me tighter than you ever did \ I swear \ I feel it \ Walking talking looking around \ Softly wrapping around me \ Tearing me apart \ Hiding me in places I do not know how to find \ Stroking my head even harder

and taking over my life-