Dont remember
  the last time
  I walked
  my head up
So high

    Not looking
  at my feet
Shoulders hunched

But looking up
  So hopeful
    Determined

               ...

Falling stars
    my only aim
Wishing you
    fell for me
Hoping you
   feel the same

I wake up late

as late as possible

and Im tired of forcing myself to sleep

exhausted

but what is worse

is gray days

full of nothing

so I sleep

live my dreams

and who knows

which is which

dreams are my creation

a world that belongs to me

but isnt my life?

On a good day
I could say I'm swimming
under the water

Compared to my usual
days spent in the bottom
of a pit
drown as a stone

<I wish to breathe
and one day maybe
float>

Lift the pressure.
Fly.

Its the end of the end
I still love you

And we have tried
too many times

But its just the end

We are bound together forever
but our lives have grown apart

But in the end
its just the end

Only in the early mornings
when everyone is asleep

I let myself cry

That smile
you threw at me
that ****** me up

Was it on purpose
or just kind

but so beautiful and deep

and how I wished it was for me

My day was going just fine
until you smiled

Today
I woke up

With
something strange
under my skin

Deep in the core
moving around
confused

Could not tell
what it was

Like it did not
know its purpose

Wondering around

Looking for
a purpose
or meaning

Just
like
me