Think about you everyday
Can you even remember my name
Yeah you were my dame
Now you with someone else
Left me on the shelf
****** up my health
Wanting to **** myself
Fronting to everyone
Smile on My face

I was a moth to your flame
Losing my game
Wishing

Sitting here wrists scarred
Legs cut, shut away
scared as the noose starts to fray
Who’s coming to help me
No one, I am left on the shelf
Alone, because my feelings are unknown, trying to keep myself to myself, smoking **** to make myself feel free, He is gone, the I **** I have done is wrong
It won’t be long until I return to my blades

If pain is beauty
I am gorgeous

Courtney you and i have been friends forever , And i will never sever our tether, although at time you are my aggressor the love i have for you has no measure, I will lock you in my cellar during the cold weather, together we are best friends

it was my birthday 26/03 i should have been happy
But i was feeling ******
Being snappy
feeling like ****
It is natural
for me

I cry
I try to dry my eyes
But the tears keep falling
I am calling out for help
but no one sees my struggle
Its like im inside a bubble
Set aside to rot alone
No one in my phone
And my pain is not known

Ripping my arms to shreds
thoughts of suicide in my head
i am filled with dread
no one listened to what i said
a pull of a trigger and i am
DEAD

Its me the one who bleeds
From his wrists
Sweet bliss


Don't try to diss me
Your rhymes are ****
done some crimes
and i paid my time

when i wanna die
I turn to rhymes
And i will climb up
up To the top

No matter how many times i drop
I will just pop another pill

Don't try me
I will **** you
spill your guts
With zero *****
You can try to duck
but my left hook
Will ******* up

I will never grow up
Wont blow up
time to throw up My last meal
yeah that's the ******* deal
It's just how i feel

Yeah you know me by PA!N
Three letters and a exclamation
That’s ***** on point
Been through some **** it my time
**** my time ain’t been to long barley seventeen years
But I’ve cried too many tears
Carrying my fears like burdens
I can’t loose my peers
Family is all I got left

Yeah you know me by PA!N
Three letters and a exclamation
That’s ***** on point
Been through some **** it my time
**** my time ain’t been to long barley seventeen years
But I’ve cried too many tears
Carrying my fears like burdens
I can’t loose my peers
Family is all I got left

Thoughts of suicide keep crossing my mind
i just keep getting lied to
who am i to try to survive
i am deprived of happiness
all i know is loneliness

Laying in my bed
Praying for help

The voices in my head
Telling me to Die

Thoughts of suicide
Revolving rotating in my mind

Try my best to be kind to
everyone i meet

But i'm just some ofbeat
*******

Hit my walls with my fists
till i bleed

Blood dripping from my knuckles

I buckle under all this strain and pressure
Try to forget
But there's always a refresher
I treasure the few i have left

Rope tied in a noose
Who's coming to save me
Pea she is the one here for me
Love her but not trying to give her the D
She dries my tears
The best eyes
I'm surprised she can't fly
She is my angel
I have been advised to take thing slow
So i'm a tortoise in a hare race
Looking in the mirror at my face
No need to chase a smile
Think of her and it comes so naturally
I follow the beat she drums
And here she comes running through my mind
So kind, always know i can find her here in my
HEART

I am so low in this moment, I need help
You read my poems, But don't know what i mean
I put up a screen, To keep you out
I'm in the ring with depression, I'm losing this bout
So i crank out another poem, Thinking of my mother
How she hates that im not like the rest, How i am myself
I WILL NO LONGER HIDE IN A BOX

I use my writings to cope
But i am sliding down this ***** of
Depression
Getting worse
Thoughts of that rope
Tied in a noose
To bleed away my youth
And that's the truth

but when i need you the most
You are nothing but a ghost
If you are ever down i do
The utmost to be there for you

You the one who is never there
for me


I see the tree
i planned to tie that rope to
That rope tied in a noose

You made me feel so used and abused
You whose initials are signed on my skin
But i will not let you win

I am angry
People shouting at me
why the **** are you doubting me
and outing me

And i don't want to eat my ******* meal
I no longer want to feel

THis **** got real
and its no big deal
That i don't appeal to you

I will not conceal
How i feel
and i know i am no big deal

no longer will i kneel to you
Get on your ******* knees and **** the cheese from my burmese
And i dont give a **** about your crews


And i will pleasure
Your ***** without measure
That **** for me is just leisure

This don't mean ****
I'm just having a seizure with a pen
Spazzing without you

I make do with what i have
i am no wordsmith
But i aint a ******* myth
Drink a fifth of *****

Tell my momma i love her
Before i throw her off a balcony

All i am is a **** up
Don't look up you might see me falling from that building rope around my neck hanging publicly

Laughing in the night
Fight the days away
Gaze at my life
Take a knife
Make a incision
Look to religion
Turn to god

Pray on my knees
Freeze look up to the sky
And i get no
Reply

To move on i go back
My thoughts are wack
My mind is full of black

Being kind to the one i say love
she is a pure white dove
Making light of the darkness of my mind
Helping me to find myself

In her arms
rest the scars i put there
From when i said i didn't care
My words are never fair

Marielle hurting her is hell
Fell into her heart
Tore her apart

Your love is like the purest dove, your hand fits mine like a glove, My falling for you was unplanned But it is ever evolving, you are the possessor of my heart, although this is the start I will never let you go, i will never throw you... are my one and only

Flicking through the unforgettable pages of your life,
Choice of wording and choice of rhyme,
Besides the unknown meaning behind your eyes, you don’t know the numb feeling inside.

Numb, empty, emotionless expressions cast across your perplexing complexion,
Hid behind multiple scars traced by its redemption,
It stopped at the flash of a red light,
Pulling on the cords of its life. Tight.

MW on my arm yes it is self harm
Yet that does not alarm you
Who hurt me so bad
You who caused the cuts on forearm
Why do you have such charm
You still have me
but you don't want me

happiness is a word i no longer find the meaning for
i loved her but now i think of her as a *****
I DEMAND NO MORE
as i lay here on the floor
as my tears pour out
i have doubt
that i meant anything to her
was i just a chauffeur to her from A to B
did she love me
what did i mean to her
life is just a blur
it's like she was a curse
that briefe happiness before it all came crashing down
now all i wear is a frown
its like i'm in a wedding gown
but i'm not walking down that isle
i am being carried in a black box
while the few who are there
watch on and cry
i fly

I don't know what the **** happened
but the night ended with me being blown my eeyore,
***** on my bone tomorrow i go home
got something going for me made the ***** moan with my fingers,


raise my hand just to spank that ***
She put on a show to make my **** grow
whoa ******* didn't think i wrote this ****
we both know you love my flow


******* taking off their clothes
who knows how many girls my **** blasted in
make a ***** *** faster than fast
****** you but i didn't make love

I'm feeling low at this moment
Kneeling in my room staring at the ceiling i can't find my bearings
Starting to sweat I close my eyes and  all i see is her silhouette
How could she forget about me
She was juliet to my romeo
I know i need to let it go
Let her go
But my love for her ever grows
Her love is like a crossbow bolt through the heart
I am falling apart without her
And there's no doubt that she is fine without me
I wish i could breakout of this depression
This borderline obsession
It feels like a big joke
But where's the
Punchline

My blood will flow
what do i have to show for my life
The scars that i left upon my skin with that knife
I never asked for the pain in my life
Am i just a stain you are trying to remove
I'm trying my best to improve
I just want to **** myself
I tried to save myself
But im falling into this hole
My heart is no longer whole
People looking at me and seeing me through a keyhole
Like an animal at the zoo
Who am i do you know
No you don't and you won't
Because your all at my throat
You can't buy my love and respect with a banknote
I wish i was perfect but that won't take affect
I'm no architect but i will build myself up from the ground
But i tear myself down with these wounds i inflict upon myself