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 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Dark Delusion
Take my heart and keep it for a little while.
I trust you not to crush it before time.
You did it anyway and crushed me with it too.
But it kept beating for your sake and my addiction.


I was sad.
The only emotion I had left.
You took my love and used it on someone else.
I’m empty, I’m dying, I’m never gonna use my heart again.


I used the rejection to see the red blood, warm and beautiful.
Dripping down, rushing down like on a rainy night.
Making pools of blood I could drown in.
I had abandoned love for my own sake.


My heart is never gonna beat ever again.
I used all of my own love for my addiction, that I started using yours.
But I’ve stopped, I should’ve been happy instead of hurt.
I’ve been suffering, I need someone to love me again.


Love, Love, Love.
It’s the only thing on my mind.
I’ve searched everywhere for someone to use.
To put me back in my normal state.


You killed my feelings forever.
You used me, like I used you too.
Emptied me from all there were left to use.
I’m me, but rotten and dead inside.
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
You Will
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
You'll search for me in the places I don't belong
You'll realize that fact when I'll be gone long
Never had I changed what I am
You'll realize you lost your gem
You'll miss me with your morning snores
Till the night time when you complete chores
You'll search for me in your misty showers
You'll remember me in your lonely hours
Hope you understand what you were to me
You'll be the same,  just like me
You'll look for me in your cold coffee's
Cause those brown shade would be just like my iris
You'll feel how I felt
You'll realize how I was when you left
But don't worry,  I'll be along
With you, cause..
We'll search for us in the places we don't belong
We'll realize that fact when we'll be gone long

©SmitFairytale
November 23,  2016
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 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
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 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
I  left  everything  for  you...
... *And
  then  you  left  *me
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
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 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
I don't hate you
I love you, more than anything
And you know that
             But
I do Hate each and every person
In your life
             Who made you so Vulnerable
That you can't accept
My Love for you

©SmitFairytale
Wrote at 22:38, Saturday, November 5 2016
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
storm siren
The thing I like most about November,
It's that it's easier to let go than to remember.

But if I've learned anything from October,
It's that even relentless things can be over.

And if I know anything about September,
It's that love is an ever burning ember.

Or if I know anything about August,
It's that your eyes are flawless.

Yet if I know a thing or two about July,
It's that true love never dies.

And if I know about June,
It's that things can never start up too soon.

If there's anything I know of May,
It's that the cruel shall perish and pay.

If I know of April,
It's that people can grow to be hateful.

If there were something I knew of March,
It's that death's scythe claims a cruel arch.

But if I know of February,
It's that frost kisses my heart like butterflies kiss fairies.

And if I know a thing or two about January,
It's that I fear no fire, and that should make you wary.

And I know anything at all about December,
It's that the smallest memory will make your heart dismembered.

Though what I love most about November,
It's that I'm so glad you remember.

And whether you be near to me,
Or far is where you have to be,
I am here to stay,
Because even if there's a thousand miles between us,
I'm looking your way.
TODAY IT ALL BEGINS! YAY!
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
Like a Book
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
Growling, he stretched her thighs
Like a book
"You're Mine" he read
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
My baby left me yesterday,
Packed her bags and went away,
High heels on the carpet,
Took my keys and craved her name into my car seat.

And that's the last one I let push me around,
I've said it before but I mean it now,
Get me out this city, I just need to clear my mind.

We left this evening, gave them twenty dollars for some gas in Boston,
grab a bite but now we're taking off,
When we got to Melrose, fifteen nights of April,
We just drank our sorrows, talked about the day we'll have it all.

- Charlie Puth "Ride To Melrose"
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
Surrogate
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
She kissed him
In the light, she nim
He stood, still
He couldn’t move, without her will
He stared
In those blue eyes, he dared
Though he fall
Gave up to her, all
Cause she was surrogate
Maybe right now she came, but she was late
Cause he kissed, her not
He was ****** up, was hot
Cause he loved, her not
Maybe someone else, she fought
Cause she was surrogate
You know, it was her fate
And he gave up, he was weak
And she came up, to sneak
Someone’s shadow, fill it all
She couldn’t, she was a doll
Cause she was surrogate
And she loved him, no hate

19:24
19 September 2016
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
Stasis
 Nov 2016 Nikhil
Smit
Black spaces

Warped faces

***** places

Paper chases

Free bases

Mind erases.

- Logan Peirce

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