I plant an evil in my Shangri-la
he carried out a coup d'etat

He told me to leave
And I escape with glee
At that time, I'm so naive
To think he will save me

When I flee, I think I'm free
But in reality, I'm simply loose

The moment I realize,
What my evil has done
Everything had been overdue
My allies have gone
And my Shangri-la just left a name

Before I love you,
I loved another man
He made me said I do
And You're not the part of my plan

Even after he left me
All I did was plea
With God, with Devil, with Universe
So he could come back to me
Even If the consequence is a curse

Before I love you,
I loved another man
It made me so blue
And you're not considered in my lifespan

So, I guarded my heart
With hope, noone knew
I'm breaking apart
and losing some *****

Can i still believe in a happy ending story?
That someday my prince will come
And save me from a cruel reality
Altough i'm not pretty
Also don't have money

Can i still believe in fairytale?
That someday my wish come true
After all the mess i have
i will have my own castle
With my beloved inside

I

A lonely chick
Fall in love with a butcher

Knowing her lover will ****** her
The lonely chick just fall harder
She thinks, it doesn't matter
Because her life is already bitter

Other chicks torment her
While the other's swagger

II

One day, a rooster
The only one who talks to her
Ask, Why she falls in love with the butcher

Maybe it sounds funny
Her face becomes smiley
But, in reality he's not ******
He's more honey

He cheers me up when i'm lonely
Her face turn red shyly
He never say that i'm ugly
He makes me feel worthy

Do you think it's a ***** trick
Answer the rooster
To fool a chick
And make her lunatic
Over something so sick

And who are you to critize?
The lonely chick cries

Can you blame her?
If she fall in love with grimm reaper
Because he has manner
To a chick who's got bluster

She screams
You treat her like airs
And jugde her when she shares
Never bother to see her tears

The lonely chick run
Leave the rooster that fall silent

III

The rooster feels pain
When he knows,
The love that he has shown
Never get known

I love you, the rooster whispers
That's why I stay
No matter what the others say
I won't leave midway

But, if my love leave me stray
What can i say?
Would anyone blame me if i betray?
I will go away
I'm tired with the love that gone astray

IV

The rooster fall into despair
While butcher doesn't care
When the lonely chick die

He just think it's rare
To see a tear
With the color of cystal clear

I'm gratified
To die in the arm of my beloved
That's what the lonely chick said
Before she gone to death bed

Akankah…
Kita akan terus begini?
Terpisah oleh jarak bermil – mil
Walau hanya dalam dunia fatamorgana
Kuingin kau kembali ke sisi
Seperti saat kita bersama dahulu

Akankah…
Pertemuan pertama kita
Hanya tinggal kenangan?
Walau hanya dalam dunia fatamorgana
Kuingin kau kembali dan melinkupiku dengan sayapmu
Seperti saat kita pertama berjumpa dahulu

Akankah…
Janji kita
Hanya tinggal sebuah janji?
Walau hanya dalam dunia fatamorgana
Kuingin kau kembali dan kita saling mengkaitkan jari
Seperti saat kita berjanji dahulu

Akankah…
Cinta kita
Hanya tinggal sebuah kata?
Walau hanya dalam dunia fatamorgana
Kuingin kau kembali dan berkata
Walau jarak dan ruang memisahkan kita
Aku percaya jika hati t’lah bicara
Takkan ada yang mampu memisahkan kita

I never knew I'd fall in love with you
Because I still on my pursue
However, You came with the glue
Before I knew
My heart was fixed by you

Yet, falling in love
Is not pure as the dove
It just changes the form of my hell
I know where this will end
Still, I don't care, others can tell
I won't bend

I never knew I'd fall in love with you
Because I still on my pursue
However, you came with something new
Before I do
I'm already belong to you

Yet, the reality
Welcomes me with brutality
I'm taking care of my gain
Preparing for my pain
let's be honest in plain
My love will left me again

(But, I realized that I'll never be ready)

Let's play make believe
Where I can pretend that you're mine
For a minute
Even it's merely adequate

I will dress myself beautifully
So, everyone will agree
I'm worthy
By your side,
I look like a bride

Hence, when you dally with me
You will look to no one, but me
Because, that's the sole time
You call me, dear, without grime

Even it's just a made believe,
That last in Christmas eve
It's worth to achieve
Because you'll never become mine

I wish, my time will freeze
When you're right here
Since I recognize,
Your love for me shall fade

I'm already prepared
For the moment I grieve
I've already practiced
For the moment you leave

I can't stay sane,
In an affair
Where I swear for your welfare
While turning myself into warfare

I don't want to care,

Once I drunk in despair
I'm aware about a nightmare

Can you tell me, even if it's a lie?
That you'll love me, till the day I die...

Then again, what do you expect from a shaking ground?
Peace is obliviously out of question.
It left me with ruins and wound
And an empty confession

I thought I won the crown
So, I prepared the gown
Little did I know
That's the trick of my foe

They prepared a show
In cold winter snow
I'm experienced such woe
And realized I'm just a clown

My gown has turned into ember
The things I could remember
Only rage and anger
Epitome of the raging fire on December

I want to remain unnoticed,
but I want to feel loved

I want to not regret,
but I can't undo my mistakes

I want everything to go back to how it was,
but it'll never be the same

I want to have little to care about,
and now I have the weight of the world on my shoulders

I want to say sorry,
but after it being so long,
it would have little meaning

I want to cry,
but I don't want to look weak.

I want to feel happy,
but I've made so many mistakes.


I feel like a coward,
hiding away from my fears
and hoping they'll fix themselves,
but once I've built of the strength to face them
it's too late