If only you could hear,
All these words that I’ve discovered
Written upon the walls of my mind,
Disappearing at the wake of light.

If we leave here not knowing
Where life will be going,
Love,
Remember that if all fails
Fall back on the fact
That we are growing.
Always.

Was it boredom or curiosity
Clearly the click bait worked,
Look where I am
Staring at the so called “World’s prettiest girls”
Just to see if maybe...

I guess I was too ambitious
Hoping to find myself seen as anything close to
Beautiful. All I saw was
Light skin and blonde hair
Blue eyes that screamed “love me.”

I stare at my mirror
Wonder when I’ll ever see myself,
Enough to be called “pretty.”
Maybe I don’t want that though,
Maybe I just want “enough.”

Dear love,

Let me in
To the darkness where the sun
Has never once
Kissed the ground,
Trust that I’ll thread carefully,
But understand  that what we have
will grow recklessly.

Let me hold you
When it gets hard,
Carrying the world
Atlas hold steady, I’m right here
By your side.

Let my skin spread across
Your ancient night
Like a blanket of stars
Let me bring back the light.

Let me feel everything
My smoke caressing the air
Our touch fire, igniting each other
Know I’ve burnt hundreds
of matchsticks, trying
To find the one that lights me up.

So let me,
Fall in love
Madly and deeply.
And when it’s over-
I want to be so broken
My pieces will scatter the earth
Like wishes I blow
In search for you,
Love.

The sky has decided to drop me
Into the fate of gravity,
Crashing into you arms
Where you chose,
To let go.
Now I’m free falling
Way past the stars
Into the dark
Where I’m learning to fly
In love with
My lonely

You think it doesn’t matter
Maybe I should just shut up and mind my own business
Leave your eyes to stare daggers
And your slippery tongue to burn castles

I’m not apologizing
For fighting back  
As you cut apart and dissect
Life into *** and breast,
Measuring beauty on a scale you’ve created out of blood
And buying worth out of bone you pulled from our spines.

How much do we have to give
For our voices to be heard,
Cause you best believe
We’ll give it all we got

No more standing in the corner
Watching sisters fall on their knees
Crying in front bathroom mirrors
Whispering promises you can’t keep.
No. Tonight we are standing
With her.

And your better know that this time
When we scream,
The world will echo back.

I get lost fighting
Against the current
Of these thoughts
Screaming
“Worthless”
And all I can do
Is whisper
“Enough”

I plucked a wish from the ground,
Wondering why
It destined to die
Choked in a field of thorns
I guess destiny wanted to play.
So I whispered as I blew
Freeing hope from this reality
“Darling, go
And find my love”

I don’t want
To wait until I love
Myself.
I want to love
Myself
So much
I care.

“Why would I
Even like her?”
You asked
Your voice ringing in my ears
Though your words were no more
Than letters on a screen.

**
In case you’re wondering
Your question is still floating
Aimlessly around my mind.
But I owe you
No apology
For being.
Unconventional,
Different,
Fire.
I owe you
No warmth,
Burn.

I wish I could stop
Searching for your ghost
When we both know
You’ve moved on
Realities away from us

My body
Is Ocean. Flowing
Back and forth,
Rocked steady by moonlight
Letting itself be pulled
By its current.

It is mass.
Holy
Bread and wine,
Land of mountains and valleys
Rising and falling of the  empires
We’ve lifted into existence.

It is the Air
Breathed
In and out. By life
Flying. We soar
Dandelion wishes and burning fires
Wind taking us everywhere
And nowhere.

My body
Is singing, dancing
Laughing, hurting
Falling, fighting
Loved, loving
It is, human.

It is all things,
And one thing,
But never, is it
Yours