"i can finally be happy " i thought
after letting you go
but now u haunt me in my dreams ,my thoughts
and most importantly in my memories

the only definition i know of love is "YOU"
how can i ever change it ??

All i wanted was time
All i needed were the words
U you never gave them
In the search of the other
Now all u left me with is the pain
But still all i can ever think of is u
Now it's just the thoughts of u
I am all left with ....
Now i wanna move on
But everytime i try
All i see is u everywhere
Now when all u see is her

why do u always look up when u are sad ?
at least the starts will look at the tears
that people failed to see

WHEN YOU LOST YOURSELF
WHERE DO YOU SEARCH FOR IT ???

where should i show this love that belongs to you
its no one else's but yours
but u don't want it
and i cant take it back

so how does it feel now?? they asked
i feel myself like
finally after eternity of tears

if i should go to the depths of the misery
then i would gladly do so with you

Apart from asking for "LOVE" from me
sometimes
give me some

what hurts me the most??
feelings , loneliness, breakup, expectations...nah
"HAPPINESS"  hurts the most

The unplanned life is kinda exciting and sad
i never thought i would make it past 18

How long should my sadness last?
When will it come to an end?
Will it ever stop? For a split second, I might feel happiness touching my heart, but then waves of grief washes over me.
Still, for what length of time should I cover the bridges of my eyes to hide the tears that are starting to well up?
Still, how long should I continue to act as I'm alive  though I'm dead?
when will the world realize that i was dead inside a long time ago...

Little did u know
How I was crying
While u were blaming me
for all the things u did
and all that we had to go through
but
Why couldn't you realise
how you were killing me
piece by piece?
word by word?
action by action?
day by  day?
hour by hour?
minute by minute?
till every last butterfly perished and
every last leaf withered to the dust...

the tears that are rolling down my cheek
and dying at my lips
hold the hot and solitary love
i have for you in my heart

" I AM IMMORTAL
BUT U KILLED ME "

is it really over ?
it shouldn't hurt so much
but why does it hurt this much
do you still remember it all to well
does it hurt you the way it does to me?

Right now,
I am staring at a wall
Because no tears are coming out
I'm just waiting for my heart to
Be whole in one piece again
than to be in billion scattered pieces

when i think of life
i think of you
all the things u do
all times when you call me pretty
the look u give me
when u can't hide Ur love
all the times u said u were there
all the times u asked me to love you
all those smiles u hide
all the blushes I see
the happiness on your face
all the nights u stay awake for me
all the dreams you have of me
all these remind me of life

WITH THE WORD "LOVE"
YOU KILLED ME INSIDE

should I finally agree the fact that I lost you!!
even though u were never mine from the start

Can love exist without expectation?
Indeed,  you aren't expecting them to bring the water
yet you will die of thirst.

Why was the world created
without the freedom of love?

FORGIVING IS WHEN U CAN’T LET THEM GOO
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD A DAUGHTER BE TOWARDS HER FATHER
HOW FORGIVING SHOULD AMOTHER TOWARDS HER CHILDERN
HOW FOR GIVING SHOULD A WIFE BE TOWARDS HER HUSBAND

how can i say this
if u want u can stay if u don't want then leave
but i do hope u stay!!

can love be really bittersweet ??
caz all i saw was bitter side of it...
what happened to the sweet side.

so many words but still not enough
to tell you that
how much it huts to be like this
how much it hurts to let  everything go
how much it hurts to forgive u
u just make me a mute
and the words die at the back of my throat
those form a lump inside
that I try hard to digest to breath again

YOU MAKE ME FEEL ALL THE
"BUTTERFLIES"
BUT SUDDENLY YOU WILL **** THEM ALL

will it hurt always ??
even though i let go of them !!

i wish i can disappear
sometimes .... too often.....
i really wish that

"IM TIRED " & " IVE TRIED"
how can i explain these two words
to them
how can i make them understand

"what should I do with this lonely life
all that left are tears
all I lost are smiles "

I finally realised that I could breathe,
but while I was drowning,
I realised that you would eventually run out of it.

all the paths in the world
but i choose the painful one for u

I want someone to love me in the same way
that James Arthur wrote "Say You Won't Let Go."
and all of his other songs

Hey Love .......
Please make me stay
I want to stay
For you, for me, for us
You always tell me to stay
But your actions say otherwise
I really want to stay
But I can't stay where
I am left all alone
When both of us should be there
BYE  LOVE.......

do others always define of who i am??

" why can't I breath
even though there is air
why do feel suffocated
even though I am free"

"mujhe nahin lagata ki main
aakhiree saans tak jinda rah paoonga,
tumhaare bina unaka kya kaam hai "
I don't think i can live till my last breath ,
what are those without you

you know what ...
nobody wants the ugly side
everybody want the sunshine and rainbows
but what about the thunders & lightings

WHY DO I ALWAYS FEEL THIS EMPTINESS INSIDE ME
EVEN TOUGH I MADE SURE I AM FULL FOR THE OTHERS

how can i feel the care ..
when i am the one who always cares
and
should always be the one that cares

i know i have to let you go...
but
if i know i have to let you go this early
then i would have never held your hand at all

why do i always get hurt ??
cause u expect the same effort from them
and they don't do that

why do people doesn't care of others
like how do we tell them that it hurts
no matter how many tears go through the eyes
the pain just never fades
how do we tell this to the people

You were busy painting our love black
While I was trying for it to be colourful

in a world where there is need to cry
also the need to hide the tears...

i longed  for you
i still dooooooooooooo....
i always will

wish my mouth can say
the words i love you
like my eyes do...

you are my poisoned ivy
and you are my four clover leaf

i think i would and will always care for you