Who knew how much
The heart would ache
For every day
That you are away

God only knows
The mess I've become
Without you
How can I carry on

Things are harder
Without your wisdom or guidance
And I feel so blind
Lost in hateful darkness

I'm not okay.
I'm not going to recover.
I know you expect me to just snap out of it.
But I'm only human.

I'm okay not being okay.
I'm okay being sad.
Yes I'm fine with shedding tears.
I need to get this out.

It's not okay to hide it.
It's not okay to let it go.
It's not okay to bottle it up.
It's not okay to keep pushing me when I say no.
It's not okay to demand things of me. When I have so little energy.

I beg of you please, listen to me. I'm going to be okay, I know.

Send me to sleep please
I can't bear this constant grief
Send me to the world
Of a dreamless dream
Where nothing is real
And I'm floating on nothing

Do not let me go through
Another waking day
Because I can't bear this
I can't bear the constant pain

Can I live in my memories
Where your smile will stay with me
And I'll never have to face another day
Alone

There is a weight on your soul
Only just held up by your tired bones

Your sagging shoulders falling with pain
Whilst your eyes are lost in a world away

Struggling to hold the world with your feet
There is no rest for those who can't let it be

It's not fair.

You were the best thing.
That ever happened to me.

You believed in me.
Like nobody else.
You supported me.
Like nobody else.
You loved me.
Like nobody else.

You were the best person I knew.
That I'll never get to see again.

It's not fair.