DIARY OF A REBEL OUTLAW.


Today our world has been taken by the worst of humanity,
Infected by an incurable insentient of lusting man,
Those of us left are on the run of nonconformity,
hunted down to worship the material plan,
The infected are reduced to sleepwalkers with nightmares of ruin,
Puppets for the faceless that can crush worlds in the palm of their hand,
This threat destroys more than the free thinking human being,
This threat decimates the hope of our children’s children’s homeland,
My god if there is hope, hope there is god,
Hope he comes to where we stand,
Hope she leads us back from the edge of obliteration,
Hope he cuts the chains that bind our ****** hands,
Hope she drives us forward to the gates of revolution.
Hope he forgives our crimes against fellow man.

I am Jimmy.

PRECIPICE.

It was one minute past twelve when the first was fired,
By five minutes past twelve thousands had reached our atmosphere,
An apocolypse by our own hand that evil inspired,
Eight minutes past twelve cries from 9 billion frozen by fear,
What do we do as a race when at the precipice of extinction,
What power do those in power have at the end of human kind,
In less than one minute our world will be struck by our own mass destruction,
We are now all just brothers and sisters as the clock strikes nine,
though it was only in this moment we understood all, all the bad and all the wrong,
All the wars, all the killing and all the ignorence,
The world we saught to destroy held our unity all along,
The human race was now one of human benevolence,

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Two hundred thousand years upon our world and it was at our last sixty seconds,
That we had known peace, we had known the heavens.

I am Jimmy.

PUBLIC NOTICE.

Warning the following is no longer acceptable in public areas.
Penalties will apply.

- No real individualism
- No individual beliefs
- No attempted collectivism
- No collected beliefs
- No obvious differences
- No global togetherness
- No personal preferences
- No educated mindfullness

Warning the following is now on the rise due to the above bans.
Devastation may occur.

- More terrorism
- More acts of terror
- More racialism
- More acts of horror
- More cold ******
- More acts of revenge
- More public disorder
- More lives will end

I am Jimmy.

HUMAN CONDITIONS

To the entire planet and all its occupants,
We have had some complaints by other inhabitants,
It seems one particular race is causing the disturbance,
Ignoring quiet enjoyment of all other existence,
We would kindly like to remind all of earth’s residents,
That no single species owns more power or precedence,
So please carefully read over the below,
Any questions please dont hesitate to let us know,

1. No race will devastate entire ecosystems for capital gain.
2. No race will mass ****** for mass power.
3. No race will rage wars or cause deliberate pain.
4. No race will mass slaughter and mass devour.
5. No race will pollute with stolen materials from precious terrain.
6. No race but the human race will be entirely to blame.

We thank all occupants for their cooperation,
And we kindly remind all that there will soon be a routine inspection.

Kind Regards,
I am Jimmy.

QUESTION.

Poverty!
Do you think that this should be a global urgency?
Selfworth as Commodity!
Do you think that this should be a human priority?
Try telling one billion children living in extreme poverty,
And the twenty two thousand that die each day that their not a priority,
Tell them we have more important matters to adhere,
That our top ten banking bosses earn an excess of two hundred million a year,
So what about our eight hundred and fity million that don’t have access to clean water,
Tell them they dont really have a voice and dont really matter,
Clean is not fourteen billion pounds of waste dumped this year into the sea,
Clean is not two hundred million gallons of crued oil lost into our oceans by BP.

I am Jimmy.

For choosing a noble path with a devotion to an honest heart,
We earn it.

For daring to believe in ourselves with awesome courage to trust in our spiritual selves,
We are gifted it.

For bravely removing the iron masks and letting go of all pain from the past,
We deserve it.

For only being the one beautiful you, and joyfully accepting the colourful lives around you,
Throughout the world we can share it.

I am Love.
I am Jimmy.

And now the heavens have opened with a wonderous explosion,
The universe has awoken and I felt it crash into me.
A tremendous force of dangerously raw emotion,
The culmination of all things, the entirities of entirety.

To seek common needs no more and for more and more I have no need,
My eyes are firmly shut to selfish reprise, and from the conditions of meaningless deeds for senseless greed I am freed.

No more fake.

I’m awake!


I am Jimmy.

So innocently and beautifully created,
Though a life’s entirety can be utterly spent in search, imperfectly patient and imperfectly sated.

For that love you can be immortalised with,
Even unchanged by jealous Time, that weaves itself between hearts and minds, with nothing to take but only to give,
Though is it true lovers souls can forever live...

Life can be without and ones own life without in turn,
But life is no life at all without gentle fire that can be held with no burn,
A passionate fire that all mortal hearts deservedly yearn.

Love is truly more complex than mortality will ever know,
Seemingly with power to transcend our hearts and souls so much so,
That we can continue to be, long after our spiritual self is freed.

It’s easy to think we are so much in love today, and even more so tomorrow,
Though frightful to think that this Love may turn to sorrow.

Inevitably we may need to let go, we cannot keep what is merely borrowed.

I am Jimmy.

Be wrong, Be right,
But don’t be Boring.

Be day, Be night,
But don’t be Boring.

Be fight, Be flight,
But don’t be Boring.

Be now, Be later,
But don’t be Boring.

Be lover, Be hater,
But don’t be Boring.

Be CEO Be WAITER,
But Don’t be Boring.

Be you, all the way through,
From today and toward,
And my Son, you will never be Bored.

Life deserves YOU!

I am Jimmy

Her forever loving arms held onto me so tightly,
With her tear soaked cheeks pressed to my slowly aching chest.
“mum”
I whispered it so lightly,
Though only our heartbreak could hear the rest.

“Everything will be okay” I agonisingly reasurred,
She raised her head to meet my pretend smile, of which I cannot forget.
Her eyes so red and raw, from the unbearable pain they had endured.
Desperately soaking in the last of me to later recollect.

Falling back into me once again, I held onto her ruinous world even stronger.
I devotedly kissed her head as she wept, just as she did when I was younger.

Dad can you please take her, the pain is all too much.
Dad can you please remind her, that I love her so very much.

Your sea of strength caused fierce waves in my heart.
Your unconditional love gave my life the best possible start.

Because of you
I am Jimmy.

You were in my dream last night.

I was quietly sat on a small blue moon enviously gazing at the faraway stars.
When you softly whispered in my ear let’s capture some and put them into little silver jars.

I said, sure why not.
And across the perfect night sky we both flew.
You held the star catcher and I held the jars, and together our precious collection grew.

One by one the brightest of the light faded and the darkest of the night set in,
We were truly happy for a moment, but that was shaded when the utter darkness crawled over our colourless skin.

I said this is wrong.
You said it was my doing.
I said I’m sorry I ever came along.
You said that the stars and I are not worth pursuing.

Then I was suddenly and frightfully alone, with stark emptiness all around.
I screamed your name in all directions, but nothingness has no sound.

I pressed my trembling knees to my cold pounding chest,
wrapping my hopeless arms around the rest and wishing you’d never left.

Now I have nothing.
Just all these stars in these little stupid silver jars,
and reopened wounds that should’ve stayed as scars.

I am Jimmy

We have made an immense mess of things,
So tomorrow has been cancelled for all.
That means no more of anything,
No more of anything at all.

No more forests to quietly deforestate,
No more oceans to blindly pollute,
No more wildlife to wildly devastate,
No more fellow humans of inconvenient destitute,
No more producing at unsustainable mass,
No more businessmen or master plan,
No more trash and toxic gass,
No more greedy ignorant man.

Though there is hope for the hopeful yet, that tomorrow maybe reinstated.
But for that to be true, it would take me and you, and a world of the educated.

I am Jimmy.

My eyes open and my chest ignites like a roaring flame.
The Sun scorches my face and my soul screams out her name.

Today! Oh what a day!
My world is ablaze, never has my heart glowed this red and this way.

I have awoken at last from my frigid death,
Life becomes me as does heated breath.

Her sweet scent grips my senses, as her soft touch thaws my skin.
Her innocent eyes tell me otherwise,
and with inviting lips she whispers pleasure without sin.

My blood runs seething hot,
My sweat cascades like fire rain.
Forgiveness I seek you not,
This fire cannot be tamed.

My soul screams out her name.

I am Jimmy.

Farewell good day,
Into thy cold night I must go.
Though my heart aches for thee to stay,
My worlds end is all but at embers glow.

Good day! You leave me with such haste,
Why leave me at all?
Perhaps thou can stay and waste,
A little more time, and make mine the exception to thine rule.

Oh good day, I have only celebrated thy beauty on 15 occasions.
I am yet to know Love! Or lovers Temptations.

Forgive me good day, I do not mean to despair.
I shall trust in thy eternity, my short life I surrender to thy care.

Thank you good day, ‘twas good indeed.
Good night to thee good day,
Thou now sleep and unto thee my soul is freed.

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The good day can be all too short for the young,
The cruel night cometh too early for some.

I am Jimmy.

I’m not too sure how I really got here?
I just know my feet really hurt!

Like a thousand knifes all over my body, the cold cuts through me and my shirt.

I understand the disdain of Homelessness, trust me Brother, I do.
But my feet still hurt me my Sister, If only you could walk a day in my shoes.

But you cannot, because I have none, not a lace to my name.
The days are long, but the nights are longer still,
Though the cold is all the same.

My hands reach out in defiance, reliance in silence they cry!
Please Help Me! Please Help Me! my Father,
Please Help Me! Passerby.

She may not know the depth of my feelings, how could she, I have not spoken of it.

Words unspoken have no real meaning,
SPEAK UP BOY, SPEAK UP A BIT!

Yes you asked her to be your wife but so what of it!
Every moment is our only life, so we must make the most of it!

You know when you smile she smiles right back, so ****** smile more!
You know a kiss means so much to her, so what are you waiting for!

I guess I just want to see you both so happy,
considering you are me.
We never want to take her for granted ma’lad, because with her true love I see.

Now I have been waiting here for far too long for us to go mess it up,
I know you love her too my boy, so let’s take the bar and raise it up!

Now I’ll be right here for you to answer to, if you don’t give her our very best,
Because I am our best, that she brings out, and love is our special guest.

By Jimmy

Why Does Nothing Last?

A joyful youth that flickered for a moment, then vanished to the past.
Why does nothing last?

A truest love that burned so bright but burned too fast.
Why does nothing last?

A crossroad too many, the choices are too plenty, each direction too vast.
Why does nothing last?

A glimpse into ones self, A once familiar land now darkened, An ancient spell was cast.
Why does nothing last?

Memories I delve deep for, pictures with a broken frame.

Forgive me present moment, as I ask this whilst still sane.

Do forgive me present moment, press pause and pause the pain.

I fear I have lost myself, all but to the past.
I fear I have lost love as well,

Why does nothing last?

By Jimmy

I betray today for the promise of tomorrow.

Not to understand the now! whether love, anger or sorrow.

I know better, but better does not seem to know me.
I cannot hear, move or truly see.

Its him, its them, I blame and I surely condemn.
I look within and ask why, what, when?

Push and Pull, its screams Resistance!
But STOP!...
I AM the architecture of my own existence.

Is it not mine to take? is life not what I make?

Disable the Automatic, i'll take a seat and watch the traffic.

I choose to be free from all that pretends to be!

I DO know better, and better will just have to get to know me!

By Jimmy

Through this life and the next, I know I will love you.

My heart beats true, my soul sings through, I know I will love you.

My eternal will seek you from the deep or the distant.
Through the ages, the turn of worlds pages, my search for you shall remain forever persistent.

Though our names have changed and our vessels altered,
I will know you, you will know me, trust our eyes will never have faltered.

Through this life and the next I will remain at peace to this track,
I know I will love you forever and back.
For my darling Nat.

By Jimmy

Though through the windows of my world I can only stand and admire.
My soul travels with you, filled with hope and desire.

Waves now break and so do chains, PULL PULL PULL on those Reins!
Nothing can stop the sea as nothing can stop me.

For I'm now beyond the reaches of The,
Where sea and sky beseech me. 

I sense the courage of my heart has now been set free, to be whomever I wish to be.

With my Soul now at full mast I begin my journey back.
With new understanding and purpose, with meaning, with attack!

Returning to my former vessel, a trusted entity.
With a crash of a wave!
There's singularity of clarity.

Though through the windows of my world I can only stand and admire.
My soul did travel with you and my soul returned to inspire!

And now, not all is as once seemed, thought the old Sea as the young man dreamed.

By Jimmy

Choice my old friend! Why do you patiently wait?
Move on! wait not at my gate for the decisions I cannot make.

Choice! Why do you bother me so,
I wish not to be burdened by indecision, Now GO!

Eternal Choice! so persistent though distant are you, how long can you possibly wait?
Move on! Move on! Ask not of my fate.

Choice! whether your friend or foe, please understand you know not what I know!
The world in which I live, or the morals in which I grow.

Poor choice! your as cursed as I!
Your simply destined to blindly follow.
With no questions or reason why,
You lead to happiness as often as sorrow.

In a world of silent treatment, this is my greatest power you say...
To overthrow the ignorance and cowardice,
How? in which way?

Choice! My old very unwelcomed friend! You still patiently wait,
What is it you see in me? What is it you wish to awake?

I am Jimmy