Honey drips from my mouth,
an endless cascade of gold
sickly sweet and clingy viscous,
gluing my lips together in a
delicious wall of sugary words

and silence.

Pry it free from sticky amber,
let the bitterness flow instead
like angry bees exiting their hive.
Stingers made not of poison nor
vicious intent meant to harm,

but of brutal honesty.

i’m just a confused little girl
who has never been in love
who has never known how
to care for others but myself

but here i am, phone in hand
staring at my screen like
all the answers are there
waiting for your reply

the wait can seem long, foolish
but every response sends a thrill -
an electric shock to my heart
sends warmth through my bones

and thinking of you brightens my
seemingly pointless day with your
too small smile and knowing gaze
your excitable energy and quiet voice

is this love? or am i just a fool?
a fool who has fallen completely for
your unattainable thoughts and
your hidden scars and pains

i’m not sure anymore honestly
i’m the confused little girl after all
who has never been in love
but has always wanted to give it a try

so why not try now?

honey eyes and saccharine smiles --
flecked with secrets i'll never know
creased with laughter from long ago --
they greet me every morning
and turn my bones into glittering stardust
alive with the need to explore those
freckled constellations and
luring me into sweet temptation
to wander into the galaxy inside that
beautiful mind

a dance for two
just me and you
back and forth
back and forth
between bodies

singing along
to the same song
music flows
music flows
between hearts

a sweet melody
sets us free
out of time
out of time
between souls

a real connection
of pure affection
between bodies
between hearts
between souls
between us

i've never been good with crushes
never been good with
not getting attached to those i like

because when i fall for someone i leap
into a bottomless pit of
happiness and sadness entertwined

and when those feelings aren't returned
then where does this,
this useless crush, leave me? nowhere.

i am left with nothing to catch me
as i free fall into pain
a pain i hoped would never happen, but

i knew what was coming when i lept
i knew the risk i took
but still, it just hurts so **** much

because i've fallen for you
and i don't know how to stop
so i keep fallin' til i reach the end

looking into her brown eyes, i am reminded

of the hot chocolate i drink during those

chilly days, as winds whip around me in a

maelstrom of biting cold; her warmth flows

through my body, dethawing the frozen

heart i've kept covered in ice for so long

soft brown hair falls down her back as she
swings; back and forth, back and forth.
the metal chain creaks beneath her weight
higher and higher she flies above me,
while i can only watch in amazement.
she laughs, tells me to stop staring and start
swinging too, but I can only see her;
her and the sun that shines bright behind her
illuminating her figure in the sky like a bird:
beautiful and luminescent, gliding on clouds
humming sweetly and soaring freely
and even as i lay here, eyes closed and heart
slow, i can still see her silhouette flying,
pink lips grinning wide, ochre eyes twinkling
and for a little while i let myself grin too