Watch me cry
Up to the sky
My wails drowned
Out by the clouded
Merciless heavens.

Unto the wind
Though I've sinned
Hear my bawl
Answer my call

And still I sigh
Lost in the sky
The moon hung high
While I cry
"Die."

Some people are lost
And wish only to be found
But what is the cost
Of wandering around?

I prefer to be senseless
Without a direction
Moving through countless
Ways of deception

Truly, being found, is not what it seems
It's people describing you, driving to screams
I'd wander the oceans, rivers, and streams
Rather than stand in the assigned spot for me

Watch out so carefully and so closely listen
See how the blood pours see how it glistens
I may look perfect I may appear smart
Never can you see the pain held in my heart

Listen Listen
Watch how it glistens
Never let hope in
You'll find it missin'

Every step I take I fall down more
Leaves my skin looking so fully torn

Take It Take It
I just can't take it
Maybe if I'm careful I can manage to fake it

Hide the pain behind every smile
Never let them know how you can feel

Watch as I draw out the knife from the kitchen
Pay close attention see if anyone can listen
Allow it to flow and let it's beauty glisten
Wonder if they'll ever know that I am missin'

Never know how much I am hurtin'
Can you still think that I am perfect?

People in pain over love that's been lost
Crying and sighing because of high cost
And when I see this I can't help but think
How lucky am I to have never formed a link

I've not felt of passion stinging the blood
I've never known ecstasy streaming in flood
Though too young may I be to have met love
If ever I met them I'd respond with a shove

Not better to have loved and lost is what I find
Whilst it leaves you too often in shatters behind
So I'll continue my way without such a grace
Because I have heard how it ends in disgrace

I have no dependency on love's cruel infection
I would rather I choose mine own direction
So I'll never have to be so weakly dependent
And I won't have to wallow in fatal repentant

Love will never be right for me in this world
I'd rather stay hidden with soul deeply curled
So no I don't understand the pain of your heart
And I never will or else it would tear me apart

Tied me down
To the ground
Took what you wanted
Called me a **** and

You slapped me
You beat me
You hated me
You ***** me

Then left me alone
Because, as I know
Once you were done
I was no one

Now you come looking back
With the same feeling slap
Your troubles in life
Don't excuse giving me strife

It's over you freak
Just leave me be
This time I won't defend
Your *** you ****-head

Leave me the **** alone
Or the past will be shone
I'll send you to jail
And trust me, you'll fail
Even if you're a 'kid'
From you I'll be rid
You're still older than me
So who will courts believe?

You better get out
Take this with no doubt
You'd better believe
So stop ******* with me

Please

You'll never be my parent
You'll never even be my friend
All I can do is question
As I beg for it to end

Your fists continue flying
And another part of me is dying
You're not the first one
To leave my begging, pleading, crying

You think you are the first?
You think you'll be the last?
To leave me with this body's hurts?
To stab me in the back?

I've seen a dozen like you
And I'll see a dozen more
When this system's done you'll see
I'll still be laying on the floor

I know how to cover bruises
How to hide the nasty scars
As everyone simply refuses
To take my case so **** far

Well maybe you haven't noticed yet
How angry I can get
Because one day my seething anger
Will be your big regret

So beat me to the ground
Where the light is never found
And I promise one day you will see
The most vicious part inside of me

****** your fists in my shameful disgrace
Leave the blood splattered on my face
And I'll continue waiting
Begging, screaming, crying
Till one of these days I'm seeing
The last part of me is dying

My whole life I've been running
Running away from everything

I run through families
Like passing through doors
No one ever looking out for me
Keeping my heart beating is a chore

But the one time I might have stayed
And maybe I shouldn't have run
I simply wasn't willing to pay
If the love would never come

To this day I don't know
If I shouldn't have said goodbye
If just maybe somehow
"I love you" wasn't a lie

But I can't dwell on the matter
Or else I'll have to try and fight
It could have ended in disaster
How can I know if I was right?

I know that I ran away
And my mind goes back to that day
And the only thing I have to say
Is I'm sorry if it's not okay

I hope you can learn to love again some day
If I took all your love when I ran away

Sometimes we deny others' love because
We don't know if it's true
But we never stop to consider how
It could hurt the other person too

A calf without milk
Ripped from the womb
Mother's hair like silk
Lay stiff in the tomb

And father's embrace
To go up in flames
Our house to misplace
In a lion's main

My siblings so dear
Strung far apart
Lost and in fear
Rip out my heart

The system tells not
Of where we should go
It makes me burn hot
Through rain and in snow

Lost were the lambs
Without mother's kind face
Lost were us lambs
Without father's sturdy place

Scattered are we
My siblings and me
No place to go
Nothing to be

No one doth care
To remember mine name
No one doth care
Of from which I came

I come and I go
And as I grow
There are none who follow
As I stride in straight rows

Some may I like
And some may I hate
But always in psych
I know mine own fate
So weather I wish
Or weather I don't
I always do wisp
Away though I won't
Be remembered by any
In these places I go
For as I see many
None do I know