The Taste
The Desire
The Sexuality
    Am I amusing you?

The Craving
The Lusting
   Am I the woman you visualized?

Did you come to me
To fulfill your Foolish Trickeries,
your Fantasies,
To be performed before your eyes?

Did you ever think
That I'm going to be
exactly what you want me to be ---
   A Burning Heat
   A Soulless Lustful Treat

Tell me ---
    Does your heart really beat?

And if that heart reveals your truth
Like a mirror that reveals the truth
Will you ever wonder ---
Do you really have a heart?

I wished you came to see
My Truth,
My Purity,
That's here inside my heart

But it's just not what you seek from me..

                                                  - Ella Salvador

I desire you
Kiss me once, I want to know you
All they say and all they do
How I'd love to feel you

Gentle breeze
Infinite time
Hold my hand, please be mine
Touch my skin
I'll take you in
To be free is what I want to be

Free
Like the wind blowing
Free
Like a bird gracefully flying
Taking my time
Wherever I am
Whenever I can

                                    - Ella Salvador

Strolling along the walkway
Side by side you've been my way
Words unspoken, my eyes can say
With you tonight, with hope you stay

Lights flashed on a cold October night
Beautifully crafted,
our hands held tight
The gaps of your hand filled-in to mine
So far so close, it is intertwined

The sun shined, my heart cried
Morning has come,
the pretty lights gone
Yearning it to come back,
Wishing you to come back
My illusions to live, it must be willed

Strolled along the walkway
Alone, I've been my way
On a cold October night,
With you who was my star,
Now uniquely and undeniably my lost star..

                                                    - Ella Salvador

My sunshine after a stormy day.
My rainbow after a rainy day.
My mirror.
My best friend.

On my darkest day you never left,
you see me through when there's nothing left.

In a brink of loneliness,
you sparkled me with
joy and happiness.

You create a brighter day
on my deepest despair,
never forgetting a perfect
smile to wear.

Oh how I love those curly hair!
Bouncing and dancing
up and down in midnight air!

I could not catch a rainbow or
bring you the moon,
but I promise to be your best friend forever 'till noon.

We will be up talking from dusk to dawn,
this friendship will last
forever we will own.

I will walk with you side by side,
hold your hand with all my might.
In vain I will not leave,
count on it I'm yours to keep.

My dear Anne Christine,
best friend of mine.
Two as one and one define.
There may be times of falling out,
but our friendship will never obliterate nor root out.

As our hairs turn to Grey and
we grow old,
together we will be stronger
eightfold.

And when the time comes that our balanced ride in the waves of life is steadied by His hands,
we will wrap our memories in our hearts and keep them until we meet again above the heaven's sands.

We will welcome each other once again with our arms wide open,
locking in a tight embrace,
and that's when we'll know..

our friendship will be eternal..

                                                     ­            - Ella Salvador

I used to think that no one can ever love me until I met you

It was a sunny morning
Sunlight beaming and kissing my pale skin
I was deeply in love
Fallen head over heels
Moved mountains for you

A storm shattered my soul
It continued to hunt me
A ghost that was created by you-- who I truly trust
You caused me so much pain and yet I stayed

My love is greater than your flaws..
I said
I loved you unconditionally
I helped you change
Be better
Did everything and whatever I could
To save what's left of us

I never knew then
I was going downhill
Rock bottom
I was empty
Something has changed.. I realized
I cannot give anything now
I tried to control everything
Nothing is working--
                Nothing worked...
                                ...and so it ended

                                            - Ella Salvador

We found each other at the wrong time
From that moment
We knew exactly what we felt-- a fire ignites that we have to utterly resist
You are with her and I, with him
Who knew then?
That we will both have the same feelings that has been kept for so long

Fate paved a way
We were both in pain
We found ourselves lost
Alone..
The things that we planned for the rest of our lives vanished into thin air and became invisible

Then, we found each other..
Again..
We started something special
You took my pain away
You smiled and laughed with me
So innocent and sincere

For the longest time
We both know what we want
At last!
We can be more than what we had
More than friends
This time
We are both ready

But the odds are still against us
How unfortunate this is
We both have too much to fix
These too shall pass, we know
When? We don't know
And when it does?
Will we be together now?

We both know
We don't want to let each other go
We are both holding on
I won't let go
I won't let you go
I believe in possibilities

Know that I will think of you
I will pray and have faith
Everyday
Let's be strong
You made me feel special
What we have is one in a million
I cannot just throw it away

Everything you told me will be safe with me..
You are the one that I want to keep
Forever..
I think you are the best yet

You will always have me..
Come back and find me
You already found me. Twice.

You can always find your way back to me..

                                                    - Ella Salvador

When you look at me, I feel lost-- lost in the ocean of your big brown eyes. I am lost in a good way and I don't want to be found. When you stare at me, I always wondered why? I asked you why, but you never answered.

Those eyes of yours tells me that you love me. The same way I feel about you for a long time now.

When we locked eyes, my heart is the happiest. Each and every fiber of my being melts away. They tell me as if you never want me to go and I'd love to stare at them all day and all night.

Forever..

                                - Ella Salvador

Your kisses tasted sweet-- like candies on a one sunny morning that I crave compulsively. Your lips first touched mine and it took my breath away. It warmed me just like a blanket wrapped around my body while having the first cup of Green Tea or Long Black on a cold morning.

I keep on repeating that picture in my mind-- the burn, the sting, the heat and the left me wanting more feeling when you first kissed me. I knew I was in trouble from the moment I met you and I'd love to keep on meeting you over and over again.

                                  - Ella Salvador

When you talk, your voice brighten my days. You provide me comfort in all the little things that you do. Your deep and mellow voice sends a tingling feeling inside me that makes me want to keep you in my life.

I love talking to you every time, every day, every night and every minute if I could. You're someone just simply amazing.

                             - Ella Salvador

The first time we met was like seeing a fireworks exploding out on a deep dark night sky-- colorful, vibrant and gave me a feeling of ecstasy to my very core.

I can't have you and you can't have me.

We never spoke but I wanted you in silence. I've always wondered, what if I met you first? What if you met me first?

What If...

Would you ever love me the way you love her? Do you even want me the way I want you?
There's nothing I can do but to be discreet.

I will always want you...
I will always love you...

Silently..

                            - Ella Salvador