Lexi: Favorites

Nov 2017 Lexi

Iska

My dearest mother

do you see it?
that's the space put between us,
filled with unspoken words and heartache.

can you hear it?
that's the defining silence,
filled with quiet disappointment and shattered dreams,
because I'm not the girl you hoped I'd be...

#mom #sad #dissapointed #depression #daughter

Nov 2017 Lexi

Response

Nov 2017 Lexi

Iska

Response

unspoken words spill through the air,
dripping and falling both vile and fair.
unspoken love unspoken hate,
I see it all no need to blate.
In anger your vision clouds in reds,
when cold clarity smears my vision instead.
In sadness you worry and weep in pain,
wondering if perhaps I'm just not the same.
But sorrows, I have no time to attend,
all I can do is assure your still my friend.
In happiness you claim, I'm the best friend you've had,
when in reality I'm wondering, if you've gone quite mad. :)
I see it all, both old and new..
from the silent worry to
the unspoken "I love you"s
to this I say no need to fret
for you I can not abandon yet.
and as to the love, you keep silent in fear,
you know that I cannot help you here...
I belong to another, yet i still hold you dear,
and know, that as a friend, I shall always be here.

for the eyes of one man alone to hold
for to him this poem is carved from gold.

#unrequited #love #taken #friends #forever #fear #happy #sad #anger

Nov 2017 Lexi

And so it goes.

Nov 2017 Lexi

Dara Slick

And so it goes.

I am here, in silence,
I am there, alone.
There is no company in between time frames.
Loneliness creates its own memories,
and all are dark and injected with painful aesthetic.

Emotion will do as it pleases, and very few feel how deep it goes.
And so it goes,
I sit here,
My mind is there,
and the thought is the same no matter where I sit.
Sad and lonely,
Alone and okay.
There is no explanation for this, just experience,
And even this is no true explanation for a feeling so comforting and sad.

It just is.

melancholy days await me

Nov 2017 Lexi

Stranger lovers

Nov 2017 Lexi

Dara Slick

Stranger lovers

We do not know each other,
you beautiful viewer.
You read my words and I read yours,
here you are.
You and I,
sharing intimacy over this poem.

I hope my words caress your heart,
your day,
your soul.
Take them in any way you wish,
romantically,
sensually,
friendly,
parentally,
hopefully,
any way that floats your boat.

I want you to smile,
and tear up.
Feel my words wrap around you like a hug,
you beautiful stranger.

I love that we have this,
this time and space,
so intimate.

I love you,
stranger.

I love when people read my poetry, and you deserve the best.
Send me comments, and conversational messages.
I'd love to know you.

#thank #you #love #strangers #help

Nov 2017 Lexi

Forgivness

Nov 2017 Lexi

Ni

Forgivness

You tell me you're sorry,
that you apologize
that I have to know those
rumors were lies
I take one look into your eyes
and all of the pain
that I was feeling dies
people ask why
I forgive so easily
I say, it's because
I hate goodbyes.

#goodbye #pain #love #sorry

Nov 2017 Lexi

Fragile

Nov 2017 Lexi

Chase Alexander

Fragile

Fragile rose and crystal clear.
Falling through my atmosphere.
Falling hard and falling fast.
Looking through my looking glass.

Fragile rose and crystal clear.
Find a way to disappear.
Falling hard and falling fast.
Running away from my past.

Baby, I know that you are here.
I can't explain it to you my dear.
They cut you open
and I watched you bleed.
Now I fall down to my knees.

I watched you bleed.
I watched you bleed
As I fell down to my knees.
I watched you bleed my fragile rose.

I thought I asked you not to cry.
You're acting as if I just died.
I had my reasons to let you go.
Knocked you over
with a stubborn blow.

Pushed you down into your grave.
All I do is misbehave.
Talk g with me all the shame.
Playing my childish games.

I watched you bleed.
I watched you bleed
As I fell down to my knees.
I watched you bleed my fragile rose.

#depression #death #misery #crying #love #broken #fragile #shame #roses #romance

Nov 2017 Lexi

Broken

Nov 2017 Lexi

Chase Alexander

Broken

Im the type of boy
who can be do **** down.
You all see this smile,
But I just see a frown.
If you look right at me,
Look into my eyes.
Do you see depression
and all my sacrifice?

Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
Can you make me happy?
Can you make me feel alive?
Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
I always try to hide it.
Tell me can you find it?

I wanna go.
I want to just break down.
Turn off the lights
and watch me cry.
All you see is me
fighting to believe.
I try to make it look like
I'm as happy as can be.

Tears run down my face
and you come to me.
Try to stop the tears.
All you want is to make me feel happy.
And the feeling of you here with me
makes me happy for a moment,
but I'm back once you leave.

Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
Can you make me happy?
Can you make me feel alive?
Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
I always try to hide it.
Tell me can you find it?

I feel like it's ending.
I'm in so much pain.
Every night I lie awake
screaming out your name.
Will you come and find Me?
Make me feel alright.
Come to me and hold me.
Hold me oh so tight.

Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
Can you make me happy?
Can you make me feel alive?
Cuz I am broken and I'm dead inside.
I always try to hide it.
Tell me can you find it?

#depression #misery #crying #lonely #broken #life #death #pain #breakdown #feeling

Nov 2017 Lexi

Undeserved Apology

Nov 2017 Lexi

Ni

Undeserved Apology

You
were the one
who tore my heart
out of this delicate chest
of mine and squeezed it tight,
you
were the one
who lied to me
without guilt,
spat lies from
those soft lips,
yet
I
was the one who apologized.

#hurt #pain #love #sorry

Nov 2017 Lexi

Seeing Something Beautiful

Nov 2017 Lexi

Ni

Seeing Something Beautiful

you used to tell me
to look up at the stars
that it will fill
my heart with joy,
that it is so beautiful,
while you were looking up
smiling at those stars,
i couldn't seem
to keep my eyes
off of you.

#beautiful #stars #love #heart #joy #you

Nov 2017 Lexi

Scared

Nov 2017 Lexi

Bella

Scared

Hold my hand
sit near me
let me sink into your lap
just please don't leave me alone with my thoughts
or lack thereof

You see,
if you leave.
my head will not scatter into a million deadly shards
it will do quite the opposite
it will collapse

whatever you do, don't leave me,
not now.
you see if you leave
I lose my sanity
I lose my restraint

the second you turn your head and walk out that door
my eyes will well
my heart will lose its rhythm
My hands will shake
and my breath won't be able to claw its way up my throat anymore.

You don't have to say anything
you don't have to do anything
just please don't leave
I'm scared of what happens when you leave --
please don't leave...

#please #breakdown #dontleave #collapse #scared