We stood on the edge,
"One, two, three, we jump," I said.
I jumped. You didn't.

Don't be upset when love leaves.
Just simply hold the door open,

Look them in the eye,
Smile and say:

"Thank you for stopping by."

Is it strange that I find more comfort in the dark,
Than I do in the light?

Is it strange that I feel more at peace in the dark,
Than I do in the light?

Is it strange that I feel whole in the dark,
But not in the light?

Is it strange that I have found love in the dark,
And love has somehow, miraculously, found me?

the ones who wrap themselves up in a blanket, drink hot cocoa and watch Netflix during a storm. And the ones who dance in the rain.

I want to be the one who starts a fire in the rain.

Always getting the short end of the stick.

I wish I could say that the sun stopped rising.
I wish I could say that the moon stopped shining,
And the stars collapsed one by one.

I wish I could say the ocean and the rivers ran dry,
And the mountains fell to the ground.
I wish I could say the sky lost it's blue and turned into blood red,
And all of humanity fell to it's knees.

I wish I could simply say: "The world ended,"
But it didn't.

The day you left,
Everyone was still alive,
And went about their daily lives.  
The sky was still the same baby blue color in the morning,
And the mountains still stood strong.

The oceans and the rivers still flowed with water,
And the stars painted the night sky.
The moon still shined with pride,
And the sun rose again.

The sun rose again,
And so will I.

I strummed your heart strings the way I played a guitar.

But I didn't know how to play a guitar,

And I never did know how to make beautiful things.

I am more interested in your demons at 2am,
Than I am of the person you pretend to be at 2pm.

Swallow me whole,
and let me dissolve into your bloodstream.
Let me flow into your brain,
and the rest of your body.

Your pupils will dilate,
your pores will open
at the realization that I am inside of you,
and I am taking over.

Swallow me whole,
and I will show you that I am not a temporary fix.
Just swallow me whole,
and I will show you what real happiness is.

And I will rise again.

I will never forget the moment you tore my heart into a million pieces.
And the way it felt to have the whole world crumbling down on me.

I will never forget the way the waves pulled me under,
And kept me under.

I drowned myself,
While you just watched.

Dance with me

As I set our hearts on fire

I just want someone to hurt for me.

The words used to flow so effortlessly.

But now it's like the water ran dry.

Maybe when you left, you took my words with you.

Why waste my words on the dead?

Why construct and string together beautiful lines for the ones who brought me pain?

If you didn't want it then,
Why would you want it now?

I was
and always will be
just another
face in the crowd.

You're too good for me.

What is the point of love
When all it does is leave.

Don't forget to dream a little.

Our bodies,
And our souls were tangled.

I traced the outline of your fingers,
and I forgot about every single hand that had broke my heart.  

I tasted your lips for the first time,
and I forgot about every single goodbye that was ever said to me.

I looked into your eyes,
and I seen the next sixty years of my life.

Kiss the stars on her arms,
And you'll understand why
The sun is millions of miles away.

People fear losing friendships.

I fear missing the opportunity to tell someone that they are *loved.

My eyes is like the ocean.
Swimming inside are the words I wish I could say to you.
I wish you could just take a chance,
And jump in

I miss the way our voices tore away at the silence around us.

I looked into your eyes
and I seen the next
sixty years of my life.

out of nowhere,
came down from his throne in heaven,
and found me in the upper room.
in the midst of the storm,
in the midst of the chaos
he slipped through the walls surrounding my heart,
and whispered,
"I love you so much.
I love you so much.
I love you so much."

You ignited a fire
within the marrows of my bones,
and burnt away the lies
that were latched onto my soul.
You threw me into the furnace,
and melted away the chains
that were dragging my heart under.

You turned me into gold.
You made me pure.
You made me whole.
You made me new.

Tell her.
Tell her that the way her voice sounds makes your bones tremble.
And the way your name sounds when it rolls off of her tongue is indescribable.
Tell her that if she were to remove your brain from your head, all she'd find is her fingerprints.
Tell her that written along the walls of your heart is her name.
And that this secret that has been locked away in the marrow of your bones cannot be contained any longer.
So go.
Tell her.
Love is not a whisper.
It is not a thought that cowards in the back of your mind when she is near,
And comes back when she leaves.
Love is standing on the top of a building and screaming until your throat bleeds.
Love is igniting a fire that cannot be contained nor put out.
Go to her.
Tell her.

but the more I write,
the more I remember.

The crown of creation.
The Master's finishing touch.
She is the crescendo.
The ascent and downfall of humanity.
She is God's final masterpiece,
And in one single moment brought all of creation to it's knees.

But she is the sun of The Son.
Reflecting off light into the darkest part of the night,
And into my life.
Her eyes hold more mystery than a thousand stars put together.
Weaved into the fibers of her soul is a puzzle waiting to be solved.  
And every word from her mouth forms another constellation,
And ignites a fire in the crevices of my soul.
She is Jesus in the flesh.
More precious than diamonds,
More powerful than an atomic bomb.
Just like the ocean,
She is untamable.

The hallways of my heart still whisper your name.
Tucked away inside the crevices of my soul,
Are the memories you and I made.
Buried away in the back of my mind,
Is your bones and a picture of the way you looked that night.

If they ask, "What is the best part of your life?"
I'll point at your tombstone and say,

We made love in the darkest hour of the night.  
With the moon and God as our witness,
The stars delivered our children:

when no one else didn't.

I loved you,
when no one else didn't know how to.

she was the moon,
I was the ocean.

she pulled,
I pushed.

she stayed silent,
as I raged on.

I gave you the power to control my emotions.
I let you into deeper places that not even God could touch.
I gave you the power to control my happiness
And even carved a spot into my brain just for you.
When you left,
I breathed life into the memories and moments we shared and kept replaying it
Over and over again.
I destroyed myself.
I destroyed myself.
I destroyed myself.

This rain is for the Winter.

God didn't know what to do with the sun,
so he placed it millions of miles away from the earth.
and maybe that's why he took you away from me.
to show you (and me) that you didn't need anyone else to help you shine.

Every night before I go to bed
I am a prisoner to my mind.
A slave to my thoughts.
The words in my head haunt me.
People are afraid of the monsters under their beds.
But I'm afraid of the ones in my head.

. . . That I want our story back.

Tell life that she can have her stars. . .
She can have the moon, the sun, and the ocean. . .
She can have all of it back.
I just want you.

I wouldn't have gave myself away
to people who didn't deserve it.
I would have waited
and saved it
for someone

I turned you into poetry.
my 3am thoughts.
you became my nightmare
and my everlasting joy.
I can never remove you from my mind
unless I remove you from my heart.

I am not ready to remove you from my life.
I am not ready to accept this unwanted truth.
I want you here in my life,
please
please
please just stay.
I'm going to miss you so much.
I'm going to miss you so much.

without you
isn't really what I had in mind.

looked at you,
I didn't just look, to look.
I really looked at you.
before I even had the chance to soak you in,
my eyes were already engraving every detail of your face
into the back of my mind.
so now, when I close my eyes,

an open book
with a lot of
missing pages.

when "I miss you"
isn't enough?