You can choose hate
You can choose love

You chose to die a martyr
You die with the enemy

In this day
And in this time

You can beat me down
You’ll never lay me down

The voices that echo
They travel from the past and into the future
Sometimes love is not enough

Against all the gods
They will burn this world to ashes

We will be together again
This world will be at peace

You chose hate- You are the enemy
You chose love- You are the martyr

Against all these odds
The truth will set us free

Just breathe
Against all odds

All the roses


Light the sage

Throw the linens across the bed

Say a prayer

You look good dead


All of the roses

Thrown away

All of the roses

That reminded me of the love

I once had for you

All the roses


Arranged around the heart 

They remind me that you 

Were my favorite piece of art

Pages stained with dust and old words

Showing our adoration 


All of the roses 

Light the sage

Bless your soul

Open the window

All of the roses

I’ll remember you…

Id fallen in love with a girl who had died.
fallen in love with a corpse bride.

An image, apparition, a fiend, and a lie.
A smile with fangs behind and stained glass eyes. A connection of the depths i wish I could hide.

Intimate reflections of infinite life,
Gone in an instant, remembered in time.
Immortalized in the wounds that i never could find.

In love with death and the devil in flight.
The details were gone where the fairy tails write, and whats left but a fight.
Why return to the exceptions i try.
Though still struggle i might to accept what I write

Ive fallen in love with
A treasure, a shrine, a hedonist pride. The pleasure of life, and weakness of mind.
Ive fallen in love with death, ive fallen in love with life,
Ive fallen so many times with deception and hell in my mind.

The interruption of entering high
Energy eruption destroying the signs.
I wish it was true, that wishing was worth the time.

But even if things had a reason, the seasons still change like the lights
In the sky and the tides.
Will the spirit reward all our risks with a ride. What you do with your will, will be fine. Just remember who gave you the time. What words can alarm the forlorn.

The award was a sword cut from ice. The current can keep me at peace, electricity. The currency foreign or at least, if I reign for a moment as king, would the kind still remember me. Or be cast aside as a cloud in the sky, overcast could the rain last for life. Thunder claps when the performance is right.

And if I die, on my corpse perform rites.
Ive fallen in love with a bride.
Ive fallen in love with a lie.
Ive fallen in love with a girl.
Who has been. Gone for as long as I.

Head in the trees feeling free
Head in the clouds where the spirits come out
In the canopy of leaves visualizing dreams.
the crescent moon peaks, looking out, at my feet.

the sun sets soon then comes back around.
Scars from a war left unfinished,
wounds on my arm from a battle, self inflicted.

In a room with no walls as I wished it.
Burn marks and questionable decisions.
Unwavering confidence I listened.
Makeshift options of forgiveness.

A love not meant to be....
I saw her and I fell for the beauty,
the beauty of her eyes, her hair.
her name, her entire body of
ever lasting pain she put into herself.

At first glance, I thought she was only in
my dreams, but searching through
the doors of reality, I found out
she was flesh and bone like every other
mortal I've come across during my existence.

She was the winged creature of Dark,
as I was the one of Light.
She was the beauty that haunted my
dreams for many years. My thoughts
are only of her, and the emotions I have for her.

The darkling she passed herself off as,
I saw through the mask, through the
flesh and bone, and my eyes beheld
a most divine creature that was
placed on this Earth. I saw the beauty
of the real girl that I fell in love with.

It was the innocence of her smile, and the hope
in her brown eyes, that keeps me from
going down into the depths of the perpetual
abyss of regret and hate.

Hidden under the azure cloak and
hooding hair of ebony, lies the
Raven, that I am forever and foremost cursed
into loving. A love not meant to be....

Another time
Another place
Just another pretty face
All these feelings come back to you.
Another word
Lost in disgrace
Is he someone you'd be proud of
Another smile
Another breakdown
All these feelings come back to you
Is he someone you'd be proud of

Another Life: Wick Part 3

You shown so brightly
The gods grew envious
Death fell in love with you

The darkest star
To ever shine

You were ready to just go home
In the dark
You screamed into the void

A voice full of hatred
You're time of fighting
Finally came to the bitter end

Your grave,
A monument,
A reminder
Of what is gone.

Turn back the time
Another life
Another love lost
To the darkness within

Into the dark
You were ready to go home..

A Part of Me

It's been 365 days since I've seen the shadows dance on your face

It's been hard to deal-deal with the betrayal
It's been hard to cope-cope with this never ending pain

Look to the mirror
I see your face

I look in your eyes still bright as diamonds..
I look in your eyes still see the burning star you were meant to be

It's been 365 days since I've seen the light aura dance around your body.
It's been 8760 hours since I've felt that part of me die.

As Above

In the moment of letting go
I can feel the light dying
Lingering whispers lie
Upon your dying lips

In the moment of letting go
The light in your eyes
Are growing dull
I know it's scary down below

Seeping into your casket
Prayers are dying
The sun is setting
Flesh begins to rot

The universe is unforgiving
In the moment of letting go
I can feel your heart

Sinking into HIS darkness
In your moment
You're saying goodbye

In this moment
I'm letting you go

So below

Ascension

The sun will rise
And in the darkest parts of my mind
They have no control at all
I’ve risen from the ashes, reborn
This misery has no say
Hatred has died from all of this hunger
I’ve made peace with these demons
Rising with the sun
I am claiming my throne
I am a new being
This is my ascension

Be With Me

Be with me
I don't want to be alone
Be with me
Please hear me

In this darkness
We hold our lights to the sky

Deep down
These stars shine bright
Deep down
Our words hold true

Be with me
Show the way
Be with me
This fear will never take ahold

The power of hate is strong
The power of love is stronger
I will never be alone

Be with me
I know you hear it
Be with me
You are never alone.

Black

Heart shatters, nothing matters.
Poet of lies- priest of nothing.
Prayers scream to the gods on high
Lightning strikes, it was the day laughter died.
Fall father, from the serpent's flower.
Lost souls spirit me away.
Unheard cries have left the dead paralyzed.
Trying to ignite the will of fire in their eyes
the dead will always sing the loudest.

There's a black church
On the darkest hillside

Will this make their thoughts divide?
Steal away flesh
Steal away bone

The rituals are our life
The rules are our own

Hear the groan from the devil we all know
Ashes from the flames dance gracefully

Like the fall from the 333
Bring it all back to us...

There's a black church
On the darkest hillside

Riding on his wings
We will never die.

Black Part 2: The Darkest Room

My whole life is one big dark room
Somehow I ended up dragging you down too
There's a hole in my head
That leads to the infection within

I tell you time and time again
I'm broken I'm no good
Just a washed up toy that's never in the mood.

Roses are red
Our love is turning blue
By the time this is over we will probably be through.

My whole life is one big dark room
I never wanted you to have all my gloom and doom.
They say come to the light
But my heart knows it's a lie
An addict for dramatics

Our dynamics aren't the same
In this unfair game.
My whole life is one big dark room

I ended up hurting you
And all I loved-I loved alone.

Black Part 3: Feeding the Dark

Not on your life
This world we built I won't give up this fight
This is what I get for embracing the dark

There was magic in the air
I'm holding on so very tight
This forest whispered our names
It won't let us lose to this game.

Not on your life
I know what's deep in my heart
I won't let you surrender to the dark

Drowning in this binding light
Can you feel our bones collide
Close your eyes
Can you feel our flames dancing together
Like they did in those golden days?

Not on your life
This love we have I wont give up the fight
In these monuments of my failings
You are the one good thing
I ever did right

Hand on my heart
I know we will go farther
Than what we did before

You're a part of me.

Black Part 4: The Grand Finale

A deep breath in
I close my eyes

She wraps her arms around me
"Heaven knows I'm miserable now"

I'm becoming a deep shade of jaded
Once my muse

I shouldn't be used to this abandonment
You said you'd love me until the world goes black.

Here we are
My world is black
And you're no where to be seen.

A deep breath in
I close my eyes

She whispered to me
Letting me ago

I'm alone now.

Hazy
Blurring
Between the lines
Fall into the cracks

Forget one self
Slip away into the unknown
Out of sight
Out of f*cking mind

Recklessness almost ended it all.
The world was the enemy
Frozen in fear

Death was the solution
Death was within grasp

One last kiss to end it all
One last kiss, all on black

Life became rebirth
Life became the Savior

Bound

Tie the knot
Tie the noose
Wrap your hands around my throat
So I know we are through.

Lay my head on the bed
Through my eyes, all I see is read.

In love and hate
In truth and lies

I hate that I needed you.
I hate that I wanted you.

Grind the words into my head.
I'll make sure to count every last thread.
I feel the void to numb the pain

But in the end, what's to gain?
In your hate
I found new love..
In the truth

I found true forgiveness.
Here we lie
Bound.
Knife to throat
In a coffin built for you.

Brother

Oh, Brother
Why I should have been there

I am your protector!
I am your friend!

We are the same blood
I could have helped
I would have helped

Oh, Brother why?

Traveling down these roads
You were never alone in this life

This load was never your own
Id travel the roads of Hell for you!

Oh, Brother
Tell me why

Our eyes heavy falling asleep
Crying when we should be asleep
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
They walk on in closing the door
Scream to the gods above us
Scream to the gods below us
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Holding onto what's left
Giving up screaming with all of our might
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
The darkness found its way in
We finally found our way out...

Cancer

Our eyes heavy falling asleep
Crying when we should be asleep
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
They walk on in closing the door
Scream to the gods above us
Scream to the gods below us
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Holding onto what's left
Giving up screaming with all of our might
It eats away at our soul
It rots away at our bones
Can anyone tell me why
We're laying on the bed barely breathing
The darkness found its way in
We finally found our way out...

Cassandra

Roses are on the grave
The dolls are spread over the bed

Centuries have come
Centuries will go

Statues of the old times
Remind me of your face

The ashes dance across my lips
Your burnt flesh is a reminder

Of the pain, you left behind
When you left me there
In the rain...

Choke

Throw a ring of salt
To protect us from your faults

Hey! Hey! Get down and accept your fate
If your praying to god than you
know its too late

I hope you choke
Choke on your words
Choke on your *******
Choke on your bile that you call the truth
Just choke!

The devil you know smiles in your face
The devil you know awaits for you
At the end of this race..

I hope you choke
Choke on your words
Choke on your *******
Choke on your bile that you call the truth
Just choke!

Hey! Hey! Get down with the ******
Those vultures fly among
Where our corpses should lie..

I hope you choke...

I hope you choke...

Jumping around like parcor methamptehmine
My thoughts never stop
Am I opting for another way out??
Friends?
Enemies?
The truth
The lies
As this paranoia sinks its fangs on in
This world is nothing more
than a ******* blur
Hateful words
Misanthropic state of mind
My ******* high in the air
As I load this pistol...
This ominous piece of steel..
Can you say
Count to 3???
Click
Click
Click
I guess I can't do anything right

Dancing With The Shadows

Dancing in the shadows
Watching the flames dance
You wanted to find your way
Burning brightly

You shone deeply like the darkest star
In the brightest of day
Your soul was the one I wanted to save

Now I'd give anything to have you here
Dancing with the shadows
In the blackest of night
Playing with the fire
Flirting with death was your greatest desire

Been through hell and back
I wish I could have eased your pain
There was nothing to gain

You were my brother
You were my best friend
Dancing with the shadows
How'd you lose your way?

Its 2:13am and the walls are getting thin?Your lingering words have slipped on in?"Tell me do you fear death?"??

How long should it linger?
Taken my words and out them through the ringer?

Hey! I'm not dead yet?
BUT! I've got one foot in the gutter?
The others in the grave?

?I used to be so brave?Gaslighted and it took its toll?"Tell me do you fear death?"??

Can you make it go all away?
Can you wash it all away?
In my house of mirrors?I used to be so happy!??

All my rage burns at my finger tips?
All my sadness holds onto my lips?
All my anger that is my greatest sin?
Tell me do you fear death???

How long should it linger…??

How long should it linger?Your words singing on your last breath??

It's 2:13am and the walls are getting thin?Your lingering words have slipped on in?"Tell me do you fear death?"

You have no idea

Down

Nicotine stains
Outside it rains
In my underwear

Trying my best to forget
And I don't feel so great
Stuck in slow motion
Reminding me was your unkindest notion

I never said I would die for you
I never said I would cry for you
Deep down
We all want to see how far the bullet drives
We all want to see how our soul writhes

Stuck in my head
Devoid of emotions
Anger resurfaces
From sins not yet forgotten
These feelings feel rotten

Demons dance their everlasting ritual
The feelings they give me are always mutual

I pray to the gods
I hope they hear my cries
I fall prey to the predator within

A night of everlasting pain
There's thunder in this heart
Deep down we all want to see how far the bullet drives

Do you remember that day
August 20th?
Hot as Hades

Wanting to set the world on fire
Taken back by what was to come
A hand full of pills

Ambitions for the end
I sit and waited
For the death of that day…
Past, present, and future collide

Why does it hurt so much
To be in love with sadness
I want to lock the door
With no ghost to take my wheel

I ached for my present
I grieved for my future
I bared witness to my past

Do I want to remember that day

Drown

Drowning
Deep within Jupiter's waters
The red sun rising
We drown without inhaling
Weight of the world takes ahold

Drowning
The words fill up our bodies
We succumb to,
We succumb to
The pain that dwells within
The words are never forgotten
The feelings never truly fade
Time only helps put a bandaid over the scars

Drowning
Deep within Jupiters waters
The red sun falling
The weight of the world takes ahold.

Entwined

Unwrap these wounds
To let them bleed
These ghosts have no more hold

Deep within you know these answers
Bite down and bare it all

Unwrap these wounds
Feel what you need to feel
Say what you need to say

Will this be the end of things from the past
Entwined together

We keep dancing this dance
These flames licking us
Entwined together

With all if this anger and pain
Unwrap these wounds
Let them breathe

Unwrap these wounds
This pain is not the end

Eye to Eye

I fight,
I scream,
I bleed,
I breathe..

Shining bright
Like a fiery beacon
The piano plays
And echos through the hallways..

God and I don't see eye to eye
So I sit here pondering why
Everything went wrong in my life.

Was it the choices I made?
The best friend who abandoned me?
The voices in my head that I drown out daily?

Or?

The father who beat me?
The woman who ran off with my kid?

I write to drown out the sadness
I write to drown out the madness
I write to continue on in my life
I write to remember this strife.

God and I never saw eye to eye.

Hold my hands - I want to feel
Kiss my lips--I need you here

The words I hear are the truth
The words I need to hear are the lies
Scared like a kid who needs his parents

I don't wanna die
Will you be there when I arrive?
It's a fatal mistake
That we take life for granted..

It's a fatal mistake
That we all make
And I guess I won the grand prize

These curtains are trying to fall
But I'm not ready to go...

I'll be reckless... I'll watch it burn
I'll be fatal.. I'll make my words
Ring out loud and clear...

******* to the sky
As long as I have air in my lungs
My destiny is my own...

Flying High

Flying high
On top of the world

I am invincible
A feeling like the gods of old

Here I am, do you hear me?
Mold me, I am forever yours

If I am you
And you are me

Then why do I feel alone??
These wings are cracking

Don't you try to catch me
I won't be coming down

But I'll be crashing
This once glorious feeling was legendary.

Foggy Horror Bliss  

Sickened under the stars, the seraphim
lust I have for you lies under the
foggy bliss of snow.

Judgment of my heart has been set
and I'm guilty of these feelings for the
catalyst that flutters my soul.

Your tormented being is something that
makes me love seeing your broken smile. I
don't like to see you hurt, but I love

I love wrapping my arms around your
beating heart, and I don't feel hollow
any longer.

Pandaemonaeon, in your serpentine smile runs
rampant and free. Your heart has been
healed and you are saved by someone, not me.

In the bliss of the last caress, I hold
you in my arms and farewell no words left
to say.

Follow

Follow him down
Don't breathe it in
Knock knock (let me in)
Don't let him in

His words are tainted
With poison
Don't let me drink it
Follow him down
He's knocking on my door

I'm the scared kid
Lying naked on the floor
Knock knock (let me in)
Trying to fight it all
Don't let him in

Univited.
Unneeded.

His shadows are lingering
In the cracks of my mind
Follow him down
To where his river lies

His blood fades to black
No light to shine
No light to guide the way
Knock knock (let me in)

In the doorway
His light shines so bright
He's coming in.

Frozen

Chaotic thoughts of
Yesterday's sins
Discerning voices telling me
.... To let you go....

Through hell I will go
Through hell I will climb

To keep you safe
To keep you mine

"Run you clever boy"

Is what you tell me
All I want is to run
Straight back to you

Frozen in time
Frozen in my fears

The bad wolf is coming
The ravens wings embrace

"Run you clever boy"

Your final words
Your final goodbye
I never wanted to let you go

My girl frozen in time.

Frozen Fear

Fear is only in our minds,
but yet its taking us over
all the time.

Everytime we struggle
everytime we cry and want to die,
we give up and lose to the darkness.

As the fear still beats in our
hearts, we lay in the silence
looking for an escape out of
reality and life.

Lay, wait
for the death of today so you
can be free from your fear.

Wander through the ashes, there's
nothing left for you here, except.
Pain, fear, and loneliness, the world
may divide us, but you have a voice
you have a choice, it's YOUR LIFE!

Fear is only in our minds
but yet its taking us over all the
time. Fear is apart of us accept
it, accept yourself.

All that glitters isn’t always gold
Take my words and let them unfold
Maybe it was the night
That took me ahold

I always wanted to be right
But.
I can feel the knife carving,
Into my heart
Into my head

Will you leave me out in the cold
Turn to dust
Oh, how you are so bold.

Glutton

I crave,
I breathe,
I bleed,
As any normal human.
My spirit aches,
my spirit breaks just as easily.
My heart is broken,
but I always find
away to piece it back together.
I am the will of fire my flames will never die.
Hear me, Heaven! Hear me Hell!
You are done making a mockery out of my misery!!
This is the beginning to heal my soul, and I will be set free.

God: Wick Part 2

Shatter the glass
To see the truth
God is in us
And I believe in you

(You were my anger)

It's a cycle
It's a vicious cycle
Let's break it...
Am I alive or just breathing?

A deep breath in
To remind us
To- let the dark in
To- let the light in

(You were my strength)

A deep breath in
To remind us
A smile you can't fake it
The love you can't push away

(You were my will)

A voice full of hatred
The bait was taken to destroy from within
A candle to light the way
You will always find a way back

(I'll see you in the next life)

These strains that bind us together
They shine like the palest silver
You always told me
God is in us
And I will always believe in you...

Hallucination

I never knew, I never knew
how painful it would be
for losing you. Outta sight,
outta mind,

Flowing from your words pouring
down on me, am I becoming your
poison?

Advert your eyes, please deny me
the temptation of this pain,
that I can't let go of.

From your words pouring
down on me, am I your own
brand of poison?

The spaces between us are
empty and to walk away from the sun
your world became cold.

Am I your poison
can this be real or
just a hallucination?

Haunted

Cold and alone
Silent like the dead
A last request
To escape

Chants get louder
Senses are drowned out.
Are we the dead?
Is this our hell?

Cast us away into the wind
He calls your name, you are denied
The Forest whispers our prayers
Cold and alone

Dawn is now arriving
Driven into the ground
6 ft below

Alone…
No words to say
No emotions
We walk alone

No haven
We spiral down
This grave is now our home.

This world has forgotten me
Once a hero now not even a memory
The forest whispers my name
The wolves howl in remembrance
In my rites I had the mark of courage
Is this my penance?
Seven years
I stood the test of time
No stories to tell
Of the one who ended his darkness
Once a hero
Now faded into dust
No memory except the ones in my head
No memory of the Savior
No memory of the Hero of Time

He Walks In Silence

Green eyes like emeralds
Flaming red hair like a 1000 suns
Take a walk through the open field
A big oak tree calls out

Haunting his dreams
Calling out, it beckons.
The grass is so beautiful

Walking in silence
The grass cuts and bleeds him dry
He walks in silence

Tormented on the inside.
The Tree feels like home
This Tree will be his grave

Ravens cawing
Is this his end?

A sigil of the unknown lies on the ground
Reaching out the serpent of ill intent
Snatches his hand and pulls him into the ground.

Screaming in silence
The Tree is his grave
A hand surfaces from the ground.
A remembrance of what was.

I do it

I get back up and do it again

I do it

So you don't cry

I do it

So I won't feel like a failure

I do it

Because I love you

I do it

Because I need to love myself

I get back up and do it again

I get back up and do it again

Sun rising on the horizon

I take a deep breath

All this will make sense

I smile and think of you

I smile and think of why I do this

I get back up and do it again

Because of you

If You Want  

If you want I could have given you the world.
If you want I could have given you my heart.
You threw it all away.
You gave it all away.
For something new.
For something wicked.
I hope you enjoy your lies.
If you want I could break you apart
If you want I could make your life hell.
You demolished everything that meant something.
You wrecked my world to his core.
If you want I could hate you like everyone else.
If you want I could love you like no other.
If you want I could take this knife to your heart.

I can pretend...
I can lie...
but how can I deny
when her body lays
next to me?
Blood and her hair is
stale and unclean
resting in my hands
but I can will it all away.
If you ask me to
pain and fear are a figment
of the imagination.
And her suicide was
never real.
Lying to myself
is better than
facing the truth.
There's no more
light to lead the way
in the shadows she
is safe, she is free
but her death won't
be the end of me.
In the
shadows nothing is real
and her death is free
from my dreams.
I can pretend...
I can lie...
but her body lays
next to me.
In my dreams

Caught up in your words
Stuck in the back of my throat

Kiss me, like you loved me
F*ck me, like you hate me

I can feel you carving into me
Etched in my heart

Im still a slave to your words
Im still bound to these dreams

It was your, your words, your hatred that ended it all
It was my:
hurt,
devotion
To make sure i survived you.

Go ahead encourage your twisted little lies. Tell them all what a failure i am when you're the one lost in your heart.

Go ahead and do those bad things to me.
It was a new way to bleed and in the end..

I survived..

Lay me down in black
Pray my soul to keep
May the Devil never see my back
If I should die before I wake
Lay me down
6ft in the ground
To all my friends
Thank you
To all my family
I love you
To all those who have scorned me
You helped made me stronger
I lay me down to sleep
My soul was never yours to reap