I have no idea why they come back
They seek something in me that I cannot give
Love is the thing that I lack
If I feel it again, I might not live

The feeling is sometimes my pain
Though when in pain I better my game
Maybe they come back for that gain
Do I have the secret to get a woman and tame

I look into their eyes and picture someone else
The truth is that I only want my ex
And they're only drowning me in ***
I have love for her, but in stealth

Being with them numbs the pain
And the storm in my heart has more than rain
The women are all that keep me sane
And I cannot get rid of all these memories in my brain
The emotions are overwhelming and they leave me in pain
"Just Dial the number, and restart the game."

--I wish I gave this to you, I wish you would read this, and if fate would have it, you would. I wish these feelings would not still be true, but they are, and maybe... just maybe yours might still be, but it's been so long. Too long, but here it is--

Don't go, my Belle

I feel the atoms vibrating within my body
and named it your sweet touch
I see the stars, when your lips intertwine
in a silky embrace with mine

I cannot lose it, I love you too much
Forgive all my flaws, it's not a crush
I promise you, for in all my life
I'll find a way, for you to be my wife

I know that for if we'd be torn apart
The angels would weep
and I'd be cursed with no sleep

You are like my *******
and always stuck in my brain
Yet the thought of you keeps me sane;
So please, let's just go kiss in the rain
I'll take the demons from your brain

Baby let me hold you, and keep you safe
I'll fill, your blank half, to the grave
I'll always make you feel alright
never again, will we fight

I love the way you look in red,
and I love, you choose black instead
I love your nails, coloured blue
I love your "I love you"
I love it that your socks are green,
and your room is never clean.
oh baby I love you
and everything you do

Baby please... oh please don't go
for to live without you, I don't know
and when the rain calms
I'll hold you tightly in my arms

I'll hold you until we're grey
I just don't hope you'll ever say
I don't love you anymore

Your liver thinks you're too thirsty
Your mind runs off drugs
You'll be dead before thirty
Or killed off by thugs

You escape this reality
to where, what does it give you
You've only escaped your mortality
for your death is long overdue

You were humble, you were frightening
Now you stumble, and stopped with fighting
Where's the real you gone?
for this one's almost done!

You'll be dead before thirty
"Though will you live to thirty?"

So fast I couldn't hold on
No darling, I didn't let go

Ha'e you e'er let someone truly in?
Opened up to them
told 'em everything tha' was bothering you
Told them th' stories of your past

Having that luxury of opening up
Hath been the sweetest gamble when won,
but the most bitter loss in life
is when you realise there is no trust left to give,
for you've lost everyone
you ever
trusted

Was it your alluring eyes
Or your mellow lips
Your crisp mellifluous voice
Or your ever sweet embrace
Your addictive love
Bound with
Your comforting embrace
Or being caressed
By your short arms
That left me, hiraeth,
but it got me
And it grabbed me good
Till this very day
I'd wish for a "hey"
Though
Not the priveledge for me
For a priveledge only for he

You tried to help,
But I kept on breaking you
Over
And over

She's an angel among all the stars
She's a healer of all one's scars
She's the usual customer in bars
She has wicked, poisonous claws
She's the winner, of all draws
She's the breaker of all laws

Did I pass the test oh sweet sorrow
Should I close my eyes till morrow
To see if I need a heart to borrow
I'll search for a path to follow
Within your heart that's so hollow
Oh sweet life, what do I owe
To see your beautiful face tomorrow

If I could choose
I'd go back and love you all over again
Though did destiny not tear us apart?
Did fate seek us to meet again?
Did cupid
Intend on pulling his arrow
Stuck in our hearts?

Her pristine blue eyes
of crystalline seas
reflect the clear blue skies
as she gazes at ease

Is this life worth
What we think
Or utter to ink
Since our birth

Is it worth, religion?
For speak no suspicion
'tis a crime like treason
With none to reason

Is is worth love?
Climbing mountains so rough
Only to fall from high above
And be told life is tough

Is it worth excitement?
For 'tis not permanent,
Yet this fulfillment
Brings enlightenment.

Is it worth fighting?
Victory feels enchanting,
Whilst defeat, discouraging;

I remember her, with a smile
and a sore heart, in that while
I remember the first day
I saw you in that way
I remember our first touch
as I'll remember her such
I remember our first kiss
as it is my final wish

She broke my heart,
but I remember the start
Her heart was ever sore
with yet an untold lore
I remember her so sweet
as I do our final greet
She's a broken young lady
a great heart, that's shading