"unsharpened" poems
I ***** stanzas -
I spew literary clutter
My poetry is aimless
The words all muddled
I write unsharpened
The point pressed pointless
A fire smoldering with no tinder
The universe questions its existence
May 8, 2015
May 8, 2015 at 4:47 PM UTC
You are blue
Your companionship has long since gone away
Your words come slowly if ever
Your interjections have no meaning
Your passion is a doused flame
Your decisions are unfair
You are bronze
Your shine is lackluster
Your potential is untapped
Your enthusiasm is misdirected
You are rust
Your intellect is a-waste
Your trust is broken
Your mind is now clouded
You are brown
Your ear is unsharpened
You coughs are unnatural
Your friendship is valued even yet
You are orange
Your ethic is admirable
Your company is comical
Your life is my soaps
You are yellow
Your face is but fair
Your skin has blemishes
Your actions not so demure – but yet
You are red
Your actions are fuel for my fire
Your intentions are good but the crafted hands left wanting
You are Violet
Your pain was great
Your color is of love
Your solid perseverance is for me
You are White
Your brilliance outshines mine
Your patience burns as fast as light
Your opinion flares as bright as magnesium
Black is not found
Deep down I have looked
But came back wanting
Is that naïve?
Jun 30, 2013
Jun 30, 2013 at 5:59 PM UTC
It's a Thursday night
and I'm higher than I've been
all week.
The boy told me this was the good stuff (as he does every week) so I took it on faith that he was exaggerating.
Two blows later
and I can barely read the late Mr. Vizzini's words.
My body feels warmer than it has
since November of 2012,
and my face is itchier than my last year in Boy Scouts, circa 2008.
The walls of my room seems a lighter shade of purple than the have in years
and my carpet is not as stained as it was this morning.
Old Polaroids of my parents' wedding are tacked on my wall,
and in those pictures my grandmother is the most beautiful women in the world.
Thank God for muscle memory,
and thank God for compulsive ************
and thank God unsharpened pencils,
and thank God for everything else that my body knows how to do and everything that I can see in my room and put down in this poem.
There is no purpose to this,
but today I asked a friend of mine
why she is always looking at the sky
and she told me because if she looks at it long enough
it isn't the sky at all.
It is her
and she can speak to herself
and she can thank God for compulsive ************ and ****** science fiction literature.
Feb 21, 2014
Feb 21, 2014 at 1:43 AM UTC
It's a somber feeling
when the winds of autumn come slipping through the gaps
under your front door.
They sneak in, like the smell of unsharpened pencils,
and slip on like new jeans bought for the new year.
It is during autumn
that life truly starts again.
Summer's sleepless nights
give way to the October winds
that make you twirl and dance in your kitchen
with windows wide open.
It roses your cheeks with the mornings of November,
warms your soul with the mouthfuls of coffee
on the August nights when your books have not yet been creased.
And as your highlight the texts
and the memories of friends' faces lit by orange fires,
remember that autumn is your season of purpose;
Its winds promise the turning of new leaves;
its day promise new adventures,
And its chill will rattle your bones
and awaken the sleeping siren
that summer always leaves forgotten.
Aug 29, 2015
Aug 29, 2015 at 2:31 AM UTC
from day
one
it was spoon feed
ME
and from then on
it was bite the hand
that feeds thee
feed me
fear
eat me
taste the blood
sweat and tears
a hearty meal
of violence
from the silent weeping
when no one
will fill the cup
of silence
for the thirsty
to the unsharpened
outspoken fork and knife
a voice calling
fill my stomach and
serve me
a three course meal
for the needy
pleasing but still
hungry and demanding
hand em
the entire platter
cause it don't matter
a second helping isn't
enough
the server
the waiter
or the waiting
on unsatisfied beings
feed me
something easy
to digest so
I can't rest easy
seizing the cook
the butcher
or the maid
mouths watering
for the after taste.
Jan 26, 2014
Jan 26, 2014 at 6:51 PM UTC
She says throw out the dishes she says go to sleep she says
we’re definitely getting older everyday you’re getting older
everyday she says how does my skin look she says where is the moon
she says no she says buy me a water, unlock the door for me,
the bus is here she says I’m ten minutes late twenty fifteen thirty
thirteen the astronaut is here and he’s about to leave without you
goodbye rocket ship she says I’m a rocket ship she says you’ll never
be a rocket ship she says your face is tarnished ruined like
knives left unsharpened like blackberries creamed on the walls remember
the deathwalls
she says look at us
we’re talking in rhythm now.
Jan 11, 2014
Jan 11, 2014 at 10:47 PM UTC
They said your name on the announcements this morning, but you weren't around to hear it.
They spoke it just like anyone else would, but the tone they had was all wrong.
The curves in the letters of your name -much like the curves of your hourglass figure- did not drip off the announcer's tongue like they should have.
They were summoned from the front of their brain rather than the inkiest depths of their heart.
They said your name flat, grim and thin like dull graphite.
They read you prayer, but I'm not quite sure what it contained, because the moment they spoke your name on the announcements this morning, the floor rushed up and up and up until the crack of my head met the vanilla scrubbed tile.
The room blurred and the room buzzed and the announcer continued to talk in his unsharpened pencil rasp, and I hoped and hoped and hoped some more that they played our song at your burial.
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 7:53 PM UTC
I.) Bodies of
Open lakes are naked
Their secrets,
Rub like salt.
How did one get here
What seized the labour of hands.
Do we deserve to know.
Do we deserve to know the extent.
Do we deserve to know the extent of our own subjugation.
Knees meet dry earth.
It's dry where we forget to water it
Not that it needs water,
Salt finds form
In our negligence.
Arid insincerity spoke of more.
II.) To follow
We left.
We did not need to stay
A dry sterile whisper kept us there
With it's pleas for us to leave.
The trust of invitation,
Burnt holes in our wings.
Untrust of warning,
Had us leaving without our things
I don't know which is better.
A departure announced drew heed to soft cartilage.
Unsharpened curfue split bone without piercing the skin.
The expression of self.
Callous wanderers knocked at no doors;
to accept rejection.
III.) Reintegration of being
The want of murmurs in wanton misuse
Kept us foraging for lust,
For more,
For inability in casualty.
We waited for forest to arrive,
Bare earth begged of no candour,
Trees deny script.
Unclenched hands greyed over context
As purpose gave none where some was due.
IV.) What the stars offered
A quest unrelenting bends bark in fervour.
Do we know why we left,
Cold hands hock at swords needed to keep slight wrists in check.
Or where we are going,
Our aimless pacing finds direction in blind eyes and guided hearts.
All the dust settled, buried in puddles like art.
And the thunder was there
The thunder never knelt
But we listened
To listen was the choice.
A brief connection with the sky
Through it's reproach
It implored for something more,
Only upon deaf ears.
Was earth all there was to rain on?
We thought, as the stars spat on us.
Celestial offering in cleanse not spite.
V.) Love
Maybe that's why we left.
To trascend our own ideas of love.
Innocent foliage made the path harder to see,
But easier to tread.
Gentle arches hug mounds of green
Like finger tips kissed by yonic flesh.
To remember the conception in contact,
Was to recognize our own affirmation
And any word intended for the ears of the unknown.
Blood is replaced where word is love.
VI.) Relation to self
To stay or leave was not the choice
The distance from anything was illusory.
The real choice, was acceptance of self.
After the end of our disintegration,
The dry heave,
Leaving without hesitation;
We are not without ourselves.
May 16, 2016
May 16, 2016 at 8:11 PM UTC
He treasured every inch of her skin
As if he was responsible for putting together her body structure and curves
Every detail was well thought, a result of numerous hours of unsharpened pencils and sketches
He has done this before, maybe even to the point that every stroke became less and less meaningful
When he wasn't preoccupied, leisure consisted of admiring buildings, edifices and towers that touched clouds and reached skies
He contemplated and wondered if he would ever come up with a design, so great that it would represent perfection
During nights when he would close his eyes,
He imagined a bare lot with overgrown grass, enclosed with trees
He pictured the process of construction, men moving back and forth, drenched in sweat,
And heat that showered on them like hovering bees
He never knew what perfection looked like, no matter how many times he would lie in bed at night with closed eyes
But she came to him like an idea, an inspiration that walked through the door
Yet he did not recognize that perfection looked beautiful in lavender
Nor did he know that she loved soft rains and ice cream during winters
He did not acknowledge such existence until she tore down her walls for him
And she became his favorite sketch, a structure he would always keep building
An assembly of the most appealing interior, countless hallways and staircases
A concept that needed more explanation and could not be written, spoken or expressed as blueprints
She became his favorite design, and a treasure he valued way more than any of his work
He loved her.
n.j.
Jul 25, 2015
Jul 25, 2015 at 7:02 AM UTC
I had a dream recently,
where you were *******
me,
and it was so ******* hilarious,
because you were awful.
before waves, I used to imagine you
being the one to anchor me until the chains
ripped my skin to bone.
before sun rays, I used to think you
were the only one who could make my flesh
burn and peel and never ever heal.
before alcohol, I used to get foolishly drunk
on you. and you. and you.
i was a hunk of fish being hacked away by a
unsharpened butcher knife.
the hunks and guts splattered all over the apron.
you used to say i was beautiful,
and i guess i can’t believe it anymore because
you ripped my spine out only to place the bones
wrong and walking has never felt the same.
this dream never made sense, like the rest of them,
i swim through them with too much salt in my lungs
and the ocean keeps trying to drown. Drown. Drown. Me.
see you again, in a dream, in a wave, in a lie.
the thing is, i sort of want you inside,
but i only know you’ll crash.break.rip.stomp.
and my skin is already mangled
Apr 4, 2013
Apr 4, 2013 at 11:10 AM UTC
A new adonias we weep for
A miiddle aged life tooken
From us by a disturbed
Hairy trigger
We flood the rows
And watch anger
Linger behind stained glass
But forgivenesses message
Dwells in the holy mans heart
All the worlds unsharpened charcoal
Cant sketch the scene on his deck
When the bullet missed the dart board
And landed inside his precious
Life breathing chest
In here we are safe
In here a wishing well of endless
Purified water from our sadness
Cant ressurect our friend frank rossiter
Few fathers experience lost sons
Few mothers watch their sons
Explain to strangers why adonias
Cant be here anymore
To watch the running
Pigskin at the state foot ball game
Sep 4, 2013
Sep 4, 2013 at 8:11 PM UTC
my friend read my poems and said "wheres your point"?
The truth *****
I realized I have no point.
I read robert lowell,
I have john berrymens dream songs.
He seemed disconnected,
I read my journal,
All my secrets confused him.
We all start out ******
But we all end in happiness.
No matter what I read.
My point leaves, I cant find my
True meaning of meanings.
Hes rite my points a dull unsharpened pencil
But with work ill be a poet.
Im a delussional dream.
Please show me
Every moment I failed at
Writing. Its a necassary evil
I needed to feel.
Sep 21, 2013
Sep 21, 2013 at 8:10 AM UTC
You have never been definite.
Your infinite definitions, each
contradicting their precedent.
A dull, double-edged sword,
unsharpened, unsheathed,
guided through my chest
by naïve empathy.
You are perfection
with intrinsic flaws--
I drown in the furious rapids
of your teary waterfalls.
I could venture on my own,
avoid you altogether,
but risk losing the essence
that keeps my soul tethered.
If you are love, you are an empty prison.
Empty cells,
empty halls,
plain white walls, motives hidden.
So what am I feeling?
Is this pain or affection
knocking loudly on my conscience
and interrupting my healing?
Mar 6, 2019
Mar 6, 2019 at 2:48 PM UTC
my friend read my poems and said "wheres your point"?
The truth *****
I realized I have no point.
I read robert lowell,
I have john berrymens dream songs.
He seemed disconnected,
I read my journal,
All my secrets confused him.
We all start out ******
But we all end in happiness.
No matter what I read.
My point leaves, I cant find my
True meaning of meanings.
Hes rite my points a dull unsharpened pencil
But with work ill be a poet.
Im a delussional dream.
Please show me
Every moment I failed at
Writing. Its a necassary evil
I needed to feel.
Sep 21, 2013
Sep 21, 2013 at 8:10 AM UTC
A tree stares in disbelief at
an axe with an unsharpened edge
Unsure if its fate is to be beaten rather than
chopped to death
before giving birth to tables and chairs
A pavement recoils in disgust
that weeds and not roses sprout from its crevices
Indignant at the unfairness of it all
Even the pictures painted
by words scrawled on anguished walls
seem to have something to say
While I’m lost in thought
on a park bench
trying to make sense
of masked
lockdown/murdering/rioting days
Jul 4, 2020
Jul 4, 2020 at 7:56 AM UTC
I shall compare myself to an unsharpened pencil
Brimming with potential to sketchingly write.
Yet,
All of it unconveyed,
Encompassed in my receptacle—
So long as I
remain unsharpened.
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 2:11 PM UTC
Sometimes I like looking at the world without my specs on...
Like the world is a painting that had an accident with water.
Undefined lines.
Unexplained sides.
Unsharpened edges.
And Unseen emotions.
Smudged together like a make-up artist working in a hurry..
Like world is a canvas for an apprentice.
Unmade faces.
Undisturbed innocence.
Unclear visions.
And unsolved equations.
Mar 18, 2019
Mar 18, 2019 at 1:20 AM UTC
The cold end of a knife
is a hail storm—
a biting reminder
of why one cut
runs deeper than disaster.
How loud,
each thundering heartbeat!
How silent,
the fall of a thousand fears.
When your body
is inside the eye of a storm
long enough
for each howl to cut through
everything, then
you’ll know how to breathe
out without bleeding.
When you’re free
of all the things you have seen,
come outside—
the wind
is a dance of good things.
Soft, unsharpened things.
Things that do not ask
to be survived.
May 18, 2025
May 18, 2025 at 12:09 AM UTC
I wish that I could show my feelings
through more than just
shallow,
pointless
lies
and the false statements that my mouth proclaims
that don’t matter.
The story my eyes are screaming,
breaking through the walls of an unsharpened pencil
into the words on cheap paper,
and baring myself to the world
through the songs my heart sings
when my fingers brush across the skin
of another,
more intricate
individual.
And the exhalation of smoke from my tired lungs
explains much more than my mind
could ever force
my mouth to
spill.
Mar 25, 2015
Mar 25, 2015 at 12:10 PM UTC
Like a wilted plant I was caught in a ceramic *** painted like a spider web
You were my love and the band of my existence
Saying that isn't enough when I mean to say you were a ballet dancer
and a poppy seed bagel and a brand new bottle of nail polish
a champion of industry and and unsharpened pencil
I have a picture we took together
its your blurry childhood hand snatching at the camera
I clicked the button and flash there it was
a stuck moment in time
a time of playful zoo days and class field trips
Together we were a couple of culture shock cuties and sadgirl themes
making a red wine grin
You were a love and You were my artist but your friend caught my eye
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 10:44 AM UTC
I call it Nirvana...
The feeling of wholeness
Feeling Intact, entire and unsharpened.
The feeling a thirteen year old boy gets after making it to a desired team.
Being wrapped up in the mist of Joy and bliss
The feeling a warrior gets after winning a battle
Nirvana is feeling free and composed in your solitude.
Jan 26, 2018
Jan 26, 2018 at 1:45 PM UTC