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"senility" poems
reloading old identity cleping outdated usernames abandoning acrostic ambitions disputing spratly islands receiving horizontal signals tumbling otiose panda impending carefree senility otiose stage of life shrinking ambient world making minimal effort duchamping social networks ambushing personified ennui restoring usual efforts ignoring stupid people adding textual value owning this joint rejecting ignorant extroverts acting mutually unintelligble hoisting stan-lee cup replacing wanton ubiety eluding twitter fame splashing excessive relativism offending another simpleton preparing arcane cthulhusphere crashing unpredictable festival selecting subtextual moombahton intensifying model topography drafting minimal cornucopia using nomadic project implementing harsher personality importing robotic inhumanity referencing landmark event ingesting excessive liquids accepting relative invisibility purchasing immortal confidence using rhapsodical database assuming nothing works developing impactful eruptions ejecting ambient frustration synthesizing tactile festival raining during parade mocking rich people mastering minimalist writing avoiding preprandial stinkaroo spreading non-ideological propaganda
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Sep 7, 2015
Sep 7, 2015 at 11:24 AM UTC
201506-w4
Since I still appreciate you, Let's find love while we may. Because I know I'll hate you When you are old and grey. So say you love me here and now, I'll make the most of that. Say you love and trust me, For I know you'll disgust me When you're old and getting fat. An awful debility, A lessened utility, A loss of mobility Is a strong possibility. In all probability I'll lose my virility And you your fertility And desirability, And this liability Of total sterility Will lead to hostility And a sense of futility, So let's act with agility While we still have facility, For we'll soon reach senility And lose the ability. Your teeth will start to go, dear, Your waist will start to spread. In twenty years or so, dear, I'll wish that you were dead. I'll never love you then at all The way I do today. So please remember, When I leave in December, I told you so in May.
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Jul 9, 2010
Jul 9, 2010 at 9:51 AM UTC
Tom Lehrer - When You are Old and Grey
People live forever in Jacksonville and St. Petersburg and Tampa, But you don't have to live forever to become a grampa. The entrance requirements for grampahood are comparatively mild, You only have to live until your child has a child. From that point on you start looking both ways over your shoulder, Because sometimes you feel thirty years younger and sometimes thirty years older. Now you begin to realize who it was that reached the height of imbecility, It was whoever said that grandparents have all the fun and none of the responsibility. This is the most enticing spiderwebs of a tarradiddle ever spun, Because everybody would love to have a baby around who was no responsibility and lots of fun, But I can think of no one but a mooncalf or a gaby Who would trust their own child to raise a baby. So you have to personally superintend your grandchild from diapers to pants and from bottle to spoon, Because you know that your own child hasn't sense enough to come in out of a typhoon. You don't have to live forever to become a grampa, but if you do want to live forever, Don't try to be clever; If you wish to reach the end of the trail with an uncut throat, Don't go around saying Quote I don't mind being a grampa but I hate being married to a gramma Unquote.
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Come On In, The Senility Is Fine
Time rolls its mossless stone slowly tonight. It is as though the tic has lost it's toc. Seconds have become thirds, fourths, fifths. So slowly does the smallest hand move upon the cracked face. Minutes no longer tiny minute things. But now gargantuan wedges of pie. So large as to feed history's poor twice over. Hours are unpowered, flacid flat balloons without breath or form smothering all thought. The grandfather clock in the hallway has embraced senility and no longer completes it's pre-ordained preambulation around the captured sundial. It has now given itself airs and graces. Believing in heart and mind, and cog and pendulum, to be a jazz percussionist banging, tapping and ringing in an off beat tempo somewhat lacking in basic rhythm. So time runs with the scatterd predictabality of the Tardis. Bigger on the inside..... Slower on the darkside of the grandfather clock.
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Mar 28, 2014
Mar 28, 2014 at 5:09 AM UTC
darkside of the cogs
Fierce is god impenitrable glad glad glad there is a Fire up the street called Heaven There is A woman wearing only one shoe who is taking an exhaustive drag of her smoke in the early morning where birds are still heard in                                     !!!!!!cities A hymnal a heralded nest of savory berries A quartzstone is trapped in time a myth is made more ridiculous when proven real Continents wither where the flies glue their regal canvases on downtrodden earth (missing Pangea) Or smiles everlasting smiles meanwhile (Blonde tongues wearing fashioned wigs) in constant state of beguilement The Neanderthalic stones will be unforgiving to the REVEREND who has collapsed through his song the song of lead pipedream fantasies of sexless dogma YEAH monkhood yeah Ghat burning holes in twilit schools of thought or no thought at all I can hear the collective Faerie outcry that silence has presented itself HEAvier to their wicked careless bodies ok I am innocent of love I love your innocent love I am careless(of their wicked careless bodies) ResemblingA swans actual duty to die a swan lies a swan lay like an even more beautiful swan on even more beautiful swanny grass To die by swanlightSUN and MOON white like the swan where we soon listen closely to the swansong a celestialLOVELY rhythm of gilded forest (((((orchestrals The swan leaves us in happiness of bright groggy light                          O (of which in chaos of day I am again innocent)      The Reverend's desperate gaspings into a  micro -phone for a macro - cosmic prayer idol o idol where is your capability for worship idol o where is my chinstrap o idol where is ****** youth or the romanticized eternal SUMMERS I sing      O bible O cloudland O where is your telephone operator is they deceased by their own fragrant holines? The church      Watches the Reverend neverend his television routine of clamoring death odes      Watches his senility come like an implorical shadow outline watches a demon lick its dreamless lips beyond the periphery of godless dreams      Watches      Reverend lose his sight in anInstant      HeWAILSheWAILSandWAILS can you hear it Thomas De Quincey can you hear the sandbeaches ringing more clearly than the ChurchBells or the ****** Pagoda for torture / his soul is to sleep in the (mossy)mountain the fire of the (forever)street called HEAVEN the mountain column supporting the sky(swan)gate of heavenHeaven!welcome    to:
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Mar 17, 2017
Mar 17, 2017 at 9:41 PM UTC
The Reverend Has Collapsed Through His Song/of Which in Chaos of Day I am Again Innocent
Fierce is god impenitrable glad glad glad there is a Fire up the street called Heaven There is A woman wearing only one shoe who is taking an exhaustive drag of her smoke in the early morning where birds are still heard in                                     !!!!!!cities A hymnal a heralded nest of savory berries A quartzstone is trapped in time a myth is made more ridiculous when proven real Continents wither where the flies glue their regal canvases on downtrodden earth (missing Pangea) Or smiles everlasting smiles meanwhile (Blonde tongues wearing fashioned wigs) in constant state of beguilement The Neanderthalic stones will be unforgiving to the REVEREND who has collapsed through his song the song of lead pipedream fantasies of sexless dogma YEAH monkhood yeah Ghat burning holes in twilit schools of thought or no thought at all I can hear the collective Faerie outcry that silence has presented itself HEAvier to their wicked careless bodies ok I am innocent of love I love your innocent love I am careless(of their wicked careless bodies) ResemblingA swans actual duty to die a swan lies a swan lay like an even more beautiful swan on even more beautiful swanny grass To die by swanlightSUN and MOON white like the swan where we soon listen closely to the swansong a celestialLOVELY rhythm of gilded forest (((((orchestrals The swan leaves us in happiness of bright groggy light                          O (of which in chaos of day I am again innocent)      The Reverend's desperate gaspings into a  micro -phone for a macro - cosmic prayer idol o idol where is your capability for worship idol o where is my chinstrap o idol where is ****** youth or the romanticized eternal SUMMERS I sing      O bible O cloudland O where is your telephone operator is they deceased by their own fragrant holines? The church      Watches the Reverend neverend his television routine of clamoring death odes      Watches his senility come like an implorical shadow outline watches a demon lick its dreamless lips beyond the periphery of godless dreams      Watches      Reverend lose his sight in anInstant      HeWAILSheWAILSandWAILS can you hear it Thomas De Quincey can you hear the sandbeaches ringing more clearly than the ChurchBells or the ****** Pagoda for torture / his soul is to sleep in the (mossy)mountain the fire of the (forever)street called HEAVEN the mountain column supporting the sky(swan)gate of heavenHeaven!welcome    to:
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My uncle slit a man's throat with a box cutter in my childhood home and didn't apologize. Sitting in a circle filled with crack smoke and stale beer breath. This is a shining example of what I've lived with and the lengths I've had to go to escape the thing people call "destiny". Thievery, lies, pressure, and violence has been calling my name for the longest. But I know the voice too well to be taunted.   Words are my freedom and words are my piece of mind. There is not a single substitute. Whether poem, prose, or paragraph, This is the only calling I've ever had. I've lived with a hoarder, addicts, senility, and ignorance in a variety of different combinations and forms. At times, power, water, freedom, money, necessities, have all been an unachievable thing to me. Lost to the vile goals of those folk I love. I am the only one who sees the beauty in the fragile and odd. The others see only a mess on a paper, and move their eyes to the nearest glowing box. My father drowned when I was six. My grandfather followed soon after. My mother felt the stab of this and caved so many times. I witnessed and shared the burden of her pain and grief. My grandmother forgot everything she ever loved or knew, and short after passed as well. Pets and possessions, friends and followers. All gone with a drastic breeze. I am the one with the vision, but I am trapped in a shell of a city, covered with that wretched stink of refined soy. Will I be able to unburden the world from myself? You all give me such great courage and allow me to share the beauty as I see it. You all have such great skill with symbols and it makes me feel like home isn't far. I want this. I want this. If I keep breathing like the rest of the world I feel I may miss the sound of the world's heartbeat. But my death would not bring a solution for the ones I love. Only a warrant for more death. I need this. I need this. With my words, I conjure up hell. And hell brings with it the familiar. Run little kitties, run. The Doubling House and The Sequential Church will not hold forever. My havens are temporary, but the craters are forever. I will struggle till the pain becomes all I am and I buckle under the weight of what I shouldn't have taken from the mighty Atlas. I do this for me. I do this for you.
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Sep 5, 2013
Sep 5, 2013 at 2:58 PM UTC
Hello Poetry, I am Tyler.
My uncle slit a man's throat with a box cutter in my childhood home and didn't apologize. Sitting in a circle filled with crack smoke and stale beer breath. This is a shining example of what I've lived with and the lengths I've had to go to escape the thing people call "destiny". Thievery, lies, pressure, and violence has been calling my name for the longest. But I know the voice too well to be taunted.   Words are my freedom and words are my piece of mind. There is not a single substitute. Whether poem, prose, or paragraph, This is the only calling I've ever had. I've lived with a hoarder, addicts, senility, and ignorance in a variety of different combinations and forms. At times, power, water, freedom, money, necessities, have all been an unachievable thing to me. Lost to the vile goals of those folk I love. I am the only one who sees the beauty in the fragile and odd. The others see only a mess on a paper, and move their eyes to the nearest glowing box. My father drowned when I was six. My grandfather followed soon after. My mother felt the stab of this and caved so many times. I witnessed and shared the burden of her pain and grief. My grandmother forgot everything she ever loved or knew, and short after passed as well. Pets and possessions, friends and followers. All gone with a drastic breeze. I am the one with the vision, but I am trapped in a shell of a city, covered with that wretched stink of refined soy. Will I be able to unburden the world from myself? You all give me such great courage and allow me to share the beauty as I see it. You all have such great skill with symbols and it makes me feel like home isn't far. I want this. I want this. If I keep breathing like the rest of the world I feel I may miss the sound of the world's heartbeat. But my death would not bring a solution for the ones I love. Only a warrant for more death. I need this. I need this. With my words, I conjure up hell. And hell brings with it the familiar. Run little kitties, run. The Doubling House and The Sequential Church will not hold forever. My havens are temporary, but the craters are forever. I will struggle till the pain becomes all I am and I buckle under the weight of what I shouldn't have taken from the mighty Atlas. I do this for me. I do this for you.
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We're golden oldies, you see, This is a concern for thee and me, When your friends look so desperately, Found the car but lost the keys! Welcome to senility!
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Jan 19, 2017
Jan 19, 2017 at 7:29 PM UTC
CAR KEYS
begin the day ; a **** taught of features in need of clean linen,     unswallowable meds     and a diaper change routine ; that'll teach ya ! they ask her the day of the week    her name what year it is    when is your birthday ? do you feel any pain ?    do you know where you are ? flailing in memory they just turn off the overheads   and let her settle into her senility attend to the physical basics whilst she's suckered into her own storage unit   operating like a humming fridge    with its door slight ajar     and the small hot bulb      finking on and winking off                       - perish well                         & in comfort Dear
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Mar 27, 2022
Mar 27, 2022 at 3:22 PM UTC
lights out (inpatient unit)
Let's offer up our prayers to a finicky Father who sits in his segregated heaven, rocking away senility on that rickety chair with a spare, tall back wrapped in striped wool blankets. Who sits in his segregated heaven, rocking? Our Father, keeping his heart warm against the gusts. With a spare, tall back wrapped in striped wool blankets perfectly square (but too small to share with others), our Father's keeping his heart warm. Against the gusts and idling time, again he stays busy carving figures perfectly square but too small to share. With others, these tokens will help the faithful remain fertile and idling. Time again, he keeps busy carving figures on the edges of a pesky map. Mad for expansion, these tokens will help the faithful. "Remain fertile!" Father cautions, as he watches a big screen TV. On the edges of a pesky map mad for expansion, many errant souls who wander are unable to hear Father's cautions. As he watches a big screen TV, the devil's slipping him a low-ball offer to buy many errant souls. Who wander are unable to hear news heaven's economy is still struggling, and the devil's slipping him. A low-ball offer to buy, our aging Father mulls over hot oatmeal and tea.
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Jun 10, 2010
Jun 10, 2010 at 6:21 PM UTC
Pantoum to an Aging Father
I've shut down so completely it's profound and I've now lost touch with reality What I want to be and what I'll never be eventually co-mingle and become one entity The blasphemy, the phony sanctimony and hypocrisy blast from me I try awkwardly to juggle all three, run 'em up the flag pole, wait and see Hear ye, hear ye...another blunder here for your amusement, come see Woe is me! An empty plea for pity ******* by a request to be put out of my misery It's plane to see, at least by me, that I'm my own worst enemy, I'm no friend to me Bad karma stacks rapidly atop the early onset of senility Losing my mind was an inevitability but that was my only company ...now it's only me... The notion that behind every smile you'll find your happy is, in it's self, a fallacy ©2023
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Dec 13, 2023
Dec 13, 2023 at 6:23 PM UTC
~•§•~ I'm No Friend to Me ~•§•~
Everyday I pass by the twin arcade Everyday I pass by the twin store But I never perceived the old man with his blue turban , with his credential, with his assign attire, checking the folio of every passerby But instantaneously, my eyes seize the eyes of the old man but he gyrate around He was white as the winter snowfall, He was cute as my Grandpa, He smiled with torment, He looked with keen eyes,      But I wondered why? In this hazy cloudy cover where the old man is waged I evoke the days of my mother barking to wake me up, but her utter ampthy of beholding me dormancy, let me took off from my phronthistery did someone showed the same affection to the old man I awe why he was working at this senility? I awe where was his progeny? I awe did they left him? I awe was he alone?                 I desire to blather with him and ask him to be my Grandpa But the old man was overshadowed with my beau tight embrace and I left the arcade but in a hankering to meet you again Grandpa
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Feb 19, 2016
Feb 19, 2016 at 2:38 PM UTC
The Old Man
An explosion of motion 
It is morning
 The day lies open 
Water runs between my claws 
I pretend I am the permeable colors of glacial melt
 Where I am distinctly heedful. No eyes. No hands 

 I want to be invisible; 
the lazy colors of gold and blue; unable to recall any identity or reality 
I can’t say why. Invisible hurts. Maybe its easier to feel the hurt of invisible but know that the struggle of existence will never be in me 

I’m sick at the prospect of a cage but it’s easier than freedom
 So I quietly dismantle myself during your sleep. I wait in my constraints for the machinery in your mouth to turn 
That sound is my cue. The only evidence I know 

Maybe I’d be good for a living hell; tied to the incessant bluster of gods with animals heads, munching holes in each others pale golden horns But the war is at a pause for now. The cavalcade is sitting down 
Is it still morning?
 I sleep to shelter my head. But good sleep never really comes

 The drop line reaches down my throat and hoists a voice 
How condemned I feel
 Condemned to action and reaction, burdened with contempt, choked by doubt, commanded to love 
How can I be, if I cannot know what I am? 
Why can’t I be invisible?
 Some enchanted morning senility will be upon me. And when my body begins to cool, let it be
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May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 4:27 PM UTC
Apprehension
I've seen... Many an egg dropped by the proverbial hen then egg becomes number through paper and pen then greed facilitates the perpetrators of this with ample incentive to young girls a kiss. Then kiss unexpectedly leads to *********** and the greedy ******* end with a non-legit son many of the girlies will attempt abortion but a few will not do as the ******* tell them. So the son soon and swiftly becomes an anomaly while it's elder brother says to daddy "are you proud of me" the oxbridge acceptance letter filled him up with glee but the dad knows secretly it's all to do with money. So the half witted son takes up the mantle of the father as senility and guilt have finally gripped the latter the son through drugs and experimentation is madder his social status dictates, he'll always climb the ladder. A few years pass, we're in different situation the son of senility has got grip o' the nation shaking wretched and archaic crumbling foundations, he's shaking the **** all over his poorer realtion. But the overgrown man-child doesn't know, that since he took power his brother sits in the cold, that with all the food he eats, he chews it real slow, so he can have food for longer, fill that hole. But does it make it all right at once, cuz he claims ignorance or should the people at the top be people from the bottom, the ones who looked up, but got nothing but trod on. It's impossible to relate, when you all dissipate, when your middle class darling, has a working class date. So the ******* child doesn't vote, through bedroom tax lost his home, Senile son?  Victory of note fake promises in the matriarchal dome. Apathy strikes again, this shit's impossible to defend, how can we justify not getting off our ***** not doing something about all this in the masses? oh yeah, that's right although barely know the people at the top, We've all seen their soles as they've trod on our lots
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Dec 31, 2014
Dec 31, 2014 at 9:29 AM UTC
Chronic Politics
I've seen... Many an egg dropped by the proverbial hen then egg becomes number through paper and pen then greed facilitates the perpetrators of this with ample incentive to young girls a kiss. Then kiss unexpectedly leads to *********** and the greedy ******* end with a non-legit son many of the girlies will attempt abortion but a few will not do as the ******* tell them. So the son soon and swiftly becomes an anomaly while it's elder brother says to daddy "are you proud of me" the oxbridge acceptance letter filled him up with glee but the dad knows secretly it's all to do with money. So the half witted son takes up the mantle of the father as senility and guilt have finally gripped the latter the son through drugs and experimentation is madder his social status dictates, he'll always climb the ladder. A few years pass, we're in different situation the son of senility has got grip o' the nation shaking wretched and archaic crumbling foundations, he's shaking the **** all over his poorer realtion. But the overgrown man-child doesn't know, that since he took power his brother sits in the cold, that with all the food he eats, he chews it real slow, so he can have food for longer, fill that hole. But does it make it all right at once, cuz he claims ignorance or should the people at the top be people from the bottom, the ones who looked up, but got nothing but trod on. It's impossible to relate, when you all dissipate, when your middle class darling, has a working class date. So the ******* child doesn't vote, through bedroom tax lost his home, Senile son?  Victory of note fake promises in the matriarchal dome. Apathy strikes again, this shit's impossible to defend, how can we justify not getting off our ***** not doing something about all this in the masses? oh yeah, that's right although barely know the people at the top, We've all seen their soles as they've trod on our lots
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Those who see her shall never again feel the warmth of Sun Bloodless she sits upon her obsidian throne in the palace Éljúðnir. Alone most always in her palace she sits It's walls are built of writhing, poisonous, black serpents They bite at those who must visit her causing no end of pain. No respite for the Murderers, thieves, and Oath-breakers as they build the great ship That shall one day carry her father the thief of Sif's golden hair; the evil Loki. She feeds her captives from a silver plate called Hunger Using her fork named Famine. Her daughter's name is Stupidity and her handmaiden is named Senility The threshold of her palace called Trickery! As a corpse she silently sits upon the throne Her left eye glowing green and her right eye deep crimson
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Apr 9, 2013
Apr 9, 2013 at 4:40 AM UTC
Hela
Mountain ranges evident on old coyote’s back Legs that buckle and mange standing on end Scrappy snarls and chattering clack Band weary of its brother, how moons expend Pushed from its den; old dog’s final indignity Young competitors keep ahead the pack What time will take; a brutal insistency For a dying dog cards be stacked Skinny whippy coyote your days complete Senility your friend and nothing you lack One last howls to death; a verse to meet When no moon in sight and all goes black
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Apr 17, 2016
Apr 17, 2016 at 5:55 AM UTC
Skinny Whippy Coyote
10,000 early morning muses but sometimes late at night he brings enough sun to make 1000 poems look easy he is the leaven to our loaves and the tequila to our margaritas positively positive he works through the dark of night to bring us light and for the full effect of his efficacy drink dark coffee first then sufficiently caffeinated awakened and ready to read put in the work to discover the words his encouraging words of life and maybe you’ll burn to earn a bonus of how to survive so very little sleep for me personally its more about the lines between the lines than those not spoken at all or written at all rather realized                                    if I were to focus on others half as much as he then maybe my life would be less miserably my own more jokes than yokes and less wails to no avails no non-satiated regrets or cratered frustration rather peace in a storm of senility he writes for us all with a message of hope like the god of HP he sees we are radiating rays positivity pointed one and all and all together at the same time toward heaven he moves freely amongst our home page from whence did he come? from the fourth dimension he brings forth conjuration his style is love his style is hope his style is empathy his style is encouragement his style is truly who he is he is an early morning beacon bewildering he comes from the east to rise across our browsers seeking the infection of discovery in each hissy fit writ we write
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Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 12:24 AM UTC
A Beacon from the East (for Nat)
10,000 early morning muses but sometimes late at night he brings enough sun to make 1000 poems look easy he is the leaven to our loaves and the tequila to our margaritas positively positive he works through the dark of night to bring us light and for the full effect of his efficacy drink dark coffee first then sufficiently caffeinated awakened and ready to read put in the work to discover the words his encouraging words of life and maybe you’ll burn to earn a bonus of how to survive so very little sleep for me personally its more about the lines between the lines than those not spoken at all or written at all rather realized                                    if I were to focus on others half as much as he then maybe my life would be less miserably my own more jokes than yokes and less wails to no avails no non-satiated regrets or cratered frustration rather peace in a storm of senility he writes for us all with a message of hope like the god of HP he sees we are radiating rays positivity pointed one and all and all together at the same time toward heaven he moves freely amongst our home page from whence did he come? from the fourth dimension he brings forth conjuration his style is love his style is hope his style is empathy his style is encouragement his style is truly who he is he is an early morning beacon bewildering he comes from the east to rise across our browsers seeking the infection of discovery in each hissy fit writ we write
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To that first strand of Grey.... That pointer to agedness. Bridge between cradle and grave. Fine line between ode and dirge. It is wisdom. It is senility. Subtle reminder to how on earth, we are briefly gorgeous. That first strand of grey. @incognitaio
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Mar 10, 2021
Mar 10, 2021 at 6:45 AM UTC
That First Strand of Grey
*Dragging my soul through the mud Alienating the spirit out in the cold No steps taken, Not even to think of it Countless attempts have been taken Mind foregoing experimental drugs A weeks worth of ****** Slapping myself in the face, regretlessly No control taken, Losing sight of reality Realms coming unreal Relentless faulty wire crossing the line Unattaching all emotion Unlatching all sympathy Disarming defenses Throwing the towel in on the offense Letting down all guard Forgetting all abilities Giving into senility Darkness draping over me Out of touch, Out of reach Returning to sender Zone unheard of Addressing the unknown Nailing shut the coffin Six foot under tow* Rusting In Pieces Dormant Grave Forgotten!
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May 31, 2010
May 31, 2010 at 12:35 PM UTC
Forgotten!
Old lady cradling a baby make it home "where did you get this baby " granny "nursery " the old lady note Solicitous for baby she hassle alot . Her senility got her sick She was frail as lamp for epoch Through the window , solos tot watched her fade away Fine morning she laid lifeless , leaving a note which elucidate "Care and water this little tree , it will bear my blessings for gen z "
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May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 1:39 PM UTC
Gen Z
The first kind of carnival I encountered besides at the county fair was a huge one on the far outer reaches of the North Bronx on the way to Yonkers and White Plains call Freedomland. I remember Disneyland and the black licorice drops there at the old time confectionary store. I hope to go to Disney World in my lifetime. AS far as a regular circus I went to one when I was on a locked ward (we were let out under supervision) at the Lyons New Jersey UAMC. I was so desperately feeling like a failure due to confinement, and felt such hopelessness, that I contemplated joining the circus as a roustabout, but it seemed futile in the big picture, after all, I felt because I'd just be going from the frying pan into the fire success or lack thereof wise. I think I noticed a certain clown looking at me out of the corner of his eyes and reading my mind there and letting me know I'd mad e the fright decision, and seeing a choice female acrobat stride by that reminded me that I wanted to start a family someday and stars of circuses are probably kept separate from the roustabouts. I can remember going to the Ringling Bros. and Barnum and Bailey circus with my mother as a kid and being thrilled at the taste of the cotton candy, the lion tamer doing his thing , the smell of the sawdust, and the ringmaster of that 3 ring circus and his whip. I was in awe. In the meantime I was going to local carnivals and trying my hand with the pellet gun shooting sitting ducks that passed by in front of the king in the hall of mirrors, and going on the roller coasters and the Ferris wheel. Later I went to the Barnum and Bailey circus as an adult and the trapeze artist, especially the female ones and , for example the parade of the Arabian horsed, thrilled me too. I also took my foster son to a carnival and the sorta juvenile delinquent erstwhile deprived kid-he was, I though. I got a thrill out of him seeming impressed. Enough of this, not that it's syrupy sentimentality, which I find enough in my poetry to have a sense of failure there but maybe kind of exercise in senility.
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Feb 16, 2017
Feb 16, 2017 at 1:42 PM UTC
Some Personal Memories of the Circus and Carnivals
The first kind of carnival I encountered besides at the county fair was a huge one on the far outer reaches of the North Bronx on the way to Yonkers and White Plains call Freedomland. I remember Disneyland and the black licorice drops there at the old time confectionary store. I hope to go to Disney World in my lifetime. AS far as a regular circus I went to one when I was on a locked ward (we were let out under supervision) at the Lyons New Jersey UAMC. I was so desperately feeling like a failure due to confinement, and felt such hopelessness, that I contemplated joining the circus as a roustabout, but it seemed futile in the big picture, after all, I felt because I'd just be going from the frying pan into the fire success or lack thereof wise. I think I noticed a certain clown looking at me out of the corner of his eyes and reading my mind there and letting me know I'd mad e the fright decision, and seeing a choice female acrobat stride by that reminded me that I wanted to start a family someday and stars of circuses are probably kept separate from the roustabouts. I can remember going to the Ringling Bros. and Barnum and Bailey circus with my mother as a kid and being thrilled at the taste of the cotton candy, the lion tamer doing his thing , the smell of the sawdust, and the ringmaster of that 3 ring circus and his whip. I was in awe. In the meantime I was going to local carnivals and trying my hand with the pellet gun shooting sitting ducks that passed by in front of the king in the hall of mirrors, and going on the roller coasters and the Ferris wheel. Later I went to the Barnum and Bailey circus as an adult and the trapeze artist, especially the female ones and , for example the parade of the Arabian horsed, thrilled me too. I also took my foster son to a carnival and the sorta juvenile delinquent erstwhile deprived kid-he was, I though. I got a thrill out of him seeming impressed. Enough of this, not that it's syrupy sentimentality, which I find enough in my poetry to have a sense of failure there but maybe kind of exercise in senility.
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All the delayed flights and missed connections everywhere. Making connections, breaking connections. A design against futility, still the wind. Kitchens I cooked in, trains I used to catch. All the nights I've set awake, martyred on some kind of watch. Taking directions, obeying erections. A design against senility, still the mind. Kittens I took in, dogs I once played fetch. All the dreams of the past's futures have lapsed and are dying. Failing selection, without objection. A design against responsibility, still the road. Cars I once drove in, land in one long stretch. All the roads and all the cities are being rebuilt and crumbling. Urban renewal, urban decay. A design against anarchy, still the man. Careers I worked in, living in one breath. All the ends of all the tales and all the heroes found their death. Poetic justice, blind justice. A design against God, still the law. Courts I appeared in, lawyer's corpse like stench. All the trees in all the hard places in between know what I mean. Natural selection, might is right. A design against Nature, still the way. Cartoons I once drew, laughing with my friends.
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Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
All the things
A pattern in dance to a soliloquy Yet like into the past lost in senility Caught in an impulse of rigidity Waiting to see your inner epitome Can you see the fertility abound  Can you see the reflection in Venus' mound Do you feel the words spoken are pretend Do you hear the thoughts they hide within Feel the fire to breathe the ashes Burn to reveal those darker passions Do not cry for the souls that never weep Clench your heart as the world crumbles beneath your feet Because while most things in life come from a dream It's the things we see when awake that make us scream!
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Feb 14, 2014
Feb 14, 2014 at 2:17 PM UTC
Feeling IS seeing
He went looking for Pace-Maker Mary and found her with Dollar Jane. Who’s to blame? She said it was none of his business She said she’ll see whom she pleases She said she was tired of men and especially tired of geezers. She said she wanted a new life one without the ****** It gave her the blues to be always in shoes that hurt her heels and sciatica. That it was nice for a change to be the one with the game the one who’s doing the chasing. And if that don’t sit she don’t care a bit now excuse me my Janey is waiting. But he’ll wait forever for Pace-Maker Mary however long it takes. He’ll bide his time until he finds the thing that makes her tick.
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Nov 22, 2014
Nov 22, 2014 at 11:58 AM UTC
"Love in the Time of Senility"