"nonesense" poems
It's the nonesense that haunts me. The bits drifting in that don't add up. I'm gagging on the bits, it's killing me.
I am all the far flung dreams in me, the hopes that drive the need in me, the need to wake. Motivated.
I'm draining out the ***** water, refilling from purer streams. I'm working my way from right to left, pulling levers. Pressure's building, dust sifting from my imagination. I'm driving myself forward, pain no longer a distraction. The bits of me not fitting, will be drifting. I'm moving off, sailing out into the galactic tide, all the valence specks, frozen in space.
I am an extension, the ultimate manifestation, the unending arm of the universe. I am the cosmic Katana.
Aug 19, 2010
Aug 19, 2010 at 9:35 AM UTC
There is no sense in this world anymore
I feel sore
Seeing people being all the same
It looks like I am to blame
Personality,
A word that doesn't exists in our dictionaries anymore
Creativity was pruned out
Like the hair on the soldier's head
Money is all they think about
I can't carry out
They are making insane
Making me not the same
Sep 20, 2013
Sep 20, 2013 at 3:48 PM UTC
Stay up late with me
and we can watch infomercials
about vacuum cleaners and miracle cures
and holy water.
And maybe if we are lucky we can
catch reruns of I Love Lucy and Happy Days
because those seem like better times.
Or just talk to me.
even if it is just nonesense.
I want to hear you talk
until I fall asleep.
Tomorrow we can go to the park and sit on a bench
in front of the lake and feed the ducks with
stale bread.
I like the picturesque and the late day sun
and the small things
because they aren't so small after all.
Not when you are with me.
How about we take a ride my old rusty car and
tune into the AM channels about politics
and ancient jazz and opera.
Let's brush off the cobwebs
and find what we are looking for.
It's the small things that are the biggest things.
Those moments in time that seem
like nothing.
They mean everything.
We gotta make it last because
forever isn't a thing.
Mar 2, 2016
Mar 2, 2016 at 7:24 PM UTC
Maybe I'm a nobody,
and everybody knows you.
Maybe I won't get far,
and you'll be famous
But you wont get there on wit.
Hey captain of the Barbie squad,
Did you bleach your hair?
Seems it comes with stupidity too
Miss know it all, but really doesn't
Brand name clothes?
They look expensive, oh dear
Is that a stain? Money wasted!
Still obsessing over your hair
In the bathroom mirror?
Did you see your boyfriend was cheating?
Oh wait, it was with me wasn't it?
Maybe you're that boring,
Same drama everday
"He said, she said" nonesense
So, miss I can do anything,
What happens when daddy's money fades?
Bills pile up?
So miss I can do anything,
Having fun being Queen now?
In the end you'll still be the same
Queen of the Brainless
Oct 19, 2011
Oct 19, 2011 at 8:54 PM UTC
Bus stop
Limp walk
Sick talk
Boys flop
Across
Seats shoes kick
Howlin kids
Tires stretch out
Yawning tourists
Backpacks full of nonesense
Hearts never make sense
In the heat of the worn day
Texting away
Blah blah blah about nothing
Wanting to feel important
But I'm poor
And I don't look like
A movie star
And that's all I c
What people want
But I'm worn out plaid
In a world of gold
And I don't care if they don't notice
That I appear to b broken
Unmarketable
Where do I fit
Inbetween limosines and slips
Sweatshops and ******
Lies of a world sold
Untold who speaks for me
Who speaks for me?
May 24, 2011
May 24, 2011 at 2:24 PM UTC
cold autumn waters
rushing its way
underneath my feet
weaving through
toe to toe
slicing
hacking its way
through the legs of my seat--
so naturally shining
the reflected beams
of sunlight
knew how to pick
which stream
of which inch
of which hairline
of the river
to show oh so clearly
straight into my eyes--
this was exactly how
i remembered
the words flowing
singing and dancing
all so merrily in my mind.
and yet
--silence--
i sit and stew
in the comfort of my room--
the fan spews nonesense
whispering frigid sweet nothings
it distracts me
so i turn it off.
the light shone too brightly
showing me far far too much
it annoys me
so i turned it down.
the natural sounds
the allure of the wild
the little chirps and peeps
and the babble of the brooks
i remember none of them
sounding like the clicks and clacks
that i hear with every press of my finger
and every character i delete
it discomforts me
i took a deep breath.
and another.
closing my eyes
i still saw a faint red through it's thin lid
i tried to picture
the same magical world
i used to write in
back when i was a bard
and everything
the light touches
would be my kingdom
my muse.
and i smiled...
all my vivid recollections
the people and worlds i breathed life to
the words that used to be so so alive
it all felt empty
so i opened my eyes
and tried to write again--
Jan 14, 2022
Jan 14, 2022 at 7:56 PM UTC
I love you.
But I shouldn't.
There is someone else
who makes me happier
than you ever did.
But
they don't have something
that you have.
Something special,
that made me want
to care for you
and forgive
even when you were
hurtful to me.
Something special,
that made me want to know
all of you,
that there was always something missing
in you
and I had to find it
somewhere.
I never saw your eyes.
I think they are grey
as you told me.
I wish I could see them.
It's been years since I've gazed
into your pool
of wonders
and horrors.
I heard your voice
barely.
If you count
distant words
spoken into cups,
with no string,
talking of nonesense things,
like how the wind
moves through the field
we sat together in once,
once.
I've known you
ever since we were toddlers.
About ten years now
but I feel like I don't even know you.
Every time we strike a conversation,
I get shy
timid
nervous
that I'll say something wrong
that'll make you leave me forever.
It makes me feel
like we are meeting for the first time.
Like we are falling in love
all over again.
I miss you.
My heart aches for you
so much.
Somedays not as bad.
And some
I can hardly take the pain.
Someday we will be together again.
And everything will work,
everything will fall into place
and we can be happy again.
There will be no 2000 miles
between us.
But we have to wait,
and I will wait
as long as it takes.
Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 11:02 PM UTC
Slowly moving far far away, away form here
to run to the air to leave the strangest kind Summer
The weight of your problems tapping, sinking into you
the sweet air is leaving fast
I'd fly away if you saw me here
somebody, the one not paying attention
is bothering you
because they are missing it all
Apr 13, 2016
Apr 13, 2016 at 5:44 AM UTC
I told myself I’d never fall in love again because it’s too **** painful
and I’m tired of explaining my soul to everyone because no one understands
and I wish to be loved
but I also wish that I were dead
and I’m sorry if this is too much to process and I’m sorry if I get caught up in all the nonesense
but unfortunately I’m human
and it’s all I can do
to survive.
I’m not enough and I’m sorry.
I’m broken and I’m sorry.
I’m sad and I’m sorry.
Maybe if I were different
maybe if I hadn’t done the drugs
maybe if I thought twice
before I first fell in love.
Maybe if she didn’t touch me
or maybe if he didn’t hurt me
then I wouldn’t be here.
But that’s not the case and I’m sorry.
I’m not enough and I’m sorry.
I’m still too much and I’m sorry.
Oct 20, 2020
Oct 20, 2020 at 10:47 PM UTC
electric
eccentric
satisfying
and quick
these four words
are all i can think
silent
violent
menacing
and ardent
four more words
as if its magic
added
faded
stranded
and nostalgic
random words
to add the nonesense
plain
feign
wandering
and distant
all these words is
how i short circuit.
Jul 8, 2023
Jul 8, 2023 at 9:45 AM UTC
Now i watch you twirling around
Your self esteem wont touch the ground
''Wow i look perfect just as always''
And i feel like strangling you just as always
But a mirror with no other job
I stay there watching you smile
not watching you sob
You're never exisiting pain
And your forever arrogance
Makes me want to watch you dance
on sweet sweet broken glass.
No respect
short little nonesense
As you think you're queen
But i am royal
and will remain forever so
I am the mirror
the torture of your soul.
Dec 13, 2013
Dec 13, 2013 at 9:27 AM UTC
Just love yourself, you know, but don't get cocky and save money so you don't starve on the streets but don't be such a ******* greedy ******* and walk with your shoulders straight for once in your life but stop striding around like you own the place, didn't I tell you to start saving money? But after you leave a tip; be frugal not cheap you say i love you much too fast i mean come on romeo and juliet just killed themselves isn't that complete nonesense and in the meantime try to let loose and stop stressing about what you eat i mean it's only food it's not an enemy and you never say you love us anymore and it's breaking our hearts one by one and you really need to be healthier I mean
i love you
and hope you live forever
but ******* will you eat something? You're just skin and bones and my gosh, you need to broaden your horizons but why do you think about all this weird stuff? you need to lighten up and READ more i mean there's so much out there
and why do you get hung up on the little stuff? I mean it's the little thngs that matter you need to set your priorities straight i hope you hate yourself as much as i hate you are you going out again i thought you said you didn't have friends when we said you needed to leave your **** room and by the way you need to stop suppressing other people's beliefs i mean diversity is our strength and you can't let other people tell you how to think and by the way will you stop being a ******* chauvinistic ********* i mean you can't treat people like that and you're probably racist whether you like it or not did i mention you need to eat more? because you're getting fat and you really need to watch your serving sizes but you know it's not how much you eat so much as what you eat and dear, please, that shirt cannot be worn with those pants, you're so adorable when you try to match like this and stop wearing the same two sweaters day in and day out like you're two halves of a mime trying to figure out how to be one.
Did I mention you look fat?
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 10:04 PM UTC
Words
Words.
Words.
Codes
Pick up on the pieces
But its nice to say nothing
Right now
Some hate me right now
Most love me conditionally
Sitting on the concrete
And my thoughts speak
So I stay silent
I treated my friends like kings
And I treated them like ****
I really dont know.
So Ill surrender up
And stay quite
Stay silent
No need to make meaning
And its not sadness
Its not happiness
I have nothing to say
Cause im numb
I did it
I made myself numb again
And all I hear is a soft guitar strum
Tum tum tum tum tum tum
Hovering over my manic and depressive thoughts
So I wont talk ...
And I know my family
Loves me
I know my baby cares
But I dont think they care about me
Or I dont care about me
And Ive lost myself in me
But there's no use of making meaning
So Ill stay quite
Ive been this way since 16
But lately ive been non-existent
And ive been to more places
Than I've dreamt
And Ive meet more people
And Ive done so many things
Ive dreamt i would do
But day and night
I keep stressing my mind
And theres no reason for it
Cause we will all die
That's why my memories are vague
My memory is our photo on instagram
Of the night I should havr fallen inlove
And he left me
And she left me
She knew me
And my life is ice cold
Under the snow
Burried in white
And I cant
Write words
I cant
I dont know how to make it better
Only worst
Watch the flame of my lighter
Light up over and over
Over and over
And theres nothing but void
On the glittering streets
On the flowers, on the trees
In my skin in my eyes
In the words you speak
I need some aliens to come and tell me the meaning of life
And answer all my whys
So for now
Ill stay quite
Cause words words
Those codes
Im over them.
So let's escalate our senses tonight
Are you crazy like me
Are u in pain like me ?
Let's make sense of it with extreme nonesense tonight
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 5:36 PM UTC
And after all this time I’m still imprisoned in the walls of a place I no longer consider home. Is there a safe haven for me somewhere? I believe so when I’m in your arms, but I can never stay. I want to drown in your loving words, suffocate in your love. I want those arms around me like the walls of a home, but I learnt a long time ago not to make a home out of a person, because people leave, and you’re left homeless.
Jun 25, 2013
Jun 25, 2013 at 3:18 PM UTC
Dear Chaos,
Hi.
I don't know how to start this because I'm sure this is going downhill from here,
But how are you?
I'm...coping.
There's this whirlwind going inside of my mind and All my insides are compelled on coming up,
Any minute now.
I'd ask if you'd lend me a hand but I know that whatever you touch, you're pledged to burn.
Sometimes I feel like that;
Anything my fingers come across,
The contents become ash
A figment of my imagination,
No longer present.
How is it that you're so used to the damage you create?
No matter how many times I ruin something,
This ache within me grows.
There's a hole in the center of my chest.
I think the void will swell and someday,
I'll disappear.
Chaos,
Why does it always seem like loneliness hangs onto me?
This weight that presses into my lungs makes it hard to breathe.
I lie there in my half filled bath tub and think about how it would be to drift through space.
There's this immense silence that I wish my mind would contain but I'm guessing it's used to the endless talks and gibbering of nonesense.
Chaos,
There's so much hurt...
Why can't you leave me alone?
Why can't something else clutch onto me and love me
Why does it have to be you?
Am I supposed to appreciate that I get loved by you, even though I slowly lose myself in this maze you've created inside my head?
Chaos...write me back.
Help me understand.
Yours truly,
Angel.
Aug 11, 2017
Aug 11, 2017 at 5:00 PM UTC
Voices I hear, so loud and clear,
For sure they're real, but yet to be seen
Regrets I made in life,
Sure they are lot,
But I can always grab a knife,
And pour my blood in a ***
Silence Silence Silence!
I just want peace in my head
Without any nonesense!
Or Conscience!
Just grab and hold on tight,
Because everything will
Be alright, tonight.
My bed of conscience I say to you,
Goodnight.
Mar 16, 2018
Mar 16, 2018 at 2:00 PM UTC
These thoughts
And endless memories
These demons
That scream out my name
These monsters
That always bring me pain
I have no heart
I lost it long ago
On an endless journey
Down the inescapable road
I saw many wonders
And wanderers too
I saw many creatures
All through this journey
Some seemed pleasant
But were wreaked with pain
Others who were dark
But the most glorious light hiding beneath
I've seen many monsters
Both big and small
And I have almost seen them all
Granted there a few who remain unknown
But these to only a few are shown
But that's another story altogether
Mine is just beginning so sit back and listen
This is my journey
Are u watching closer?
No of course not
Its an unimportant story and event
Its a meaningless matter
Just caught up in my brain
Right along next to the novacane
What a wonderful thing
Numbness is
What a wonderful desire
Lack of feeling brings
Its such a wonderful feeling
To feel nothing at all
If only your brain was just too small
You wouldn't understand what I'm trying to say
You wouldn't understand
Because of this exact way
Im saying all my words just right
So that only a few will be taken in the fright
But don't truly fear
Oh no my dear
For it is all over soon
Look I'll make you smile again
Have a balloon
There there now
That's much better
I told you dear
Tears only make you wetter
So do not cry
Don't let it out
Never seek a solitary corner whilst to pout
Put on the strong face
Make sure you don't brake
Crying is for the weak
Don't forget to be meek
But don't let it out
Don't let it show
Hiding is the name of this game
Oh deary, don't you want to play?
Its so much fun
Come come!
I'll teach you the right words to say
Oh **
You got it right
Its not the words you say
For there are none
You will never see the sun
It's my face you shall see
For together we are we
It is you and I
And now dear one time to die
Yes yes
Let's see those Ruby's run
Let's watch the red come forth to the sun
Oh my! This is such pleasure
This is such a desire
Don't you truly mind these words
Or this nonesense verse
Merely a lunatics craving
And a dead sailors raving
Do tell me if you understand my misbehaving.
Jul 19, 2017
Jul 19, 2017 at 2:43 PM UTC
Fellow lost soul
Share a flower-scented thought?
Or still bouncing through the dark
A hawk scaring off flocks?
The world creates peculiar friends
Difficult lessons to learn
But also bright lights
Third to the sun and the moon
Like writers and readers
Capable intimate exchange
Or fear-covered nonesense
With lies for truth's sake
Mar 30, 2016
Mar 30, 2016 at 10:54 PM UTC