"darkeness" poems
Falling,
Falling into the black.
I am encompassed by this darkeness.
It has dimmed the depths of my soul.
I have run,
and the further and further I go
I realize how I am achingly alone.
Fading away
Into the haze of bleakness.
Someone catch me!
I’m falling too fast.
I’m so afraid
That I’m not going to last.
Nov 1, 2022
Nov 1, 2022 at 8:56 PM UTC
As if the sun had rose for the first time
I witnessed the beauty of a day beckoning and bursting with light
Awakening and coaxing my feet
Urging me on
Dismissing the darkeness that once consumed and committed me
With open eyes the questions are endless and I realised how much of a child's mind
posesses my growing wit
I try to expell the corruption and injustice to breath freely if only for a moment
Craving the euphoria nature aptly offers free and full of grace
I ponder her deep waters and ceaseless wind
Trees like towers wave off and hypnotizes
Simplicity is now becoming a great friend
Taming my wild mind
I am clawing at temptation and I must force my will to break this
Who am I without this twisted warping sickeness
I try so hard to decipher this
but only time can reveal the true stasis
Aug 22, 2013
Aug 22, 2013 at 4:02 PM UTC
I can see cleary the scene where we first met
I feel the warmth of your smile
I hear the glee in your voice
I am entangled in the thought of you
And when I saw you walk towards me
I felt as if the heavens blessed me with an angel
And When I saw you walk past me, I knew I was only in your path.
I am entangled in the thought of you, and why I am unwanted.
I hear the silence in your void, your words are never for me.
I feel the darkeness settle over me again, where it always is.
I can see clearly the scene where we last met.
Discarded. Forgotten. Unwelcome. Me.
Sep 2, 2018
Sep 2, 2018 at 4:17 PM UTC
We all hurt
we have all tasted the dirt
We have all felt pain
No matter how little its all the same
Its not a competition
Its no ones ambition
Don't be upset because I have a sadder story
I don't do it for the glory
Did I forget to mention
its not about the attention
We need others to care
Not to compare
people need to feel
Before anyone will heal
Your pain is just the same as mine
You will understand in time
the darkeness will clear
until then I will always be here
To hold your hand in the dark
To show you how to find your spark
believe in your heart
Then begin a new start
Apr 24, 2014
Apr 24, 2014 at 9:40 AM UTC
Running
Fast considering the darkeness
What am I running from?
Not sure
And yet here I am
Up hill now...
I can see better
Moonlight creeps in through some breaks in the surrounding trees
A Demon Dog of the night jumps
out at me, moonlight reflecting off it's teeth
Gimlet colored eyes make my stomach drop
No.....No......No.......!
I wake up a minute before my alarm
Mar 14, 2015
Mar 14, 2015 at 9:30 AM UTC
A frozen day-- in Winters May,
No light in the horizon,
The darkeness knew it was the day,
Even now -- its like a posion -- eating, dying, going away.
A cold dark Winter's May,
Every day I just lay and lay,
The crack has sealed itself
The light is mourned-- it has dimmed itself
A cold dark Winters May,
The wind goes on so fickle
Time has been and passed -- day, by day, by day,
A sad, lonely, winters May...
Dec 13, 2010
Dec 13, 2010 at 3:51 AM UTC
the art i feel
is part of our daily
smart
to do it heart
we must start
realising
light
is part
bright
and part
might
darkeness
to it
guises
and starks
empty comes
out white
the two do not right
speechless is swiped.
Nov 15, 2013
Nov 15, 2013 at 5:48 AM UTC
What a strange feeling
it is to want to die
The joyous surround
always wondering why
someone would refuse
to just choose
happiness
As if this feeling
can be simply
harnessed
Like a mutt on a leash
Easily controlled
Always obeying the
commands it is told
Instead I feel despair
While others say
if I'm just grateful
for each and every day
then somehow I'll be cured
Which is like saying
if a man who's been laying
paralysed in bed
would thank God he has legs
then he'd be walking instead
People look at the
smile on my face
but they'll never know
how much practice it takes
to feel yourself break
drowning
in your own tears
that you hide in fear
from those who would ask
"What's wrong with you?"
while keeping that
super-glued
lie smothered across your face
Because if you tell them
the truth
That you just don't know what
to do
about the emptiness
and the darkeness
How getting through
every day
feels like you haven't slept
and you're starved to death
but you have to run
a race
And what's funny is that
you really are tired
and you never want to eat
Or maybe you can't stop
But if someone asked you
to run a race
you'd stare at them and laugh
in their face
Because you can't even
get out of bed.
So when a best friend's boyfriend
got down on one knee
As much as I wanted to feel it
I couldn't feel happy
So I put on my mask
and played the part
of the ecstatic friend
while holding my heart
to keep it from bleeding
Because blood would show
and no one could know
They wouldn't understand
why
I was feeling so low
that I wanted to
die.
Oct 5, 2014
Oct 5, 2014 at 3:51 PM UTC
here is a darkeness i cannot hide
a fear about to colide
a worry thats eatin me
my darkness its so in me
Can feel it in my bones
its drooling of holding home
I can taste it when I breath
taste the darkness thats feeding me
I look and see it there awaiting and not a care
It wants me ..wants me now
The darkness about in devour
my soul repels yet darkness holds
down and down I fall
Feb 11, 2011
Feb 11, 2011 at 6:42 AM UTC
Four years ago I chanced upon Colorado.
Only then, did I realize how my life could change,
Realize how to truly love, loving everyone and loving right.
I saw mountains, rivers, and people who changed the course of my life. Only now am I headed down a different path.
A new person I became until I met him, from Colorado as well.
Maybe he was different and right, truly right, truly lovely.
Colored winds and beating trails is
How I lived for one week
And never again could I return to my old self;
Never again would I accept loneliness as a friend,
Grasp tightly to the darkeness, or
Engage in affairs that I need not be tangled in.
Daring to change, daring to love, daring to greet the new me with open arms.
Jun 26, 2013
Jun 26, 2013 at 3:32 PM UTC
Flesh of a lonely man
Needs make up
Wreaths on this list coming
Crossing out and ticking the boxes
We’re still holding the dust of souls
And ashen glances look like desultory glances
****** on the nursed streets
The streetlit howling winds can fly out of educated lives
We are only left educated minds changing their ways and stealing cigarettes
Feigining for the father figure
I hope we have had a good time
The night’s brighter with the vivid growth of the undernelly
Knell bells tolling, killing the bleeding
Sojourn the dress, and adjourn th court
Red crimson tresses sense the mallet of sentences marking forever
Those worst worshipping travelers of trafficking
Altruist, my forefathers are looking at us like it’s now or never
The darkeness is inevitable, but, the tunnel runs out with indomitable spirit stealing glances from the Gods of religions so decrepit
I had my luck in my pocket from these corrupt politicians, and reiterated that I’d run and reign and then run
Like the apoplectic season of the monsoons, teaming up either way
Aug 17, 2019
Aug 17, 2019 at 7:41 PM UTC
As I sit on my porch on the first mornings light,
the darkenss still creeping in.
As I watch the first mornings life, I can not help but wonder...
the birds sing their mornings hello and all I hear is your silence
Silence so loud
Slence so quiet
Darkeness surrounds the silence
but yet I must move on
hoping to one day hear the first mornings life
feel the first mornings sun say hello....
Aug 3, 2010
Aug 3, 2010 at 5:52 AM UTC
A world of silence
A place where she could express her insanity
A corner where loneliness became her friend
None could make sense
From the art she made through the blood which was shed
For all failed to see
The pain behind her eyes
Expressing her life
Like a blooming flower of a million colours
Revealing the beauty of her scars uncovering her past
All failed to see
For they were blinded by pride
Alone she remained with her solitary yet dark soul
A place where she sought for peace and found a solace.
Aug 7, 2017
Aug 7, 2017 at 3:20 AM UTC
Your sun on my breast
2 glasses of tequila,
After we put him to bed...
Herbal wrapped in tobacco then tucked in paper.
Hits smoother than you in your prime.
I'm high in no time.
Tryna school the NWA on chakras, intimacy, & community.
I can tell you're fantasizing what you want to do to me.
I want to want you like you want me
I'm aware that it's unhealthy.
So I locked my womb & swallowed the key.
Blessed the bottle with my touch, glasses clank, & our fingers touch.
Grape seed Oil & Mango scent
Massaging you with great intent.
You love me now & I am content
Your phone rings & now I'm on ********
Call me jealous, I call me hurt.
You massage my back & I can tell you feel lucky
I can tell you still love me
& I love me too
So ******** , like I once loved you.
Both wondering how we got back here, as we lay in each other's arms.
My intuition alarmed but I'm in control. I am forgiving , I am alive, sacredly living.
It's you who be haunted. It's you who try flaunting.
I see right through you like crystal waterfalls
I stand in the water , as you reach a hand through from the hidden cave
Around you, vast darkeness that can't be explained
You try to pull me in with your rage
But nevermore will I tolerate child's play
Naked
I walked away
These last shots we took,
Made me bulletproof.
Oct 31, 2017
Oct 31, 2017 at 12:26 AM UTC
It’s getting kinda late
The sun is gone for the day
The tides grow fonder of the darkeness
Waiting for their Queen to rise
Send me to the moon
At least I’ll be happy there
I try to forget this growing worry
That the Earth will end soon
Should I panic or should I ride this storm
No one ever told me
The world could be so cold
I wish I could turn time
And live the good days
Sunsets, Moonlights
Sunrise, it’s all fine
At least it was a good life
Can you return to me
Because I need your warmth
Please return to me
Because I miss your energy
You’re my beam of light
In this rather dull life
You’re what keeps me going
You’re what makes me feel right
Fill my heart with joy
Even if it’s just for a second
Stare into my eyes
And wipe away my tears
Look into my soul
And you’ll find me,
In the deepest part of space
I never felt like I belonged
I was always felt out of place
I entered the plane one day
But it feels like I never left
I never saw the change
But as time passes
So will I and so will you
It’s getting kinda late
But the Sun will return soon
Dec 20, 2020
Dec 20, 2020 at 9:07 PM UTC
Its not always what we planned or thought it would be, but its what we got and sometimes when the darkeness fades, it's golden and it's greater than we expected.
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 12:15 AM UTC
Suicide this, suicide that
all I hear is how they know it
how much knowledge they can tell
because they have the purpose to say it
and their commentaries of hate
Did you know?
Do you know?
How it felt when the voices
when their words are on repeat
and my soul made up of paper
is scribbled by ***** names
When the darkeness is my lover
and it embraces me with hate
no place to run to
no person to care
All I could do is be in a corner
I sat and rocked myself to sleep
hoping the scary lullabies
will give me a little peace
It hurts. Did you know
My head hurts with all I'm thinking
and my resolve is frozen in
I was touched by coldness of a monster
but I found a warmth instead
for it gave me a little vision
that everything will end
That is suicide, it is self-free
a one way road to run to
if the void inside ablaze
and yes, maybe it is selfish
but let me think and breathe
for many years I have been fighting
don't I have a right to wish?
for all the pain to be over
for a freedom to embrace
Did you know?
Do you know?
Suicide this, suicide that
Stop. Stop your happy endings
there is no cure to my self-hate
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 9:42 AM UTC
I keep on falling
Falling out of sunshine
I found the darkeness
It all surrounded
And I started falling
Toward the hole
Downard spiraling
I heard you call me
But I was falling out
Falling out of sunshine
Into fault
Everything I wanted
Got someone else
As I was falling
Falling out
And Everyone saw me
Hit the ground
Now I'm crawling
In and out
Of darkness
With no one around
I
keep
crawling
For
Some way out
I keep falling
Falling out of sunshine
Into hell
And I'm burning
Miserable
All I wanted
Was your help
You gave me an apple
And I fell
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 5:08 AM UTC
Seeping through the open door,
Crawling along the ground until it reaches the wall,
A black figure sneaks,
It tilts its head,
Watching,
The figure creeps closer,
Reaching the edge of your bed,
Grabbing you,
It pulls you into the darkness.
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 9:27 AM UTC