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Kamusta kana? Ilang taon na ang nagdaan nuong ika'y aking nakilala. Mahigit kumulang na rin ang luhang lumabas sa aking mga mata Nuong ako'y iniwan **** nag-iisa. Nuon pag ika'y naaalala nagwawala dahil sa nadarama. Ngayon ako'y napapangiti na lamang sa twina. Akala ko dati ay di ko makakaya, ngunit heto unting unting sumasaya kahit wala ka. Mahirap sa umipsa, Pero nakaya Mahirap sa umpisa, oo Parang nilibing at hinampas ng troso. Ako'y litong lito hindi alam kung bakit ganito Kung bat nilisan mo... "Sana pala pinigilan kita para ngayon para ika'y kasama parin at nasa tabi ko padin." Yan ang aking hiling sa unang linggong ika'y hindi kapiling. Ako'y humihiling sa bituin na sana ika'y bumalik sa akin Ngunit tila ba'y hangin ang sumagot at hindi ako pinansin. Mahal wag mag-alala kasi kaya ko na ang mag-isa at wala ka. Mas malakas na ako kaysa sa dating nakilala mo. Hindi na ako umiiyak pagnag-iisa Mas kaya ko na. Alam mo minsan ang ang tanong sa sarili ko "paano kaya ikaw parin ay nandito?" "Magiging kompleto kaya ang araw ko?" Pero ang sagot ng isip at puso "Mas mabuting ika'y nilisan kaysa minahal sa kasinungalingan. Naging malakas ka nang ikaw ay iniwan. Naging makata ka paminsan minsan." Kaya alam ko sa sarili na mas maayos na na ako'y iyong binabayaan Pero mas masaya at buo parin ang aking puso kong hindi mo iniwan sa kadiliman. Sana, iyong malaman na ika'y aking minahal ng lubusan, "Huwag **** pabayaan ang iyong kalusugan" Aking huling habilin bago ka lumisan. Tinanong ko parin ang aking sarili minsan, "Ako ba'y may pagkukulang? O sadyang ako lang ang nagmahal sa aming pag-iibigan?" Maraming tanong ang tumatakbo sa aking isipan pag alaala ay naalala paminsan-minsan. Ngunit lahat ng yon ay di mo masasagot at aking  na lamang dinagdag sa tulaan. Lahat na ata'y aking nakwento sa tulang ito. Ito, itong tula na ito ang tanging paraan upang malaman mo Ang pagdurusang pinagdaanan ko nang mawala ka sa piling ko. Ang mga pangakong binitawan mo para bang naglaho Pero kahit masakit ang ginawa mo Hindi kita masisisi sa pagkukulang nagawa ko Hindi ko masisi ang tadhana kung hindi tayo para sa dulo. Kahit na ganito, ikaw ang nagparamdaman ng pagmamahal Kaya hindi ko kita malimut-limutan kahit tila ba'y ako ay sinasakal. Sadyang ikaw lamang ay minahal kahit na isang malaking sampal na ako'y iyong iniwang luhaan at puso'y nagdurugo sa daan na kahit pa'y ikaw ay may iba ng mahal kahit pa na naubusan na ang luha at letra sa aking isipan. At heto ako ipinagdiriwang ang ating kaarawan kung saan nagsimula ang ating pagmamahalan. Sana'y iyong malaman, na ako'y hindi nakakalimot sa ating tagpuan at mga kasiyahan. Sana rin iyong malaman, ang pangalan ng ating anghel ay Adrian.
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Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 1:31 PM UTC
ADRIAN
Kamusta kana? Ilang taon na ang nagdaan nuong ika'y aking nakilala. Mahigit kumulang na rin ang luhang lumabas sa aking mga mata Nuong ako'y iniwan **** nag-iisa. Nuon pag ika'y naaalala nagwawala dahil sa nadarama. Ngayon ako'y napapangiti na lamang sa twina. Akala ko dati ay di ko makakaya, ngunit heto unting unting sumasaya kahit wala ka. Mahirap sa umipsa, Pero nakaya Mahirap sa umpisa, oo Parang nilibing at hinampas ng troso. Ako'y litong lito hindi alam kung bakit ganito Kung bat nilisan mo... "Sana pala pinigilan kita para ngayon para ika'y kasama parin at nasa tabi ko padin." Yan ang aking hiling sa unang linggong ika'y hindi kapiling. Ako'y humihiling sa bituin na sana ika'y bumalik sa akin Ngunit tila ba'y hangin ang sumagot at hindi ako pinansin. Mahal wag mag-alala kasi kaya ko na ang mag-isa at wala ka. Mas malakas na ako kaysa sa dating nakilala mo. Hindi na ako umiiyak pagnag-iisa Mas kaya ko na. Alam mo minsan ang ang tanong sa sarili ko "paano kaya ikaw parin ay nandito?" "Magiging kompleto kaya ang araw ko?" Pero ang sagot ng isip at puso "Mas mabuting ika'y nilisan kaysa minahal sa kasinungalingan. Naging malakas ka nang ikaw ay iniwan. Naging makata ka paminsan minsan." Kaya alam ko sa sarili na mas maayos na na ako'y iyong binabayaan Pero mas masaya at buo parin ang aking puso kong hindi mo iniwan sa kadiliman. Sana, iyong malaman na ika'y aking minahal ng lubusan, "Huwag **** pabayaan ang iyong kalusugan" Aking huling habilin bago ka lumisan. Tinanong ko parin ang aking sarili minsan, "Ako ba'y may pagkukulang? O sadyang ako lang ang nagmahal sa aming pag-iibigan?" Maraming tanong ang tumatakbo sa aking isipan pag alaala ay naalala paminsan-minsan. Ngunit lahat ng yon ay di mo masasagot at aking  na lamang dinagdag sa tulaan. Lahat na ata'y aking nakwento sa tulang ito. Ito, itong tula na ito ang tanging paraan upang malaman mo Ang pagdurusang pinagdaanan ko nang mawala ka sa piling ko. Ang mga pangakong binitawan mo para bang naglaho Pero kahit masakit ang ginawa mo Hindi kita masisisi sa pagkukulang nagawa ko Hindi ko masisi ang tadhana kung hindi tayo para sa dulo. Kahit na ganito, ikaw ang nagparamdaman ng pagmamahal Kaya hindi ko kita malimut-limutan kahit tila ba'y ako ay sinasakal. Sadyang ikaw lamang ay minahal kahit na isang malaking sampal na ako'y iyong iniwang luhaan at puso'y nagdurugo sa daan na kahit pa'y ikaw ay may iba ng mahal kahit pa na naubusan na ang luha at letra sa aking isipan. At heto ako ipinagdiriwang ang ating kaarawan kung saan nagsimula ang ating pagmamahalan. Sana'y iyong malaman, na ako'y hindi nakakalimot sa ating tagpuan at mga kasiyahan. Sana rin iyong malaman, ang pangalan ng ating anghel ay Adrian.
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The African American Blonde Bombshell on ya TV screen. It is I, ya younger victim of the bullying you caused me to suffer in our younger years together and now I am the #WCW on ya Twitter, Facebook and Instagram. She's bad huh. Too bad you lost ya chance with her and if only you knew her top secret. Maybe I should give u a chance to apologize and give me the love and respect you wouldn't give Adrian. Now that I am Alexis you want to cater to me and get my ******* down to my ankles. You want me to be ya main chick and you wanna put a ring on it. Well little do you know I am the Transgendered Barbie I always wanted to be. Oh now your surprised. Didn't know I was born a man.......or should I say your punching bag because you loved to use me to hide your real sexuality. Now the jokes on you.
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May 20, 2015
May 20, 2015 at 10:18 PM UTC
She: Transgendered Barbie
____THEY___would EACH day take the ROLL CALL ! !...iT WENT LIKE THIS= *GERRY GIRAFFE="here sir", *SHARON SNAIL= "here sir", *SIDNEY SNAKE= "here sir", *DIANNE DEER= "here sir", *HERMAN HIPPO= "here sir", *FRANCES FOX= "here sir", ....AND it seemed like the list went on "FOREVER"! ! There were not Hundreds,, thousands or Millions ,,, BUT *HUNDREDS of Millions who were on the ROLL CALL List ! Many often Wondered , How Long would it take to complete the *ROLL ?? Many often Wondered ,, Would They be on the List ?? EACH=TIME a ROLLCALL* was answered ,, Another would wait in Heated Anticipation ! ! NO ONE HERE,,,Knows for sure, When the Exact Moment of the * ROLL CALL* Started,, but= it is SURELY known for fact,, EVERYONE WANTS TO BE ON "THE" LIST ! ! Some may deny the need for the List, Some May doubt the Existence of the LIST, Some may say "WHY EVEN HAVE alist ?" Some say "EVOLUTION" has brought us here ! ! Some not Understanding ,have SHED MANY A TEAR>> *LEONARD LION="here sir", *ADRIAN ANTELOPE= "here sir", *RONALD ROACH= "here sir", *MAUDE MOOSE= "here sir", ... THEY STAND IN AMAZEMENT as they see what looks like Surrender,, Have Feared for their VERY EXISTENCE,,, Looking around in AWE,, EACH SIGHING for the Sorrow in Others Hearts , ....BUT STILL THEY ASK ?? 'W H Y THE ROLL=CALL? > *BERRY BEETLE="here sir", *CAROL CROAKER = "here sir", >> THE ROLL CALL does continue this very moment! ! AND......is promised "TO GO ON" til the " GREAT-GATHERING"...>*FLOYD FLOUNDER= "here sir", ZELDA ZEBRA="here sir",....... the list IS STILL BEING CALLED AS "W E S P E A K "...simply waiting FOR the Gathering,, AND______the "calling " OF their NAME on the * ROLL-CALL*"
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Dec 17, 2010
Dec 17, 2010 at 4:05 AM UTC
* " ROLL CALL "* (#43)
____THEY___would EACH day take the ROLL CALL ! !...iT WENT LIKE THIS= *GERRY GIRAFFE="here sir", *SHARON SNAIL= "here sir", *SIDNEY SNAKE= "here sir", *DIANNE DEER= "here sir", *HERMAN HIPPO= "here sir", *FRANCES FOX= "here sir", ....AND it seemed like the list went on "FOREVER"! ! There were not Hundreds,, thousands or Millions ,,, BUT *HUNDREDS of Millions who were on the ROLL CALL List ! Many often Wondered , How Long would it take to complete the *ROLL ?? Many often Wondered ,, Would They be on the List ?? EACH=TIME a ROLLCALL* was answered ,, Another would wait in Heated Anticipation ! ! NO ONE HERE,,,Knows for sure, When the Exact Moment of the * ROLL CALL* Started,, but= it is SURELY known for fact,, EVERYONE WANTS TO BE ON "THE" LIST ! ! Some may deny the need for the List, Some May doubt the Existence of the LIST, Some may say "WHY EVEN HAVE alist ?" Some say "EVOLUTION" has brought us here ! ! Some not Understanding ,have SHED MANY A TEAR>> *LEONARD LION="here sir", *ADRIAN ANTELOPE= "here sir", *RONALD ROACH= "here sir", *MAUDE MOOSE= "here sir", ... THEY STAND IN AMAZEMENT as they see what looks like Surrender,, Have Feared for their VERY EXISTENCE,,, Looking around in AWE,, EACH SIGHING for the Sorrow in Others Hearts , ....BUT STILL THEY ASK ?? 'W H Y THE ROLL=CALL? > *BERRY BEETLE="here sir", *CAROL CROAKER = "here sir", >> THE ROLL CALL does continue this very moment! ! AND......is promised "TO GO ON" til the " GREAT-GATHERING"...>*FLOYD FLOUNDER= "here sir", ZELDA ZEBRA="here sir",....... the list IS STILL BEING CALLED AS "W E S P E A K "...simply waiting FOR the Gathering,, AND______the "calling " OF their NAME on the * ROLL-CALL*"
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Peter got a sandwich for you. mama went shopping , Gabriel needs a carwash, Cristen choked on his ***** , Iris sailed the oceans, Blake died of ennui. Martha blew her neighbour, Adrian stole her ******* Beth went out of liquor, Walter cooked a new batch. Marla is a ****** Gambit dealt a new pack. And so and so they pass by All these million names. Who cares to blink twice At a facecless face? And then came eh...! wry dry, Dont **** Me, " ... " I can't even Say his name. It's like this name Blew my heart out with a shotgun right through my rib cage. And these are the names Which pierce your heart And make you breathless Because they hold stories That you always hid in darkness. And You have skeletons In your Closet Like thats not enough To give you the brain flu! But the salt on the wound Is that- so does your wife, Your mistress, And everyone around you. (gunshot)
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Apr 6, 2014
Apr 6, 2014 at 7:00 AM UTC
Eh ! Wry dry Don't **** Me
Animula! vagula, Blandula, Hospes, comesque corporis, Quæ nunc abibis in Loca— Pallidula, rigida, nudula, Nec, ut soles, dabis Jocos? TRANSLATION. Ah! gentle, fleeting, wav’ring Sprite, Friend and associate of this clay! To what unknown region borne, Wilt thou, now, wing thy distant flight? No more with wonted humour gay, But pallid, cheerless, and forlorn.
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Adrian’s Address To His Soul When Dying
Nails the length of javelins click on countertop with the speed of a coked-up woodpecker as this goddess of the night with bullets of caked foundation sweating from her forehead awaits her fifth free Long Island of the night. Safe to say, she's a little high maintenance, like all treasured centerpieces of a local museum deserve to be. She is your generation's Mona Lisa, trust. Her sneezes will be dissected for coding. Like the rust on buried Babylonian armor, she lives sandwiched between myth and reality. A Frankenstein of queer iconography, door-knocker earrings designed by Adrian. Stilts for heels clack on blinking dancefloor, balancing a hermaphroditic echo that charges through hieroglyphic binaries with a four-on-the-floor precision.
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May 10, 2014
May 10, 2014 at 8:20 PM UTC
Goldyn Dylicious
Si può o non può avere sentito un po 'di qualcuno di nome Kelly Clarkson sono sposati lo scorso fine settimana .E il suo matrimonio?Total .TOTALE .Svenire .Le nostre LBBers talento ultra dietro Archetype Studio Inc. ha fatto gli onori di catturare il giorno e stanno dando a noi anatre poco fortunati una sbirciatina a tutti la bella . e dire la verità .un piccolo sguardo a Tennessee fattoria matrimonio di Kelly è tutto quello che dobbiamo sapere che siamo con tutto il cuore in amore .Non siete d'accordo ? Fotografia : Archetype Studio Inc. | Abito da sposa: " Jessamine " by Temperley London | Anelli : Johnathon Arndt | capelli: Robert Ramos | Vestito dello sposo : John Varvatos | Fascia : Maria Elena | Trucco : Ashley Donovan | Stylist : Steph Ashmore| Luogo: Blackberry Farm Prima di testa fuori nel fine settimana .abbiamo pochi vincitori super speciale ! Emily R abiti da sposa 2014 portato a casa un paio di Wedgewood Vera **** abiti da sposa 2014 Amore Nodi tostatura flauti da Secrets abiti da sposa corti Puerto Los Cabos Golf \u0026Spa Resort !Woohoo! E complimenti a Fiona McGregor \u0026Nick Connellan .che hanno vinto una sessione impegno libero da Adrian Tuazon Fotografia ! Buon fine settimana !xoxo SMPTemperley London è un membro del nostro Look Book .Per ulteriori informazioni su come vengono scelti i membri .fare clic qui .Archetype Studio e Adrian Tuazon Fotografia sono membri del nostro Little Black Book .Scopri come i membri sono scelti visitando la nostra pagina delle FAQ .Archetype Studio Inc. vedi portfolio Adrian Tuazon Fotografia VIEW http://www.belloabito.com/abiti-da-sposa-2014-c-13 http://188.138.88.219/images_ld/td//t35/product_thumb/1/4173335353535_396812.jpg http://www.belloabito.com/goods.php?id=855
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Jul 20, 2014
Jul 20, 2014 at 9:24 PM UTC
Nozze di Kelly Clarkson - A Sneak Peak_vestiti da sposa
Si può o non può avere sentito un po 'di qualcuno di nome Kelly Clarkson sono sposati lo scorso fine settimana .E il suo matrimonio?Total .TOTALE .Svenire .Le nostre LBBers talento ultra dietro Archetype Studio Inc. ha fatto gli onori di catturare il giorno e stanno dando a noi anatre poco fortunati una sbirciatina a tutti la bella . e dire la verità .un piccolo sguardo a Tennessee fattoria matrimonio di Kelly è tutto quello che dobbiamo sapere che siamo con tutto il cuore in amore .Non siete d'accordo ? Fotografia : Archetype Studio Inc. | Abito da sposa: " Jessamine " by Temperley London | Anelli : Johnathon Arndt | capelli: Robert Ramos | Vestito dello sposo : John Varvatos | Fascia : Maria Elena | Trucco : Ashley Donovan | Stylist : Steph Ashmore| Luogo: Blackberry Farm Prima di testa fuori nel fine settimana .abbiamo pochi vincitori super speciale ! Emily R abiti da sposa 2014 portato a casa un paio di Wedgewood Vera **** abiti da sposa 2014 Amore Nodi tostatura flauti da Secrets abiti da sposa corti Puerto Los Cabos Golf \u0026Spa Resort !Woohoo! E complimenti a Fiona McGregor \u0026Nick Connellan .che hanno vinto una sessione impegno libero da Adrian Tuazon Fotografia ! Buon fine settimana !xoxo SMPTemperley London è un membro del nostro Look Book .Per ulteriori informazioni su come vengono scelti i membri .fare clic qui .Archetype Studio e Adrian Tuazon Fotografia sono membri del nostro Little Black Book .Scopri come i membri sono scelti visitando la nostra pagina delle FAQ .Archetype Studio Inc. vedi portfolio Adrian Tuazon Fotografia VIEW http://www.belloabito.com/abiti-da-sposa-2014-c-13 http://188.138.88.219/images_ld/td//t35/product_thumb/1/4173335353535_396812.jpg http://www.belloabito.com/goods.php?id=855
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It was threatening rain for a week or more It was always threatening rain, The Weather Bureau was always sore When the threatening rain never came. We’d hold an open air barbecue Each time they said it would come, ‘Hey it’s gonna rain,’ said Oliver Payne, ‘What do they think, we’re dumb?’ But the Bureau Chief, one Adrian Reef Said he was sick to the core, Why wouldn’t the weather behave itself Like it had done before, ‘It’s making us look like a laughing stock,’ He bitterly said to Jane, ‘I want you to ring up the airport now And charter a small, light plane,’ He loaded the plane up with dry ice And a generous load of salt, And lugged along an elephant gun, The plane took off with a jolt, He peppered the clouds with ice that day, He put his job on the line, The last thing he wanted to have to say: ‘The weather is going to be fine.’ And down on the ground at the barbecue We were sizzling snags and steak, Having an ice cold beer or two And trying to stay awake. The sultry weather was drowsy then We’d heard the report, in vain, But just when the steaks were nicely done It came down, bucketing rain. We didn’t have time to pack it up, We couldn’t save snags or steak, In only a couple of minutes there We were staggering round in a lake, And Oliver’s esky floated away With the rest of the beer we’d bought, While we took shelter as best we could Under cover of Maggie’s porch. The water rose right up to our knees, Our cars were afloat that day, The chickens drowned and the old hearth hound Was found seven miles away, While on the Teev was the Bureau Chief With a grin that was not quite sane, He knew he’d won with his elephant gun, ‘The sky is threatening rain!’ David Lewis Paget
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Jan 9, 2015
Jan 9, 2015 at 2:04 PM UTC
Threatening Rain
It was threatening rain for a week or more It was always threatening rain, The Weather Bureau was always sore When the threatening rain never came. We’d hold an open air barbecue Each time they said it would come, ‘Hey it’s gonna rain,’ said Oliver Payne, ‘What do they think, we’re dumb?’ But the Bureau Chief, one Adrian Reef Said he was sick to the core, Why wouldn’t the weather behave itself Like it had done before, ‘It’s making us look like a laughing stock,’ He bitterly said to Jane, ‘I want you to ring up the airport now And charter a small, light plane,’ He loaded the plane up with dry ice And a generous load of salt, And lugged along an elephant gun, The plane took off with a jolt, He peppered the clouds with ice that day, He put his job on the line, The last thing he wanted to have to say: ‘The weather is going to be fine.’ And down on the ground at the barbecue We were sizzling snags and steak, Having an ice cold beer or two And trying to stay awake. The sultry weather was drowsy then We’d heard the report, in vain, But just when the steaks were nicely done It came down, bucketing rain. We didn’t have time to pack it up, We couldn’t save snags or steak, In only a couple of minutes there We were staggering round in a lake, And Oliver’s esky floated away With the rest of the beer we’d bought, While we took shelter as best we could Under cover of Maggie’s porch. The water rose right up to our knees, Our cars were afloat that day, The chickens drowned and the old hearth hound Was found seven miles away, While on the Teev was the Bureau Chief With a grin that was not quite sane, He knew he’d won with his elephant gun, ‘The sky is threatening rain!’ David Lewis Paget
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and you said:  "I hope you like chocolate." (sonnet  #MMMMMMCCCLI) I've not had choclate, nor a taste, in pale Excuse, for that in days, perhaps cuz hence You called yourself that, and my hunger thence Was only for whom stole aught else, t'avail Me of:  just you.  And oh! how that detail In lieu of packaged squares, eats me and sense Out of both home and hearth, ne crumb to fence The **** is't? yet smudges in betrayl. Oh, Adrian!  There I must leave off.  Were-- What?  Savour ah, minutest crumbs, roll too Across your tongue that darkest morsel your Soul yields itself up to, and ah, foil to Glint, crinkle, tease, nor but in silver tour Hold lo, exquisite heights:  what's I love you? 17May17a
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May 18, 2017
May 18, 2017 at 12:16 AM UTC
I'm NOT Arguing Lindt Now, Can't.
If we do not inhabit our verses, what is the use of writing? Eminescu, Rilke, Byron and Mandelstam succeeded. Grapes squeezed in a timepress. If we are not alive in our images what remains of poets? Dew and ink, Labour, symmetries? Blood is the only colour That can’t be erased from a book. Adrian Popescu, from My Cup of Light translated by Lidia Vianu and Anne Stewart
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Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 6:59 AM UTC
"Grapes"
Qué sería de mí si no me hubieras alcanzado Dónde estaría hoy si no me hubieras perdonado Tendría un vacío en mi corazón Vagaría sin rumbo, sin dirección Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor Sería como un pájaro herido que se muere en el suelo Sería como un ciervo que brama por agua en un desierto Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor Qué sería de mí si no me hubieras alcanzado Dónde estaría hoy si no me hubieras perdonado Tendría un vacío en mi corazón Vagaría sin rumbo, sin dirección Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor Sería como un pájaro herido que se muere en el suelo Sería como un ciervo que brama por agua en un desierto Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor Sería como un pájaro herido que se muere en el suelo Sería como un ciervo que brama por agua en un desierto Si no fuera por tu gracia y por tu amor
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May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 12:44 AM UTC
Jesus Adrian Romero - Que Seria De Mi
A single sober thought against a scape of memories To simply wish for stillness upon an ever-moving sea Silenced for the centuries as for me now to behold Tempting not to walk away, to bide its time to come Season only changes face twice for the human mind Now to guess the use of being born then just to die Elderly the woodworks, fragile beauty bitter-grown Such it is the way of man, the seed among the sown **Savour this scarce, small moment Deep in the wake of a weary-worn world Silent and long forgotten My bed underneath a shroud of snow** Cinnamon and broken toys, a songbird out of tune Easy pride in scarlet dress romanticised to blue Earnest words, a rarest toil to feed such cynic sight Raising hope to see despair rewrite the dearest lines Serenity now roams the sphere as if to call me home Such yet little precious light, a beacon sight of old Where the age once had a fright so readily to share Now every night seems easier with every step to take **Savour this scarce, small moment Deep in the wake of a weary-worn world Silent and long forgotten My bed underneath a shroud of snow** Come now Enter my room Take me back into the deep dark The night unknown A slave to the sunlight, kin to the moon Within the cobweb of life all noughts become one **Savour this scarce, small moment Deep in the wake of a weary-worn world Silent and long forgotten My bed underneath a shroud of snow** ©2018, Adrian Betz
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Dec 25, 2018
Dec 25, 2018 at 4:30 PM UTC
Winter Solstice
I switched homes in late June, from Missouri to Kansas. I came to a new school- one I saw when I was young, but never had much interest in. That's not really important, Not as important as the fact I've been trying to make new friends. Yet so much of me is scarred, from the isolation, from the manipulation, from the **** There are days I think I see your face in the hallway. My gut panics, but on the outside, I look at my friends, or straight ahead, and that swing of feigned confidence goes to my hips, and I act as if I am not afraid. So much of me is scarred from the fear. You made me too terrified to accept physical affection from a lover- or even a friend- for over sixth months. It took so much out of me hold Adrian’s hand. But I did it. Ever since that break up- minus a five month gap- he had been the only one to care for me. And I am so grateful for that. But now, nearing the end of the year, inching closer to February, I have so much anxiety. I am afraid you know where I live. I am afraid you still have my phone number. I am afraid for my life. I had a panic attack at midnight, because I am finally revealing the full extent of the fear you have caused me to my dearest. You have made me afraid to share my pains. You have made me experience a fear no one should have to experience. You have made me experience terror.
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Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 2:41 PM UTC
Fear
Sentado en su trono rodeado de luz A la diestra del padre gobierna Jesús Con ojos de fuego con rostro de sol Cuando abre su boca es trueno su voz CORO Poderoso en majestad y reino poderoso Poderoso en potestad de imperio poderoso Un gran arco iris corona su ser, él es el cordero que pudo vencer Él es el primero él es el postre, y arrojan corona delante de él
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Nov 3, 2015
Nov 3, 2015 at 3:09 AM UTC
Jesus Adrian Romero - Sentado En Su Trono
By the by, her prompt was summer, with several provocative, evocative poems by other authors.  I began this one in meeting, cuz I'd finished that first one and people were not done scribbling, nor had she called time yet, but as the sestet proves, I finished it an hour later, outside. (sonnet #MMMMMMCCCCIV) Yes, summer.  Blue skies nary clouds 'non fence While fragile boughs rock to rough winds' exhale, Leaves whispring as these golden shafts detail The colder silence we now scribble hence Through, and it's not e'en eight, but nearly, whence Ya, what?  A train's deep voice in passing'd hail, And people shift within their seats t'avail: It's...June, and Shakespeare said "hot," aye, that sense. Tis early, but the fifth, and cooler fer 'Most nine, as gloaming culls a winking crew Of robins and lo, who? to lilt in tour While I wait on this bench, and fading blue Skies yield to friends in passing, while tis your Face, arms, I want sae badly, Adrian:  you. 05Jun17c
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Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 2:53 PM UTC
Where Everyone's So Nice...For A Minute
We seem small under the same stars Underneath the balcony and the dying bride A lonely shore, a sight to behold Where only once I got to see my dreams **I see you, I see you Through my cradle bars As a prisoner I’m calling upon you Why wary Why obsessed with stories Written with empty words so long ago** Think of me in moments of contentment In sceneries only bare in their sincerity Silvery drawn, perfectly composed The first star of fall within a foreign shade **I see you, I see you Through my cradle bars As a prisoner I’m calling upon you Why wary Why obsessed with stories Written with empty words so long ago** Taint my skies in black and blue Sometimes dear noughts turn into nothing **I see you, I see you Through my cradle bars As a prisoner I’m calling upon you Why wary Why obsessed with stories Written with empty words so long ago** ©2018, Adrian Betz
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Jul 1, 2018
Jul 1, 2018 at 6:12 PM UTC
I See You
today we count down years since your first breath so let's take a moment to recall it all.                                         ... I've been whispering you Happy Birthday since ten years ago. One decade seeing you grow becoming the man you always been wishing for. Happy birthday my dear husband and happy many years together dancing. I will continue to wake you up in the middle of the night to whisper softly 'Happy birthday Adrian!'
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Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 3:54 AM UTC
Happy Birthday
I've been searching for the longest time for a place to begin... the life in which I should call mine, inspired by a hazy ora. I find myself just jumping the gun just looking to be done with this search...oh when is it over? To find independence and stability... to find not the needle ,but a certain piece of hay within the hay stack. The search to begin has happened over and over, every time I think I've found it... there I go pushed back to start, forced to start over. Except I am not a piece of plastic within a board game more like a hamster running on a wheel,but for what gain? Once again finding a place to begin again... a new set of friends inside of a new city... I think to myself " LOL the fun never ends." I set myself up, pretending to be cautiously sober from the depression that trapped me inside of such a hellish roller coaster. As I begin to find a place to begin again, here they come my father's words...shit.. "Just dig yourself out of the whole, that you've dug." **** I wasn't supposed to remember that part! ...Not in my place to begin again. I'll just have to retrace my steps...let's go back to the start "I once was a girl with depression, but I decided to get over it through repression, and here we are today, not to remember your father's words of blame...don't remember that, it's not important." (Rant over) A voice says: Hi, welcome back Adrian this is your place to begin again and if not... Well it's about time depression left you dead.
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Jan 20, 2015
Jan 20, 2015 at 12:21 AM UTC
A place to begin...again.
He stands before His Father's pride. Asking for their approval, But only anger circles in reply, Their shameful critique deemed crucial. As tears weep from poor Little King, He runs from the cruel and forsaken, But 'You still need me' His Father sings, With one glance back, he is poorly mistaken. -Adrian. H
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Mar 22, 2021
Mar 22, 2021 at 10:23 PM UTC
The Little King
she said we'd get through it together get over him together but now she's going to a movie with him, and i am wearing someone else's sweatshirt and thinking of him and his favorite movie. it doesn't matter how many pills i take, they will never change the face i see in the mirror. sometimes i think i need to just get out of this town, out of my own little head, my own little hell. and i guess i am happy with him when i am sitting in her kitchen and eating mexican food. but i guess he will never like me. because how can someone like you when you don't even like yourself? i'm chasing clouds, endless daydreams, turning into nightmares. it's weird how i feel fine walking down the street with jasper but i don't feel fine in my own house. and sometimes, i think this is so normal. and i go over to her house and see the way she acts, and i am reminded of reality. the tension i feel in this house isn't how families feel. and the way my dad treats me isn't how 'perfect' families work, or even broken families. and they wonder why justin never comes home. she pierced her nose and she's ruining our plans. i'm stuck in this room, the four walls hold stories that i will go to my grave with. they soak in the things that i can only let out when i am alone. sometimes i wonder why the **** it is worth it to go through all this pain for a few moments of illumination. but then bereket grabs my face and kisses my nose, my uncle hands me $20 because i want a latte and my dad won't let me have one. alex tells me my poetry is beautiful, and all i can think is, "if it is as beautiful as you think that i am then i am ****** adrian says words and ben lets me wear his sweatshirt. justin leaves the garage door open to never look back; chloe ****** off her parents to rebel against her own mind. sometimes i want to curl up in a ball and never wake up. because going to school, to group therapy, to yoga, why the hell is it worth it? hours upon hours of an endless loop, brought on by my brain. the way i feel in my heart when i think of if i will ever make it, if any one will ever want to love me, or like me, or tolerate me. if he says my poetry is as beautiful as i am, then i am ******
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Nov 3, 2013
Nov 3, 2013 at 9:50 PM UTC
worth
she said we'd get through it together get over him together but now she's going to a movie with him, and i am wearing someone else's sweatshirt and thinking of him and his favorite movie. it doesn't matter how many pills i take, they will never change the face i see in the mirror. sometimes i think i need to just get out of this town, out of my own little head, my own little hell. and i guess i am happy with him when i am sitting in her kitchen and eating mexican food. but i guess he will never like me. because how can someone like you when you don't even like yourself? i'm chasing clouds, endless daydreams, turning into nightmares. it's weird how i feel fine walking down the street with jasper but i don't feel fine in my own house. and sometimes, i think this is so normal. and i go over to her house and see the way she acts, and i am reminded of reality. the tension i feel in this house isn't how families feel. and the way my dad treats me isn't how 'perfect' families work, or even broken families. and they wonder why justin never comes home. she pierced her nose and she's ruining our plans. i'm stuck in this room, the four walls hold stories that i will go to my grave with. they soak in the things that i can only let out when i am alone. sometimes i wonder why the **** it is worth it to go through all this pain for a few moments of illumination. but then bereket grabs my face and kisses my nose, my uncle hands me $20 because i want a latte and my dad won't let me have one. alex tells me my poetry is beautiful, and all i can think is, "if it is as beautiful as you think that i am then i am ****** adrian says words and ben lets me wear his sweatshirt. justin leaves the garage door open to never look back; chloe ****** off her parents to rebel against her own mind. sometimes i want to curl up in a ball and never wake up. because going to school, to group therapy, to yoga, why the hell is it worth it? hours upon hours of an endless loop, brought on by my brain. the way i feel in my heart when i think of if i will ever make it, if any one will ever want to love me, or like me, or tolerate me. if he says my poetry is as beautiful as i am, then i am ******
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I could swear the way the men clustered around me after meeting they thought this below was a mere pretty fantasy....and perhaps you alone know differently, Adrian. (sonnet #MMMMMMCCCCIII) Lo, how I hear the Beatles' cherished scale Of "Yesterday--" 'non waltzing, like the sense We know by instinct, though by Shakespeare thence I thought to ink--what? cycling through the tale Of prairie grasses blackbirds' rakish hail Mocks?  Or those blue skies cloud fluffs whitely fence In lazy, um, battalions?  Or from hence As Will said, how I feel, likeas t'avail? When you say "lacy," to ask me if your Prompt, erm, hit home?  And how I long to do-- Not home-made popsicles, nor when in tour I lost my first tooth blowing up that new Um, kiddie pool--but you know.  Is it poor? Cuz summer's so short-lived, but I love you. 05Jun17b
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Jun 11, 2017
Jun 11, 2017 at 2:51 PM UTC
Mebbe It's Our Age-Old Secret?
*08Jun17:  probably Joe is done with me, Adrian assessed; my brother sez it is too fishy: "just forget it/him." (sonnet #MMMMMMCCCCLXXXII) How piquant notes of car'mel waft thin scents Across this hollow silence like t'avail, 'Cept there's none to be had in sheer betrayl; And blue skies wear soft white clouds with a sense Of lazy calm winds flirt 'non through from hence, Boughs nodding lightly as leaves whisper frail Auld secrets to the listning ear, as pale Light eyes these shadows which cavort, and whence? Forsooth.  They talk of la, the wedding, fer Our questions:  groom was "bro-force."  Hope th'ado Lasts until death, though couples think that poor These days.  And I cannot be sick of who Just toy with me, cuz I'm forever your Fool who oft use me thus.  Yes, what is new? 08Jul17a
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Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 8:17 PM UTC
And What Is NOT a Stale Old Cream Puff?