Im sorry, I'm being a ****** person.
I'm acting like someone I don't want to be.
worst I keep making you feel ****** about it all.
You are just so beautiful
So funny, so down to earth
So understanding and beautiful
I know I said beautiful twice.
I'm sorry I'm too weak to resist touching you
kissing you, wanting you for myself.
I hate that it seems like that's why I ask you to come over.
So I can try to kiss you
Its not
I meant it when I said I wouldn't try
Unfortunately I did and I'm sorry for that.

You kissed me
You don't know why
Are you falling for me
Could I really be this charming  
Could this really be happening
I just wish you told me why
Why did you kiss me

Every time I close my eyes
I see you with him
The pain I feel is almost unbearable
It keeps me up ,afraid to sleep
In fear I will see you and him
I try to think of something else
I can't,  my mind won't let me
No matter how hard I try
No matter how much I don't want to
Every time I close my eyes
I see you with him

It hurts when you leave
I wish you could stay
If only just one more minute
Just one more minute
Of laying next to you
Just one more minute
Of being with you
Just one more minute
Of not feeling alone
Just one more minute
Of looking at your beauty
Just one more minute of bliss

I give so much to those who don't deserve it
When the right person comes along
Will I have anything left to give

Among friends and family
I feel more alone than ever
It is suppose to be a happy time
But here I am with a fake smile
Pretending to be happy
Why is that?
What am I missing?

It's my birthday today
I wonder what fate has in store
I wonder how my day will go
I hope it goes well
Here's to another year above ground
And here's to many more