I saw you in fall
Red shirt, black leggings and black shoes

I saw you in winter
Black sweater, blue jeans and black shoes

No matter when i saw you, you smiled
A beautiful crystal smile

No matter the night i can always hear your voice
No matter the situation, I always smile at your laugh

No matter what
I can say,  a kiss was always just a kiss
Till the day I kissed you.

Till the day you deceived
The day you used
The day I hung my head in shame
Till the day I kissed you,  became the most regretable day.

It was the first
Love was in the air
The sensation of her creamy
pressed against my own
Body to body
Heart to heart

I love her with all I can
I'd give life away for her if I
The first
oh the sensation so blissful
The sensation so inviting

It was our first
It was the first I could not enjoy
All for the words

No strings attached...

I smoke **** just like you.
Money gives me greed just like you.
******* makes me wonder just like you.
My parents kicked me out when i was 17 just like you.
I died inside when i turned 13 just like you.
I saw life for what it was a 7 just like you.
I want to die everyday just like you.
I think about killing myself just ljke you.
I don't like money just like you.
I love the moon just like you.
I love the idea of love just like you.
Most important im not alone, just like you.

Is it left?
Is it right?
Is it there among the trees of oak?
Is it before the crystal waters of the sea?

Please madam is it among the country road?
Is it there? Among the safeguard of the lighthouse?
Is it here where I stand?
Here? Am I to be lost in this center of blindness?
Center of confusion?

It must be among light
Doomed among demons?
Here among the darkest center of earth?
Why this treacherous land?

Among the ashes of once beautiful land
dwelling upon the light of life
A simple sight lost from these clouded eyes
Doomed to die upon the familiar sadness this cage holds.

I held the whip.
I smiled upon my prey
Chained in front of me
Grieving
Crying
Wishing I did not exist
Whipping them mercilessly
With lies
Empty promises
Manipulation.
It was fun in the past

I see my errors
The poor people i have hurt
Staring upon myself
Seeing only scars that i left others
Wishing I could simply turn the world around

Now the time has come
Chained to the ground
Whipped
Whipped
Beaten mercilessly
With a whip crafted of false love
Held by my "true love"

Blinded by "true love"
Pain never entered my mind
But it cannot deceive my eye.
Chained, I will find my way
To escape these shackles
My "true love" will not hold me in the abuse of false love.

How?
How do I rise each morning?
How do I smile each day?
How do you not see I've died?

How can I love her?
How can I smile at her?
How? When its all empty emotions?

How Can I be this manipulative?
How can I be Full when I know nothing of myself?
How can I smile, when I know not how to love myself?

How can I?
Can you tell me?
Please?

If I beg?
Out of desperation would you pity me?
Help me live, Help me smile with true happiness

In the summer nights
The owls see the world
The world, the simple eye can not
In simple eyes
Vision is distorted
Wrinkles of reality
Lines of insanity
All that the simple eye can not
With simple eyes
Reality is within the visionless.