Whenever I close my eyes
Or look at an empty space
I would always see the vividness
Of your beautiful face
I remember your wispy hair
I remember your porcelain skin
The light touch of my small fingers
With yours that are so thin
Your eyes that hold a starburst galaxy
Still haunt me to this day
I'll never forget the feeling,
It's as if time has been delayed
It felt so much like staring
At a completely different dimension
The glimmer, the purity,
The stare with no hidden intention
Your eyes that held so many stars
Will always remain in my heart
With that thought in mind
It'll make me feel as if we're never apart

a box so small,
made to enthrall

a beautiful mystery,
a sweet harmony

a calming tune,
going so soon

a gentle lullaby,
just passing by

I've thought and thought
How my heart got caught
In a matter of days
I became besot

I've asked and asked
If it was in the past
Would I be able
To fall this fast?

I've dreamt a dream
I saw a gleam
That shined on you
In a room so dim

I fell and fell
But I couldn't tell
Because I know
It won't go well

I cried and cried
Even if I tried
You can't possibly
Know what's inside

And now after all,
After my hard fall
I just became...
A broken doll.

Will you teach me how to be strong?
When all else in life is wrong?
Will you teach me how to smile?
When everything turns vile?
Will you teach me how to hope?
When I want my neck around a rope?
Will you teach me how to continue?
When I don't know what to do?
Will you teach me how to heal?
When pain is all I feel?
Will you teach me how to live?

Broken, tattered
Undeniably shattered
Tears not shed
Cries not heard
Often wondered
Who the Hell would...
Want a broken doll
With a future blurred?

Twisting, turning
Tired of sleeping
But while dreaming
There is everything
Bright morning
Sun should be burning
Though deep inside
The rain is pouring

Question, tension
Thoughts many to mention
Inception, conclusion
Hoped it's just an illusion.

I love the sky.
I love how it is like a blank canvass.
I love how the clouds join it.
How they form figures that excite our minds.
I love how blue it is.
But it can also be pink, orange, and purple and I love it more.
I love how it is like a giant monitor.
How it shows the sun's lovely rays in the day.
How it shows the moon's gentle glow in the night.
How it shows the stars that are glittered everywhere.
I love it even when it's gray.
How it sympathizes to the clouds when they can't bear the rain anymore.
How beautiful lightning looks with it even when they scare the living days out of me.
I love the hope it gives.
I love how we've been taught that angels are there.
But I love the sky especially because you and I are both looking at it.
And it doesn't matter even if we're separated by oceans, by mountains, and by long, long roads.
I love the sky because when I look at it, I know you've been looking at it, too.
I love the sky because somehow... it connects me to you.
I look at the sky frequently and smile like a crazy person.
It comforts me.
Even when I can't be by your side, I'm glad.
I'm glad that He gave us the sky.
The sky that both you and I love.
The sky that reminds me everyday...
To never lose hope.
It won't be impossible.
Because you and I are under the same sky.

You are the darkness that the world fears
You are the entity that gives people tears
You are the sadness, you are the uncertain
You are the doubt, you are the pain
You are the negativity of everyone
You were shunned, you were buried
You were banished to the darkest depth
But my mind, my soul, and my heart knows
That you are more than the monster in the burrows
When they chose to abandon you, I was there
When they chose to judge you, I was there
But a person like me couldn't do anything
Except remember all the things that they were doing
I lost you...
I lost my everything.
But I want every single one of them to recall you every time they look up to the sky
Forgive me if I couldn't let you go completely
But I had to take something from you
A part of you that will always stay in this world from now on...
Your beautiful darkness.

Him:
I can see people move fast
But she was in slow motion
They're talking out loud
As she walks to my direction
She gave a lingering stare
With her deep brown eyes
And the stack of books she carries
Tells me she's wise
Her cheeks are painted
With a light blush of pink
Her sweet looking lips
Made me hard to think
An unbeknownst beauty
Who could she be?
I wish she didn't have to...
Walk away so rapidly.

When we fall apart someday...
Do you know what would hurt
more than losing you, the one I love?

It's to learn that to you,
I'm not the one who got away.

I wonder how your lips
would taste?
Would they be sweet
Like how I think
They would be?
Soft like marshmallows?
Firm like a lollipop?
Supple like gummies?
Smooth like chocolate?
But no matter how they taste,
I just hope you like ice cream.

If you are not who I think you are
Then I'll probably try to be smart
Yes, you may be the knight in my dreams
Yes, you may be holding my heart
But I fell for you before I knew
What kind of person you really are
Mentally, emotionally
I don't want you to be a scar
I dont want to think of you
And then feel an ache in my heart
I don't like the thought
Of us growing apart
I don't want to be hurt
And I don't want you to be the reason
I'd rather just be
Dreaming throughout the season
Of you, but only better
A you who believes in forever
Now that I think of it...
I love you... but not you...
I fell in love with someone...
Who I thought was you.

Will it be possible?
You and me
Will there be time for you to see?
I was the one who was beside you
During the grey days that you've been through
Will it be possible?
You and me
Do you think we're meant to be?
I know I should've said to you
That though we are friends I know...

That I love you.

I hate when I feel so lost, when I don't know where to go because you've already reached somewhere and left me on the way.

I hate when I feel mute, when no one hears what I say.

I hate when I feel that I'm invisible, when in fact I'm clearly here.

I hate when I feel alone, when you're not there while I'm in fear.

I hate when I feel that you only need me when necessary.

I hate when I feel so happy, and yet you don't even smile with me.

I hate feeling hate and I try not to, yet I'm just human too.

But I'll just smile through this arcane sadness and still stay beside you.

The pain of knowing that you can't own
the only thing that matters the most
Feels like reaching for something
That is beyond reach
It feels like crossing
An unstable bridge
It feels like swimming the deepest seas
And knowing that there is just no way
To survive,
To make things work
No matter how hard we try
Like stacking blocks up to a mile
Or looking for the river of Nile
In a barren desert
With nothing but imagination left
With nothing but...
A dying hope.

He's a thousand miles away,
He lives differently from me,
He's better than average...
And that's what made me notice him
Despite the seas...
Mountains...
And lands...
That serve as one of the many barriers
For him to see
And for me to see...
My one and only.

He's like...
An abstract painting.
Someone who is
Full of color and meaning.
Defined by unique strokes and techniques,
An unpolished beauty
That I won't fix.
He's an art...
Yet to be known,
A treasure...
That I can't own.

He gave her a rose
A lush, red rose
That screams of love
And end of sorrows
A vibrant rose
That made her smile
A mundane move,
A classic style
The queen of buds
That rules the heart,
One of the muse
Of nature's art
A bold flower
Of passionate romance
A beautiful rose
Left her entranced

His arms embrace me
as if saying he won't let go
His sweet promises
Make me look forward for tomorrow
He kisses my neck
My cheeks, nose, lips
A lingering touch
Made my heart miss a skip
He cupped my face
And looked straight to my eyes
I can tell that we are
Terifically mesmerized
He's too good to be true
Like an illusion, a mirage
But then it hit me...

This was just my envisage.

Her:
Tucked in my glasses
As I saw you down the hall
With you and your friends
Talking about basketball
Your smile is so bright
And warm like the sun
I took a longing glance
But then had to shun
When your eyes met mine
Afraid that you'd see
The love I have
The girl screaming in me
A shrug, I saw
That's what you did
Head down again
I feel so morbid
Onwards I go
I am unbeknownst
I'm back to being...
One of the shadows.

He embraces me as we lay together
A cuddle so innocent as the night goes deeper
He whisper words that make my heart flutter
How sweet it'd be if I wasn't his other.

His kisses are so light, so gentle, filled with longing
His smile is so true, it brightens up the morning
From dusk to dawn, we can't stop talking
About almost everything and to sweet nothings.

There will only be one time when you will meet...
Someone who'll feel like a perfect fit
Someone who'll make your life complete
Someone who'll make your heart fleet.

The feelings are perfect and so is he
Every moment's just right as long as he's with me
But imperfection comes, the time is faulty
And he's binded with someone accepted by majority

We're like tigers avoiding the hunt,
Like actors doing a dangerous stunt
Hide... hide... don't let them see
That we're together and we're happy

They may think that this is wrong
They may think that I'm headstrong
They may hate me for this affair
They'll do but hear me, I don't care

Because she's all anger
She's always bitter
But if she was better
There'd be no other.