I want someone to love the parts of me I never did--the way I get too excited over things, and the times I decide to leave my responsibilities, at a day at most. But most importantly, I want to love him, all of him because I see it, not from observation but because he trusts me enough to let me see

I wanted you to cut me open,
drink every ounce of the blood I was selling you.
I wanted you to look into my eyes,
see what no one else saw.
I just wanted to rip all your clothes off,
to lay with you, naked.
I didn't even want to touch really,
I just wanted to know what it felt like,
to be vulnerable again.

and god,
most of all i pray
for them,
please stay away
from my heart
I'm through with this
this aching *****
filling with blood
then spilling it  out
so it can poison the rest of my thoughtless body
this red ink
staining the sink
please
just let me be me again
filter out the remnants of you
from this tireless mind
and ceaseless soul

her eyes look small and watery red
now without the thick black eyeliner and false lashes
she seems so naked

You make me want to be small again.
To shrink in size so that you may carry me
and wrap me up in your arms.

You make me want to be vulnerable.
To dream a nightmare so that you will hold me
and tell me it will be okay.

But the most beautiful thing
is that you don't need me to be small or vulnerable.
Because you do it anyway.

You’re sitting in the eye of the storm, love
Don’t you dare move, or it’ll blow you away
I am a hurricane
And you’re an umbrella that got caught up in me
And won’t escape in one piece

You’re wrapped in my coils, love
I am the snake with hypnotic eyes
And you are the boy who fell into my trap
Keep breathing while you can
I’ll suffocate you before you ever get free

You’re treading water, love
I am the ocean
And you’re just a swimmer braving the waves
You should’ve stayed on the shore
Because the undertow will drown you

You’re caught in the lie, love
It fell off my lips
And it said that I love you, and that I’ll be good
Go ahead and believe me
I’ll smile as I break you

You’re just a fool, love
You thought you could own me
But I belong to the world
And it tastes better than your happiness
It feels better in my arms