Have I made the best decisions
Have I done all I could
Have I used the judgement that I have
And used it all for good?

I envy you, I really do
You had a lover, that makes two
You have a family, quite happy
You're lucky and me, messy

I envy you for what you have
I gave my heart and it's halve
Only for you, I Love You
But in the end, there's no me and you

I gave you everything I had
Remembering it all makes me sad
Because without you I'm nothing
But you did leave my heart hurting

Love, you mean everything to me
Too sad, you ignored it to see
It means you can't love me
And it feels that blame is on me

To all my co-seafarers out there
We're a kind of man that is rare
Sailing port to port is never easy
It makes our mind look messy

Grieve to achieve more and more
We sail to make our own lore
It's hard to have a safe sail you know,
Just to make my times flow and glow

For our family's on our homelands
Too far but cannot cut our bonds
Even if we are far from our loveones
A day with them will be our lance

As we sail through depths of sea
Only the future in your eyes, I see
Partly inloved without a body,
Of me waiting to be full heartedly

It's sad to say how people judge us
Disregarding it but it has a mass
We don't talk for us to believe
Is these words is what you give?

They say we're fool and full
Fool to trust our "I Love You"
And full of girls that we've made "I do"
But they know nothing but judgements

It feels good when you're way back home
Stealing kisses and hugs that comes
Years or months? Sad but there's also weeks
But its fine even a peke on your chicks

It's hard when we need to leave again
Let we connect with a paper and a pen
Our eyes won't lie to "I miss you"
All I wanted is to be with you

As of now we're heading east
To sail to other lands for a fiest
Not to make love to other girls
I'll finish my job and buy you rose

I hate how I fell again when I knew better then too.
I hate how you make me feel used
I want to have something special with you
But I know I'll never have a chance with you

I never learn and I never will
I always hurt when I'm with you
I let you walk all over me
I let you hurt me
Whether with words or actions
As much as this hurts I cant let go
I know you love her, of course who wouldn't?
She is perfect in all the ways
Where I'm nothing at all but someone who's faithful.
But at the end of the day that isn't enough
I guess I'll have to keep trying.

Every hope I've ever built up,
it all comes crashing down.

How do I always get stuck with the broken ones,
their scattered pieces on the ground.

I'm left to pick them up
and solve their messy riddle.

I put their pieces back in place,
no matter how brittle.

I make them whole and happy.
I make them tall and strong.

I give them my devotion and love,
but then they treat me wrong.

Because I picked them up,
and helped them start anew

they think that they're entitled.
I guess that's what they're used to.

They're accustomed to deference.
They expect to be treated like queens and kings.

I let them abuse and use me,
each day brings a new sting.

I always realize too late,
getting hurt by their schemes and plans.

It's only when their true colors show
that I see bloodied red cuts on my hands.

Trying my best
To progress
There is only do
Or do not
Yoda thought
So most of the time
We fought

I’ve got anger
Issues
Many birthdays
I’ve wished you
In all my hearts pain
I miss you

You’re not quite
Who I knew
We used to
Chill with brew
Remember the time
We flew?

We argued then too
Across the country
And it’s all we could do
Here I go again
Trying to scrape this
**** off my shoe

My heat is turning
For flight I’m yearning
The sun is hot
My wings are burning
I’ve got warrior feet
At the road ahead
I’ll be turning
Run or fly
I’ll chase the sky
Metaphorically
Astrophysically
My physical being
seems to limit me
This fool in my bed won’t
Give me matrimony

If this was Salem
I’d burn at the stake
No matter what era
You take pride
In the hearts you break
The years you take
The lies you make

The least you can do
Is own your ****
2 woman gone mad
there’s a pattern  here
You’ve got to admit
Wait where did the charm go
Where’s that wit?
Even Letty said
She couldn’t trust your *** for ****
Apparently you ****** her sister
And ****** some old lady’s ****

Even when he’s got it made
Angel turned demon throws his shade
Should you call you the devil
From hell you came
I’ve stooped to your level
And only I’m to blame