They say I am ill, That my future stands, still Too far out of reach Yet not close enough to feel
It's patience is no virtue It's silence is no gift, I will claw my way to find it just to find it doesn't exist.
They will watch with desperate eyes praying that through all the destruction and hatred I pass I will somehow survive the disguise of my past
It's soulless smile rips through my skin Destroying the layer of heaven I built Constricting my heart of the love I once felt
They say not to live in the past, or fret of the future but to stand in the present
But how can I stand when the past has shaken the ground I am on, & the future clouded my blue sky with grey?
I wrote this in a time when I honestly felt like I wasn't going anywhere and that somehow, no matter how much I tried, my past would always catch up to me. I hope you like it and that some of you can relate.. :))
Around me people are moving Buzzing, swarming, fluttering And living. Legs moving but I am stationary Stationary as a pencil And my life is being written for me And every slip outside the lines Is erased - reluctantly Not without grudges Leaving contorting smudges. And the world around me changes But I am stationary And they can live without me.
What's the point of you at all when all they want is a cut-and-paste person. <3
When I feel the world is moving way too fast, When the stars disappear and reappear over the horizon in what feels like seconds, When the moon's gentle crescent curve consumes the black around it and expands in the span of a night - We’re moving so fast, you and I, we’re falling through space and time The universe is expanding and we’re falling into the sun Flying through space at a thousand miles an hour With the sun hitting us at the speed of light Life here is infinite, stretching out forever So when I feel we’re going too fast I rummage in my accumulated possessions and pull out the most valuable piece I set up my still forest of ticking trees and clockwork animals Plant the swaying grass within the everlasting soil
I'll sit in my unmoving meadow And watch the world stay still